It's all in the details. The way someone stops smiling the
moment you aren't looking. How their answers become shorter,
their laughter a little bit more forced for every time.
You'll sometimes catch them with a distant look in their
eyes, as if they're staring into the big nothingness that
surrounds them. Completely gone. Lost. Alone. You might find that
they start distancing themselves from you, making excuses,
feeding you with their little covering lies. "I'm just
tired," they'll say. They'll laugh it off, every
single time. You should pay attention to how they start covering
up their bodies, hiding every inch of their skin, hating every
inch of their skin. They won't take your compliments, if so,
you'll only get a simple 'thankyou' and they will
take it all for lies. Self hate could easily be mistaken for self
irony - although they say it with a smile on their face, keep
your eyes open for the empty look that follows. Pay attention.
Never look away. Because they are nearly impossible to spot,
unless you're one of them.
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