deck

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Joined: May 30, 2012
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 303943
Gender: M

Cleaned my slate, I'm depressed, I have confidence issues, I hate myself. No point wiriting about it, all it does is cause pain. I've attempted suicide 15 times .Been cheated on.Hate myself.Have a fear of turning into a monster.Sadly I haveMy names Declan, call me Deck. I'm 18 and I'm on the edge. If I leave I plan to go helping as many others as possible.I've hurt the girl I love, Liv. I just wish I was better, stronger, more perfect. But that's not the case


heyy ma homies its liv (i_will_awake_down_the_line)
well there is so much i can say about decran here :3
deck is one of the closest people to me
he seriously knows everything about me...which is scary because im weird and im suprised that you dont pay me out :p im glad you dont though :)
sooooo
deck is like the sweetest guy like EVER :D
you guys should talk to him because he is amazing
deck is so strong and its amazing that he is still alive and still pushes forward
sadly me and deck recentally split up
so he isnt mine anymore :'(
BUT
he still totally owns my heart
i love him so much
like deck i love you so much
but
im so glad that your getting happy :)
i wouldnt be suprised if every girl started hitting on you and wanted you
when you get a girlfriend im going to be so happy for you :)
because you will be happy
and like i said the first time we started talking, your like the brother i always wanted
so ill always be around :D
unless thats weird :p
byyyyyeeeeeee yallllll :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7W0xJ5YqSM 
^^ epic song that always makes me think of how i feel for this boii ^.^
xxx

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AlpacaPerson 1 decade ago
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Heeeyy why didn't you reply? Deck I'm getting worried :'( please talk to me as soon as your on next time!
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sarahlikesbands* 1 decade ago
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hello (:
how have you been?
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leeuumm 1 decade ago
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stay strong mayn
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AlpacaPerson 1 decade ago
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How are you? I haven't talked to you in a while :/
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sarahlikesbands* 1 decade ago
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good (:
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sarahlikesbands* 1 decade ago
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You're strong you can do this (:
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sarahlikesbands* 1 decade ago
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you are not going to die! not until you are supposed to and that is definately not now :/
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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please..
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sarahlikesbands* 1 decade ago
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:( i'm sorry... i obviously can't help with that :/
but like i said even if you just need to vent i'm here. always :)
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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go on skypee:/
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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:/ deckk
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sarahlikesbands* 1 decade ago
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I know... and I honestly don't know what that feels like. but I really don't want you to die. people obviously care about you, not everyone :/ and not everyone shows it...
there's not much I can do because i'm only 14 and I don't really have much of an influence on anyone. I don't know what it feels like to be so lost and feel so alone that I can't take it, or what real depression feels like. but I do know what being extremely insecure, alone and unwanted feels like. and like I can't help anyone.
so if you need to talk I'm here :/
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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can you go on skypee?/: actually nvmm..
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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forget it..
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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i'm not.
and okay.
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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okay... and i'm not/: did u skype liv yesterday? lol
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AlpacaPerson 1 decade ago
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I was wrong to think I could help you. I'm just 13. I'm a sheltered girl who goes to a private Christian school. I've never known anyone who cut or was suicidal. I thought I could help. I thought that if I did this one thing that maybe I could help, maybe I could make a difference. But that's just not how it works. How can I help you when I'm just a "kid" whith lots of problems of my own? The funny thing is, I don't think it was me that made you happier. You had lots of other friends helping you. And here I am trying to take the credit. I'm messed up. Just forget I was ever here. I'm not making anything better for you and I don't want to make it worse.
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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ii just wanna be skinny/:
and whatd u remember?
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AlpacaPerson 1 decade ago
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When I talked to you more often and tried to help you seemed to be doing better... But then I stopped for a while and got to caught up in other crap and now your on the verge of doing drugs :'( it's my fault. You can say it. It's all my fault. I screwed up. Just like I always do.
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the_story_left_untold 1 decade ago
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why?!?
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