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Going to go jump off a cliff. Literally. Farewell everyone, this is for you.
Ten Reasons Why
When I was little, simply a kid in elementary school who was oblivious to the many problems in the world, I liked to dream. I'd like to dream that one day, I would meet my prince charming. He would be everything I look for in a guy-- sweet, funny, intelligent--and we would fall in love instantly. I'd imagine my dad walking me down the aisle, and my mother would be in the front row, sobbing with happiness. I dreamed that I would have children with him, and we'd grow old and wrinkly together. That we'd never fall out of love. I dreamed of so many things, actually believing that one day in the near future, this would all unfold. That my life would turn out this way.
But it wouldn't.
My name is Raina Murray and I'm seventeen years old, in my last year of high school.
My father is dead, my mother is emotionally damaged, my friends have ditched me and my brother is too caught up in popularity to ever really take notice of me anymore.
This is the story of how I almost jumped off a cliff,
and this is the story of how the bad boy stopped me.
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Pleeease like if you'd actually be willing to read this c:
Using Mr Parker
♥
Logan ♥
P r o l o
g u e
It was weird thinking that the person that I sit
behind in English could be suicidal for all I knew. Maybe the guy
I work with mother is dying. At the end of the day nobody knew
anybody. I don't think many people took the time to think
about it, the fact that everybody has that one secret that nobody
knows, not even their best friend. Some people think nobody knows
how they feel, they feel like they are the only person who is in
a certain situation.
I'm one of those people.
Nobody knew how it felt, nobody knew how it felt to watch your
own mother cry because she couldn't afford to get you a
christmas present or a new top. Nobody knew. Nobody even
knew that my mother was struggling to put food on the table and
pay the bills. Though, I was grateful for what I had because I
knew there were children out there who had it much worse. I was
greeted by my mother one sunny day after school and sat on one of
the chairs, talking to her about my day.
“How much homework do you
have?” My mum asked as she washed the dishes.
“Not much,” I shrugged.
“A few questions for history, that's
it.”
“Oh, that's okay. You
should go do it, Logan before it gets late.” I nodded my
head, heading towards my room which was close to the back door.
We lived in a small house, with two bedrooms and one bathroom but
it was enough.
Dad left mum and I when I was 15, nearly 3 years ago. He left her
for a girl only a few years older then me. I
haven't heard from him since, though for my 16th birthday, he
got me a car. Though I know how to drive, I have never once used
it. I have told my mum countless times that I'll sell it but
she doesn't want me to.
I finished my History homework within an hour and went downstairs
to keep my mum company. When I went to the kitchen she was
leaning against one of the walls, tears filling her eyes and it
broke my heart.
“M-mum?”
“Oh, Logan,” she said
wiping her tears. I looked much like my mum, we had the same dark
brown, almost black hair and big chocolate brown eyes. The only
think I seemed to get from my father was my pasty skin. “I
was just-just.”
“Mum, what's in your
hand?” I questioned slowly, looking at the white envelope
in her hands.
“N-nothing. It's just from
a friend.”
“Mum, tell me,” I
demanded. I didn't usually speak to my mother this way, she
had raised me better then that but at this point, I just wanted
to know what was wrong with my mother.
“It's from the council...
they're-they're taking the house away from
us.”
“What, why?!” I
exclaimed.
“Sweetie... I am so
sorry,” my mum bowed her head. Like she
ashamed. Ashamed of what? This was all my dads
fault.
“Mum, it isn't your
fault,” I told her softly. “I love you,” I
murmured. “I couldn't wish for any other person to be
my mum. If I had a chose, I would you choose you every single
time.”
“I promise everything will be
alright in the end,” she told me. “I'll make sure
of it.”
“Mum... where are we going to
live?” As soon as I asked, I wish I hadn't.
“Well, I am going to call your
Aunt Cassidy and see.” Aunt Cassidy wasn't really my
aunty, though growing up she was like my second mother, my mums
best friend.
This was one of the times that I wanted to be alone so I excused
myself, holding back tears. Finally, when I got to my room the
tears came pouring out and I sobbed into my pillow. That night, I
made a wish.
I wished that somehow I would be able to help my
mum.
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Teaser: A name was written on the board in
neat cursive handwriting. It said Mr
Parker.
{A/N So this is my new story, it is a love
story. I know many people have strong beliefs about
student/teacher relationships and I understand that but this
story isn't about a 50 year old teacher. Mr
Parker is young. I hope you guys don't
find it boring! I have been having some doubts about UMP but I
decided to upload the prologue and see what you all think.
Feedback? For those of you who have no idea what this story is
about you can go to my website: www.sugarfreakstories.weebly.com
and there is a blurb and what the characters look like (most of
the characters haven't been
introduced)}
.: I Met Him On Omegle :.
Andrea's P.O.V
It made me wonder why all guys weren't like Alec. Alec was perfect in every single way. “Are you going to be okay?” he asked.
“Fine,” I murmured.
“Do you want me to come out with you? I'll walk you there.” I didn't run off like I had been planning to.
“What if something bad happened to him?”
“I'm sure nothing did,” Drake told me.
“B-but-”
“But what? I'm sure he's perfectly fine, he probably wants to apologise for his behaver. I wouldn't be surprised if that was the case.” Is that the reason? If so, why was it Ryan who called me and why did he sound so stressed?
“Okay, I'm going to go up,” I decided.
“Go, good luck beautiful,” Alec said. He got out of the car, giving me a big hug and kissing my forehead. “I know I don't know you all that well but I decided you're my best friend.” A grin formed on my face.
“You're my best friend as well,” I mumbled into his chest.
“Go,” he urged. I went into the apartment building and made my way to Ryan and Jesses apartment. I knocked on the door. My nerves were killing me.
What if something really bad happened?
Ryan answered, quickly. “What is wrong with him?”
“He-he won't come out of his r-room. I can't get him out,” Ryan breathed.
“You gave me a heart attack! I thought something bad had happened to him! I can't believe you did that, I thought he was dying or something,” I laughed but Ryan didn't smile what so ever.
“Andi...”
“What happened to him?”
“Andi, today is Jesse's parents and brothers one year.”
“What?” I furrowed my eyebrows.
“Today, last year, his whole family died in a car accident.”
“Is he okay?!” The panic in my voice was clear as day.
“I don't know, he won't open his door.”
“I'm sure he's fine, he probably just needs some space.” I said it more for me then anybody else. I needed reassuring that Jesse was fine.
“Jesse is going to kill me for this... but I think you should know...” Ryans voice trailed off.
“Tell me,” I demanded.
“Jesse has tried to commit suicide on numerous occasions.”
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Did any of you excpect that? (: I hope not! It was supposed to be a s u r p r i s e.
Friend: Why?
Me: Are you serious? Have you seen his smile!?
Friend: You should tell him.. he likes you too.
Me: HE DOES? How do you know!?
Him: Because I know your friends password.
.: I Met Him On Omegle :.
Andreas P.O.V
I stared at her, great! What was I supposed to say? I'm Andi Jones and I have a huge crush on your boyfriend! Oh and I stalked you! Yeah, I don't think that would be what she wanted to hear. “I'm Andi Jones,” I replied trying to keep my emotions to myself.
“Andi? Is that short for anything?” Rose asked.
“Yup,” I said popping the 'P'. “It's short for Andrea.”
“You've got a really pretty name,” she flashed me a grin.
“Thanks.”
“What part of Australia are you from?”
“New South Wales,” I replied. What could I ask her? Is your boyfriend a good kisser?
“I visited there some time last year. The beaches are amazing.” I smiled at her. Why wasn't she a b/tch?! In all the romance novels I've read, the girlfriend of the guy is always a sl/t and a b/tch. So, why is it that Rose is so perfect? So nice?
“Andi, do you have a boyfriend?” Rose questioned.
“No... Do you?” I knew the answer would be yes but I asked it anyway. She grinned when I asked her that.
“Yes, the most romantic, handsome guy you'll ever meet! He is my everything,” she looked afar, dreamingly.
“How did you meet?” I asked. This was my chance to find out more about Rose and Jesses relationship.
“We had been going to school together since the 9th grade and he just randomly asked me out last year. I had liked him for forever, of course. I love him,” she told me.
“Have you told him?” I asked.
“Told him what?” Rose furrowed her eyebrows in confusion.
“That you love him.”
“Yes,” she grinned. “He was the first one to say it, a few months ago.”
“That's great Rose, you're lucky.”
“I am.”
“So...” my voice trailed off.
“I'm having this party at my place tonight and was wondering if you'd like to come?” she chirped. “Everybody would love you!”
“Uh... I don't know.” If I went, I'd see Jesse.
“It'll be fun, really fun! Like you could meet my boyfriends best friend, who is single. His name is Ryan and he's a cutie! I'm sure you guys will hit it off!” Defiantly no, now. “Please?” Rose pouted.
“I don't know.”
“It will be so much fun and you can meet new people!” she told me.
“Okay,” I said.
“What?”
“Okay, I'll go to the party.”
Inside, I knew the only reason I was going was so I could win over Jesse.
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Uhm... yeah. What'd you think? (: What do you guys think of Rose? I started school today, so I do apologise if I don't get to upload everyday, though I will try <3
I was listening to this song that brought back memories from when i wanted to kill myself. With hearing the song i started crying. I stopped the song and took my headphones out to get off. I heard one of the guys on my bus making fun of me i turned around and this is how the conversation went...
Me: What the f.uck are you making fun of me for?!?! You don't even know why i was f.ucking crying. Who the F.uck do you think you are to judge somebody for the pain they have went through!?! What is so funny about someone wanting to kill themselves???
Him: It's kinda funny.
Me: NO IT F.UCKING ISN'T!!! SOMEONE DIES EVERY 40 SECONDS BECAUSE OF SUICIDE IT'S NOTHING TO JOKE ABOUT!!!
Him: Actually it kinda is.
Me: SAY THAT AGAIN I F.UCKING DARE YOU!!!! WATCH HOW FUNNY IT WILL BE WHEN IT'S SOMEONE YOU PRACTICULLY TOLD TO KILL HERSELF!!!
Everybody else was dead silent, we were in the middle of the hallways, this boy who is a junior was standing behind me, he asked me why i wanted to kill myself. My answer was,
Me: Because of A$$holes like him, who make people feel worthless for not being like everyone else.
Him: But why didn't you confront them?
Me: Becuase, When the pain is this bad, you just want to keep it to yourself. Nobody else wold understand.
Tanner (that's his name) Then lifted his sleeve to reveal cuts on his wrist.
Him: Trust me i know what it's like to have nobody.
At this point, i was pretty much balling, right in his arms.
The kid who made fun of me then proceded to make fun of us. now this kid was kind of taller than me. I told him to come down to my level. When he finally did, i looked him dead in the eyes took a step back, and Punched Him. He ended up having to stay in the nurses office all day. I got a Detention, Tanner later asked me why i stood up for him, i said.
Me: I did that becuase nobody has the right to make fun of what they have never felt. Nobody has felt the pain we have, and until he does he has no right to talk to me, you or anybody else like that.
Him: Thank you, It really means alot to me. Nobody has ever done that for me.
Me: Don't mention it, and if you ever need someone to talk to i am always hear.
Then, He
Me: Why did you kiss me?
Him: Everyone needs someone special in their life. I think you could be mine.
I am still freaking smiling!!!!!!
[[18]]
The hospital wasn't Carsons favourite place
especially now that he was here for the love of him life.
"Somebody tell me what's wrong with her?" he
yelled. He was the first one who arrived at the hospital and he
kept blaming himself. Avalaya had just got out from her
operation. Marco, Conner, Sophia, Caleb and Emilee arrived
shortly after. "Please! Sombody tell me what the f/ck is
going on! You need to!" Carson begged.
“Sir, I'm
sorry but I can only speak to immediate family,” a near
by nurse told Carson.
“Please, I need to
know.”
“I'll see what I can
do,” the nurses sighed.
“Where is she!?” Marco
growled, pushing Carson up against the wall. “What the
f/ck did you do to her?!”
“Marco!” Emilee cried
out. “Avalaya would not want you to yell at Carson! He
did nothing wrong!” Emilee yelled. She knew exactly what
happened, Avalaya told her everything.
“Excuse me, I'm
Avalaya's mother, could you please tell me what is going
on?” Sophia said to a near by nurse.
“Of course, I'll go get
her doctor.” Avalaya's doctor came out a few moments
later.
“Hello.”
“What's wrong with
her?” Marco asked. “I'm her
fiancee.”
“Oh, very well. Avalaya has
got four broken ribs and a few cuts and bruises. She is very
lucky... but-”
“But what?” Caleb
questioned.
“She had a miscarriage. She
wouldn't have known she was pregnant because the baby was
only a week and a bit old.” The doctor looked at Marco,
he had introduced himself as Avalaya's fiancee.
“I'm sorry, sir.”
“That's
impossible,” Marco said.
“Avalaya and I haven't
had s/x in a month or two...” Marco's voice trailed
off.
“Are you sure she had a
miscarriage? She can't have kids?” Emilee
asked.
“Yes, positive. She can have
kids, whoever said she couldn't was
wrong.”
“It's mine,”
Carson said quietly. Just like when they were 18, Carson's
whole world shattered. He had no idea what got into him but he
fell to the ground on his knees.
He fell to the ground and cried.
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[[16]]
I hadn't seen Carson all week, I had called Emilee to
pick me up a few blocks away from Carson's house. Marco
came home, I'd be getting married in a week. I felt awfully
guilty about sleeping with Carson but then again, I should.
"Hey gorgeous," Marco said giving me a kiss. I was
always comparing Marco's kisses to Carson's.
“Hi,” I said
quietly.
“I love
you.”
“I love you too,” I
replied stiffly. Honestly I didn't feel the same way about
Marco as I did when we first met.
“I can't wait to be
married to you.”
“I need to go to the
supermarket, alright?”
“Okay.”
“Bye, see you
soon.”
“Bye babe.” I drove to
the supermarket, getting everything I'd need for making
dinner. “Ms Keepers!” a voice yelled. I noticed one
of my students, a boy from the eleventh grade. He was one of
those popular kids, I wondered why he didn't just ignore
me. If I had ever seen a teacher out of school I would ignore
them.
“Hi, Benjamin,” I
said.
“Ben, why are you –
Avalaya?” Carson said. Oh great, just my f/cken
luck.
“Nice seeing you Benjamin,
I've got to get going.”
“Princess, I'm
sorry,” Carson's voice broke at the end.
“Carson, we need to
go,” Benjamin said.
“You go, here take my
keys.” Carson threw Benjamin his keys.
“Carson go with him, I
don't want to talk to you. We don't need to
talk!”
“Of course we
do!”
“I'm just going to
go,'' Benjamin said awkwardly.
“I'm sorry for the way I
acted, Avalaya. I didn't mean to be a d/ckhead. What I said
was way out of line, okay? I'm sorry and I know it
won't fix anything but I just needed you to
know.”
“I'm sorry as
well,” I confessed.
“Hey
Avalaya?”
“Yes?”
“When we uh, when we slept
together I didn't use a condom.” I stiffened, not
because I was scared I was pregnant.
“Doesn't matter, I
can't have kids.”
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[[14]]
Carson kissed
me hungrily, he held me closely as if he was scared that
I'd run away. He started kissing up the middle of my neck
and I pulled apart.
"Car-"
"Princes-"
“Don't call me
that.”
“Why not?”
“You called me that when we
were together.”
“Do you love Condo- I mean
Marco?”
“Of course I do! Marco is
amazing! He treats me right, he's handsome, he's got a
great personality and I want to spend the rest of my life with
him.”
“But I want to spend the
rest of my life with you!”
“C-”
“No, let me speak. When you
left, my whole world shattered. You were my everything,
princess, you still are. You're convinced you love
Condom-”
“Condom?” I cut him
off.
“Yeah, anyway, but you
don't. You and me, we're meant to be together...
forever.”
“I love
Marco.”
“And I love you,” he
whispered. He came closer to me, pressing his lips on mine,
sending shocks through my body. He pulled away.
“Don't you feel that?”
“I don't feel
anything,” I lied.
“Maybe this will
help.” Carson kissed up my neck, his lips meeting the
bottom of my face and he trailed his lips across my jaw,
reaching my earlobe. He took hold of it between his teeth and
pulled gently, it wasn't enough to hurt me. I moaned, the
feeling was amazing. He found the soft spot behind my ear, I
moaned loudly. Carson started sucking on my soft spot, probably
making a love bite. “Carson!” I gasped.
“Do you feel
it?”
“Yes!” I confessed.
“I-I want you... I need you inside me,” he groaned.
His lips touched mine, his tongue entering my mouth quickly,
his tongue explored my mouth and I moaned as did he.
Carson made love to me that night and I didn't stop
him.
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