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"Our hearts where created for one reason, to love. To fall in love and to show someone what love is. To make someone feel special and give them that feeling that no one else ever has. Not to just throw around the word love but to truly love someone and show them we love them. You love your family, your friends and sometimes you find a boy or girl to love. If you won't open your heart up to love someone you are just cheating yourself out of life. Love was not made to be perfect because nothing ever was created to be perfect. Part of life is the heartbreak we go through. You will never know what it's like to live if you don't ever decide to accept the fact one day maybe not now but one day you will love someone. You will want that person to stay in your life and maybe one day you might fall in love with someone. I know it's scary and you don't want to face it but little bear that's part of life. Love and death are all part of life. Yes sometimes we fall in love or love someone and then lose them to a tragedy such as death but it's not because god wants to hurt us. God puts people in our life to show up new things. To open our hearts and minds and eyes to new things. You can try all you want but one day you will love someone other then your family and if you chose to block it out you only are chosing to cheat yourself from life" My mommy

On a side not I hate the words "in love" it causes way to many problems and hurts so much.

Someone take me to see the new Dr suess movie the Lorax when it comes out (:

Something stuck out to me in my dream lastnight.

My bestfriend was in it & a bunch of stuff happened but the thing that stuck out was:
"Open your heart to the one who not only says they love you and are happy to have you in there life but who will do everything to show you that, who is wiling to take every risk just to keep you"

I made a huge mistake :/ When you hear so much you're not worth it and everyone just walks away you begin to believe no matter what that no one is ever going to stay.

Todays not a good day.
I woke up to we came as romans blasting in my ear thanks to a certain someone though.
I don't feel good :/ They told me this would happen. I'm so conffused about my feelings for someone :/ I think it's best if I just keep blocking them out. I feel like such a joke.

Jess was best cousin ever and it hasn't even been a day and I already keep thinking of all the things we said we would do but never got to. Layla, Jess and I were suppose to go swim with dolphins but never did :/ I guess they can swim with the dolphins in heaven now.
It's hard to believe just the day before I was telling her about my weird dreams and we were talking about going to California together to see Layla once she wakes up. 
The past three months almost I have been waiting for my bestfriend to come out of her coma and now my cousin passes away and honestly I would love more then anything to give up right now. I know I can't though, they would want me to fight everything and stay strong. Jess always said "Life is one big obstacle but it's an obstacle everyone can face"

Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
-Michael Jordan

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That was me telling you what you mean to me.
It didn't make sense because words can't describe it

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Thirty Day Challenge!♥ Be prepared, for at least my one, some..I guess tears from me

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Letters;
Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Day 2 - Your Crush

Day 3 - Your Parent

Day 4 - Your Sibling. (Or Closest Relative.)

Day 5 - Your Dreams.

Day 6 - A Stranger.

Day 7 - Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush

Day 8 - Your Favorite Internet Friend.

Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet.

Day 10 - Someone You Don't Talk Too As Much As You'd Like Too

Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk Too.

Day 12 - The Person You Hate Most/Cause You A lot Of Pain.

Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You.

Day 14 - Someone You've Drifted Away From.

Day 15 - The Person You Miss The Most.

Day 16 - Someone That's Not In Your State/Country.

Day 17 - Someone From Your Childhood.

Day 18 - The Person That You Wish You Could Be.

Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind. (Good Or Bad.)

Day 20 - The One That Broke Your Heart The Hardest.

Day 21 - Someone You Judged By Their First Impression.

Day 22 - Someone You Want Too Give A Second Chance Too.

Day 23 - The Last Person You Kissed.

Day 24 - The Person That Gave You Your Favorite Memory.

Day 25 - The Person You Know That Is Going Through The Worst Of Times.

Day 26 - The Last Person You Made A Pinky Promise Too.

Day 27 - The Friendliest Person You Knew For Only One Day.

Day 28 - Someone That Changed Your Life.

Day 29 - The Person That You Want Too Tell Everything Too, But Too Afraid Too.

Day 30 - Your Reflection In The Mirror
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Day 1:This will be difficult
Dear Layla,
I'm sorry you have..had such a screw up for a bestfriend. I' can't believe what I did. I've torn your family apart. I'm the only one to blame for everything. It's all my fault. I wish you'd never met me. You'd be so much happier then. You'd have family and friends that weren't screw ups. You'd have a bestfriend that would never let you down. Never hurt you. Always be there. But instead you got me. I'm sorry I ruined your life.
From Em.