I do try.... And for days, seconds, weeks it is
enough. But then people make a comment or 'joke' around
and BAM I'm to back where I started; yelling at the wolrd,
hurting MYSELF instead of others..... People often don't
realize what affect they have on others, how
m a l l
e b l e everything is. It hurts so so much to get up
and and not break down , to look at people everyday who are
smiling and enjoying life, while I am just standing alone here in
the cold again. I just want to happy, content, peaceful,
normal, you know? But I just can't seem to
be enough I guess- I can't
ever
be enough..... I am breaking
inside I am screaming out and just nothing, no one
here to help.
(Sorry Just wanted to
rant)