fearless24

Last night, the memories crept inside my mind.
One memory led to another and before I knew it,
tears were streaming down my face. I couldn't
stop crying. It was tear after tear. I don't know
what got into me... I sat down on the bathroom
and prayed for better days; prayed for some sort
of escape; or something that could ease this
ongoing pain. Something that can stop nights,
like the one I had, from happening again.

Please, make it stop.

I AM GOING TO LAY IT OUT THERE

He is not speaking to you?
It is because he is too blind to see how funny, beautiful and amazing you are.

He is a teenage boy.
All he wants to do is make out which is his "pleasure".

He is walking with the school's "woman"?
It is because he's a boy and all he wants is, "pleasure".
He'll talk or walk with whoever is, "hot" and who will give him what he wants.

He does not like you?
He does not deserve someone like you who truly loves and cares for him.

See him down the hall?
Pretend he is not there.

He says, "Hey"?
Avoid eye contact by looking in the opposite direction.

He has a girlfriend?
He is not the one.




Remember, you are still young.
You have a whole life ahead of you to find someone♥
You will find someone who will feel the same exact way
you feel about them♥
I know it is hard to forget your "him". I know it will hurt you along the way,
but in the end, you are going to be fine
& in the end, you are going to be glad that you did what you had done♥
 

It's the truth.
This advice was given by my best guy friend.
He was telling me all of this & more to help me get over my "him"
since he doesn't like me back.

Someone help me.
I'm having suicidal thoughts.
I don't like where this is going.
My life is just falling apart.
 I  c a n ' t  t a k e  i t  a n y m o r e.

It may sound cheesy, but hey, we're all a little cheesy (:
He's funny, cute, smart, open minded,
yet at the same time,
he's weird, lame and annoying.
But, I'd be lying if I told you I didn't like him.
It's the way he smiles, the way he laughs,
the way he walks with his hands in his pockets,
the way he hugs me, the way he slightly fixes his hair,
the way he tries to act cool just cracks me up,
the way he says my name, the way he gets excited
whenever he sees me, the way he looks at me...
Just eveything♥
He makes my heart race, he makes my hands shake and
chills run up my spine.
He is the reason why I smile;
the reason behind my sunny days.
He never makes me feel alone.
He always makes sure that I don't feel like that.
He's kind & sweet.
He has me falling for him.
I really do like him♥
 

 I always feel like I'm
unwanted. I do feel
alone in a room f u l l
of people. People always
make me feel so small.
I feel as if I don't belong
anywhere. People use me.
People probably think I'm
annoying. I'm never included
in the conversation. I just stand
there- feeling utterly stupid.
I hate it.
I always hold back the tears.
I always try to be strong enough,
but I can't be strong anymore.
I just want to end it all




 

I love you and you love her.
You go on dates with her and tell me about them.
Valentine's Day is coming up and you're going to get her a gift and you say all of this in front of me.
You talk about her in front of me.
I love you.
You know that since you found out.
SO, why must you mention her name whenever I'm around?
Can't you hear the sound of my heart breaking?

I feel pathetic and stupid for liking you when you obviously do not think of me as more than just a friend.
I wish you never knew that I like you. I wish no one ever told you.
I wish I had never fallen in love with you when I knew that a guy like you will never like a girl like me; when a guy like you has been with a bunch of other girls that aren't like me; when "You & I" is only found in fairytales.
I wish I could change things. If only... </3

Just Venting :l

What ever happened to confessions_of_a_cutter?
Does anyone know?
 

nmf

He knows...
What does he know? He knows that I like him.
Hell no did I tell him. My friend told him.
Hell no did I ask her to nor did I want her to.
She just did it without  my permission. I hate that.
Why did she do that?
Him and I, we're just friends. And, I don't want to
risk the friendship we have. Sometimes it's better to
be friends, than to date.
I know he's known for a while or at least has
assumed that I liked him, but it wasn't like how it is now.
Now that I know that he officially knows that I like him,
I don't know how to act around him. I know I should
act normal, but what happens if it gets awkward?
What do I do then?
My really good guy friends tell me that I should just,
"move on.", but moving on? That's just so hard
for me to do right now. How could you possibly
forget someone who's constantly around you?
Who you always think about? Who is someone
you've known for so long? Who is someone you
just can't pull yourself away from? It's just not as easy
as they say. They tell me to "shut my feelings down".
I don't know how to.
I know one day all of what I feel will fade
and everything will be alright, but who knows when
that might be. I need a solution for right now.
I don't know what to do.
Could you wittians help me out by posting some advice?
Thanks for reading :)

 

nmf

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