daddysgirl4396

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Joined: June 12, 2010
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The names meagan, i'm a complete and total mess and i can admit it. I'm sixteen years young, but i had to grow up fast and i miss my childhood so much!</3 i can be a great time then again a complete wreck. I have my share of problems but i'm working to fix them. I am single, but my head and heart are fighting about one boy;*! i am a busy girl but i make time for witty<3 well ask me anything
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Things to know about me..hmmm.
Witty has become a big part of my life<3
I take part in the butterfly project, well i did..
I take part in twloha day(to write love on her arms)
I'm a recovering self-harmer, i used to cut, and starve myself.
For those of you who don't know what self-harm is it is when you inflict pain on yourself or do any destructivi behavior to yourself, cutting, hitting onself, biting onself, breaking bones on purpose, pulling oneselfs hair, and many more actions. Self harm is not always a suicide attempt or a cry for attention some do it as a release or a bring back. Release is an escape or a reliver it's when people do it to relive emotional pain and sometimes even physical, And a Bring back is when a person feels "dead" or like they're living in a dream it gives an adreniline rush to help them come back to earth so to speak. Hope this helped shed light on what self harm is.
 I also do the day of silence to support gay rights,*i am straight, but no people who arent and they're amazing*
well thats it for now,
 if you're reading this you're beautiful:)<3

Quotes by daddysgirl4396

Truth is. i'm done with this thing we call "life"
I could soend another night laying in bed crying and wondering what happened, and asking what i did wrong. I'd rather sit and just type it all out until there is nothing left.

* I say i hate you, but i wish i could. You were my bestfriend, the person i went to when things went wrong, when things went right. When we were fighting, i still texted you first when i passed my permit test because we had childish plans to go to chuckie cheese whenw e could drive for eachothers birthdays. I felt the need to tell you first since you were my first true friend, my first real bestfriend. But now i sit and i think, your number is gone, we're no longer facebook friends and i'm trying at all costs to avoid you. But deep inside i'm waiting for a text, call or you to show up, we both did wrong we've admited it befoer but apparently ir wasn't good enough we thought the goodbye was nessacary but i couldn't say it..i didn't want to it hurt to much. i just miss our friendship. I loved our talks at night, we talked about life about death, about memories and our futures. We talked about where i was planning on going to college because we wanted to make sure i still could come down and visit. Now i may go farther away but i still will come down to visit becasue i still have hope we will become friends again. I miss my bestfriend so much</3

 
*I'm lost in all my emotions*

 
I love laying in bed listining to the thunder and rain , while watching the lightning ..
-Even though the memories flood back while i lay there and tears stream down my face-

 

The first step for recovery is saying to yourself

"I have a problem.."

When you admit it, it makes you stronger

Have faith in yourself, and 

Always hope for a better tomorrow.

 

*Remember you don't have to go through anything alone, there is always someone who is going through what you are or has been through a similar situation or even the same. Don't be afraid to ask for help*

 

Live as if it's your last day

Smile as though you've never been hurt

Love like you've never loved before

and remeber

It's okay to cry, but don't spend you're life in sorrow.






And i'm the black sheep of the family..

I visted my grandmas grave today, along with my grandpa and older cousins. But as soon as i hit the gate to the  cemetery tears started falling. I've only been there three times in four years.. the first was for the funeral, second was for the anniversary of my older cousins birthday, and today the third to put flowers down in memory of all them. Seeing her name there broke me..deep down i still hope she's coming home even though i know she's not..
R.I.P Brian Jr. 1990
R.I.P Grandpa 2005
R.I.P Grandma 2008
I Love You All ..<3
 
I want a friend guy friend i can just text when i need to talk, when i need a distraction, one who wont judge me. I want a guy bestfriend to help show me i cna survive this thing we call "Reality"..





I lost my bestguyfriend and it's like i have no one now.. All i want is a true friend ..</3