emoheather1

My boyfriend told my my depression is not an illness its a choice. Like i choose to be depressed. i was diagnosed with depression when i was between 11-13 and im now 18 years old. Its something u cant just get over i have tried many times to get better i just have to keep fighting. But that did not help 

Honestly i have no faith in this world anymore.

Living life is a giant war, and i dont know how much longer i can fight this losing battle.

I put up walls around myself for a reason. And i will NOT let it go down again. Im better than this.

Im talking to my Ex again. The one that hurt me emotionally, mentally, and physically, and oddly enough im extremly happy with it. But he has a girlfriend but there complicated and my feelings are starting to come back again. I dont know what to do. I wish i knew what he felt. i know he wants it to work with her sometimes, but all they do is fight, and hes really happy being around me. why am i so stupid!