coolestloser

Status: back to where I started
Joined: January 15, 2012
Last Seen: 9 years
user id: 263858
Location: new yorkkkk
Gender: F
staying strong is hard, especially when it's all you have.
Thats all I have. I have that and a name.
They call me Chloe. 

Quotes by coolestloser

Its almost like I'm so used to being starving, that I hardly notice it anymore.
This is too much to handle, and theres no escaping it.
It scares me when I start to feel like this...








But in the same way, its comforting.
It's weird.. I kinda miss my depression.



It was a huge part of me for so long,




It's just weird to be without it.
But,
What if I just turn out to be
'just another ex' ?



scary thought.
I kinda want to thank two of my very best friends.
Thank you Amy and Nikita.
You've done so much for me to get better, and I honestly don;t know if I would be here without you guys.
And I never really have said thank you before and I need to let you both know that you both mean SO MUCH TO ME.
so Amy, Thank you for encouraging me to get the help I needed and thank you for being my shoulder to cry on. You're such an amazing friend and I love you<3
and Nikita, thank you for being there to talk to about anything and everything, even though you live miles away, you're my best friend. love you girl<3

 
Today in my math class, I was talking to this girl next to me. I looked down to see her wrists full of cuts.

Me: "Can I ask you a question?" 
Her: "Sure!" 
Me: "Where are all those scrachs and scars from?"
Her: "Oh.. uh my cat.."
Me: ".... I've told that lie way too many times to think it's true."
Her: " ... they're from me cutting..."
Me: " I just wanted to let you know you're not alone."
Her: " wait, what?"
Me:" I'd show you my scars, but they're on my hips.."
Her: " you used to cut?"
Me: " yeah, about 3 months ago, I asked for help for my eating disorder and cutting. It's a good thing, because I honestly dont know if I'd be here If Amy didnt make me get help. So I just wanted you to know, everything will get better, I promise."
Her: "Thank you so much"
I reached out to her to tell her she isnt alone. Everyone needs someone to tell them that. It means something.
Keep Fighting Darling.



It's not the end.
Being replaced.


Don't worry, Not like that hasn't happened before.