Once on a yellow piece of paper with
green lines,
he wrote a poem
and he called it
“Chops”
because that was the name of his
dog
and that’s what it was all
about
and his teacher gave him an
A
and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the
kitchen door
and read it to his aunts.
That was the year Father
Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
and he let them sing on the
bus
and his little sister was
born
with tiny toenails and no
hair
and his mother and father kissed a
lot
and the girl around the corner sent
him a
Valentine signed with a row of
Xs
and he had to ask his father what
the Xs meant
and his father always tucked him in
bed at night
and was always there to do
it.
Once on a piece of white paper with
blue lines,
he wrote a poem
and he called it
“Autumn”
and that’s what it was all
about
and his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more
clearly
and his mother never hung it on the
kitchen door
because of its new paint
and the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked
cigars
and left butts on the pews
and sometimes they would burn
holes.
That was the year his sister got
glasses
with thick lenses and black
frames
And the girl around the corner
laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa
Claus
and the kids told him
why
his mother and father kissed a
lot
and his father never tucked
him into bed at night
and his father got
mad
when he cried for him to do
it.
Once on a paper torn from his
notebook,
he wrote a poem
and he called it “Innocence: A
Question”
because that was the question about
his girl
and that’s what it was all
about
and his professor gave him an
A
and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the
kitchen door
because he never showed her.
That was the year that Father Tracy
died
and he forgot how the end
of the Apostle’s Creed
went
and he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
and his mother and father never
kissed
or even talked
and the girl around the
corner
wore too much make up
that made him cough when he kissed
her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to
do
and at three a.m. he tucked
himself into bed
his father snoring soundly
That’s why on the back of a
brown paper bag,
he tried another poem.
And he called it “Absolutely
Nothing”
because that’s what it was
really all about
and he gave himself an
A
and a slash on each damned
wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom
door
because this time he
didn’t think
he could reach the
kitchen.