deck

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Joined: May 30, 2012
Last Seen: 8 years
user id: 303943
Gender: M

Cleaned my slate, I'm depressed, I have confidence issues, I hate myself. No point wiriting about it, all it does is cause pain. I've attempted suicide 15 times .Been cheated on.Hate myself.Have a fear of turning into a monster.Sadly I haveMy names Declan, call me Deck. I'm 18 and I'm on the edge. If I leave I plan to go helping as many others as possible.I've hurt the girl I love, Liv. I just wish I was better, stronger, more perfect. But that's not the case


heyy ma homies its liv (i_will_awake_down_the_line)
well there is so much i can say about decran here :3
deck is one of the closest people to me
he seriously knows everything about me...which is scary because im weird and im suprised that you dont pay me out :p im glad you dont though :)
sooooo
deck is like the sweetest guy like EVER :D
you guys should talk to him because he is amazing
deck is so strong and its amazing that he is still alive and still pushes forward
sadly me and deck recentally split up
so he isnt mine anymore :'(
BUT
he still totally owns my heart
i love him so much
like deck i love you so much
but
im so glad that your getting happy :)
i wouldnt be suprised if every girl started hitting on you and wanted you
when you get a girlfriend im going to be so happy for you :)
because you will be happy
and like i said the first time we started talking, your like the brother i always wanted
so ill always be around :D
unless thats weird :p
byyyyyeeeeeee yallllll :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7W0xJ5YqSM 
^^ epic song that always makes me think of how i feel for this boii ^.^
xxx

Quotes by deck

Tempted to start doing drugs again. So i can watch the whole world pass by. As i lose myself and eventually die.
That moment when i wake up in the morning and make baby dinosaur noises as i attempt to get out of bed.
im back. sorry i left.

missed you all
Atleast youre alive and okay, i was so worried about you, if you had done it.....

I dont know where i would be.
Hold me now, 
'Cause I couldn't even if I tried.
It's over now, 
I guess it really is my time.

I don't wanna go, 
But it's time I gotta say goodbye.
So hold me now, 
'Cause this'll be our last time.

I'm slowing down, 
And I don't think that I can fight.
I know somehow, 
You'll find a way to live your life.

Remember just to live, 
Ever day like it's your last.
And hold me now, 
'Cause I think it's time for me to pass.

I don't wanna die, 
I don't know why, 
This kind of fate was meant for me.
You gotta be strong, 
Gotta move on, 
It's not how it was supposed to be.
What do I say, 
It was never supposed to end up this way.
What do I have to do, 
Was supposed to grow old with you.

But that ain't gonna happen.
Mhmm.
No that ain't gonna happen.

Hold me now, 
'Cause the time I've got's running out.
No tears allowed, 
Even though we've become without.

I just wanna feel, 
Your head laying on my chest.
So hold me now, 
As I take my last breath.

I don't wanna die, 
I don't know why, 
This kind of fate was meant for me.
You gotta be strong, 
Gotta move on, 
It's not how it was supposed to be.
What do I say, 
It was never supposed to end up this way.
What do I have to do, 
Was supposed to grow old with you.

But that ain't gonna happen.
Mhmm.
No that ain't gonna happen.
im as good as dead...
I need to make another sleeve soon. lifes becoming to much, soon i probably wont have an arm left.
i cut again. did it at school aswell.

but thank god it helped...
I dont know what the f*ck is wrong with me.
ive hurt so many people today.

Im so
sorry

Im so so sorry.

I deserve to die and thats what i intend to do.

goodbye