You know how we’re always wishing for time to go by quicker because we’re bored or cant wait for something better…well, my Aunts boyfriend of 4 years has brain cancer, he was recently given about 5 months to live ……so on the days that, we all want to speed up and pass by are days he and probably thousands of other people in this world are scared to end.
…don’t wish for time to fly, live and enjoy life
while you still can.
♥
Last night
I cried, because I’m not strong enough to keep it all inside…
I slept, because it was the only way to keep me from having some sort of breakdown…
I woke up at 5, and got out of bed, even though its Sunday,
because I couldn’t stand to dream about it anymore…
I didn’t say a word to my family, because every word I say, reminds me…
I didn’t look in any mirrors, because my reflection tells me that I’m not good enough…
Last night…
I didn’t cry for you…
Oh no…
I was sad because of you…
But I cried and did all the other stuff because this always happens…
Because I lost a summer love…
Because no one understands me…
Because I thought this was different…
Because I thought this time you cared…
Because its not fair…
Because
my best-friend has an amazing relationship and
they’ve managed to stay together for a long time
now…
Why cant I manage that…?
Because I’m always second best…</3