e24ever

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It's hard to forget someone
who gave you so much to remember ♥
Oh, you beautiful wonderful soul stumbled across my profile <3 :) Take a look, like what you see? 
Hello Beautiful! It seems that for whatever reason, you are reading this jumble of words. Well good, im glad. They call me Erica and i've been here for about 15 years now. I blow out the candles on April 30 :) I'm a bit of a music freak, i play my guitar just about all day every day which yes, means i have really no life. And thats okay. My life hasn't always been roses and butterflies but today, right now, im doing just fine. I'm not one for trusting people, and i'm not exactly good at this game called love, but im trying my hardest to get better. I've been hurt, broken hearted, bullied, abused, walked all over, left to cleanup a mess i didnt make and pick myself up all over again. But i do, every single time. So if you wanna know a little more about me then here it goes: My father left when i was 3 cuz he tried to kid nap me and.., FAILED! he was abusive and a complete ass so good, im glad he's gone. Evry once in a while he comes back around here and tries to take me all over again but lets just say, im like a ninja :) So me and my mom and sister started over and my mom fell in love, had twins and married the man who i now call my father.Pretty cool, huh? So all was well and good until my place burnt down, my dad left, and we were living with my alcholic, pill abusing, psychotic grandma who was also, abusive. But hey, what doesnt kill ya makes you stronger. A few silly boys broke my heart along the way, i found myself living in a make shift tent but now, im doing better. And i love each and everyone of you for caring :) 

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And i understand why
                  nobody loves me, 'cause
                                i'm incapable of falling
                                                in love♥
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MAYBE I'M JUST HURT
BECAUSE DESPITE
WHAT EVERYONE SAYS,
THEY ALL HAVE THAT PERSON WHO
UNDERSTANDS AT LEAST ONE 
SMALL PART OF THEM.
AND I JUST DON'T


 

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I hate watching you live this way
I hate that i couldnt save you.
But ive given up the small hope
that one person could save the world
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I know you can't forgive me
Until i forgive myself..
But i can't forgive mysel..
Until you forgive me.
make it stop
PLEASE
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You just get me like ive never
been gotten

before♥

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And I Wouldn't Change A Thing

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How do you end the pain....?
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Everything should be okay now. 
I have a wonderful home.
My own room, my own space to escape.
I have friends.
I'm doing well at my new school.
There's less drama.
Not a lot of people hate me.
There are rumors, but not many.
I have people i would take a bullet for.
And they would take a bullet for me. 
There's a boy i like.
Pretty sure he likes me.
My dad's being nicer.
My moms not grieving over the diivorce anymore.
My sister came out of her depression.
She's doing better in school.
My brother's are dealing with their celiac and difisionsies well.
But you want to know something?
I'm sick.
It's hard for me to get up in the moring.
At night, i relive my best friends death.
By day, i hold my head up high, and set an example for my siblings.
But thats the problem.
I can only act strong for so long.
I feel like crying ALL the time.
I cant talk with anyone about the past because they will all get depressed again.
But im still depresed.
And deppresion hurts bad.
I dont know why i still feel this way.
I dont know why i cant just move on.
Let  go.
Be happy.
Like everyone else.
But i just cant let go of everything i lost.
Because i lost more then i'll ever gain back.
I'm expected to be an adult now.
At 15, i'm expected to support a family.
And i cant.
And i just cant.
I'm so sorry.
But i dont think i'll every be able to say
I'mHappy




 

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I just want to be
Okay Again ♥
.




 

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Last night...
i went to his house with our friends. we ate chips and talked about school and drama and all those things that stress us out. he pulled out his laptop and showed me the lacross stick he wanted to by and i let him explain what it was for and why he wanted that one. then i put on his lacross uniform and we all laughed. we wrestled, of course he let me win. we all went out side and played manhunt. he gave me his phone.. "just in case", because i dont have one. he was chasing me and i fell so instead of tagging me, he helped me up and told me to run again. said he could spend all day chasing me. when we were all tuckered out, we went inside and watched a movie, whispering the whole time. 
But he doesn't like me......
No. he likes my sister.
FML





 
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