It's been almost 16 years
since you died. I never understood why you did it until I
realized that you just weren't happy. You couldn't have a
baby, your husband cheated on you, a lot was going on. That's
why you did it. It was too much for you to handle. The best way
you could handle was by not doing it. So you killed yourself. I
was only a baby at the time, but I've seen the videos of you
playing with me as a baby. I still have the blanket you gave me.
I was the last person that you saw that day. We have it on video.
You were sitting in mommy's rocking chair putting me to
sleep. You were saying goodbye and that you were gonna miss me
and that you were gonna watch over me. Nobody saw the video until
it was too late. My life would be different if you were still
here. It would of been crazy. We look a lot alike. Mom Mom says
that I have your hair and body shape. It makes me happy thinking
that I have something of yours.
today Nicky and Steph lost their baby. She was only an hour old.
Her heart was 3 times the size of her chest and her body
couldn't handle it. I didn't even meet her. I can't
imagine how they must be feeling. They were planning on bringing
her home, not planning taking her to her funeral. I bet you knew
that already. You are up there holding her in your arms as she
falls asleep. She's probably really beautiful. Yeah, I bet
she is. You got your baby you always wanted. I'm happy for
you, I really am. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. I miss
you, I wish I got to meet her before she left. It's okay Aunt
Jeanie, I'll forgive you.
I'll Always Love You,