Why is it whenever something good comes into my life its taken away? like my heart was so happy for that little while, then something takes it away and the crack gets even bigger. my heart breaks more and more. Like a sidewalk with a small crack, the more its walked on the bigger it gets. im tired of people ruining my happiness. I finally met a good guy, someone who doesnt drink, doesnt smoke, doesn't do drugs. He was going to be a good influence on me. He made me happy, i stopped doing everything, and not even three weeks later his mom freaks out because she knows ive drank before, his sister who's my age starts freaking out at me. im tired of this bullshit. nobody know what my life was like before any of this, how i was gonna change. nobody knows what its like a day in my shoes. why cant i be happy for once? i dont wanna live secret. he told me he would, but how can i do that? how can i pretend me and him aren't together unless were alone. how can i do to myself? i don't know what to do anymore. i should just stop having my hopes up, stop thinking im gonna be happy for once. because thats never going to happen. its always going to be taken away..
Sometimes i wish i was as beautiful as her. i
wish i had that long blonde hair and those bright blue eyes. i
wish i was tall and skinny with just perfect curves. i wish i had
those lips that would make you want to kiss me over and over
again.
instead im just me, i have my long black hair, my dark blue eyes,
im short and skinny with barely any curves, and my lips are
normal. sometimes i wonder if you'll ever try to get me
instead. if you tryed hard enough you would up. but i guess
we'll never know.