I love my band. <3
Your probably wondering...Zombie Walk for Celiac Awareness!
ok Maybe I like Mr. Harry Styles a bit more than the others. But we all have our favorite.
Hazza. <3
day 9. Someone you wish you could
meet.
Dear Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan and
Zayn Malik,
First off I want to congratulate you on your sucsess. It's
crazy to think how far you've come. You guys are such an
inspiration to me because you are people I can relate to. You are
like people I'm friends with, school with. And your living
the dream. Your living an amazing dream that you never thought
you live. You worked hard to be where you are right now. I'm
so proud of you. When I watched A Year in the Making for the
first time I had a smile on my face the entire time, and tears in
my eyes because I was so happy. I was so happy to see how happy
you were. Us fans, Directioners, are here by your side till the
end. Whatever your decision we will support and know you have
effected our lives for the better. I don't think some people
realize how you've effected mine and others lives. I
can't look at so many things the same..because of you guys
they've taken on a whole knew meaning. You guys have proved
miracles do happen, hard work pays off, and dreams do come
true.
I'm proud of you boys, and I love you.
<3
Jess.
Dear fake family. Day 8 Favorite internet
friend.
Hey you guys. Theres not just
one, theres a whole family of us. I miss that. Its crazy to think
that it was like 4 years ago..but you guys kept me so happy. I
loved talking to you guys. I loved lauhing with oyu guys in our
chatroom, and watching videos with each other. We said wed all
meet up one day, and I wish we could. I still keep in touch with
a couple of you guys..but for the most part, you guys are
gone…I still love you though! Ill never forget out Fake
Family. ;)
Dear Marcus.
I’m going to come out and be totally honest with you here
and yes I do realize that you don’t think I know how to do
honest. But I can promise that what comes out of my mouth right
this moment is exactly what I feel whether you believe me or not.
First off I want to start out by saying I’m sorry. When you
called me out in the start and said I was sorry that I got
caught, you were exactly right. I won’t deny it. But now
after 8 months I’ve finally come to my senses. I’ve
finally faced the truth. It was probably the worst thing
I’ve ever felt in my life. It was the hardest thing
I’ve faced. I’ve faced the fact that I lied to your
face. I lied through text. I lied on the phone. I
don’t even fully understand what compelled me to lie to you
like I did. I never felt the need to in the very start of our
friendship. I can’t even remember when I started lying to
tell you the truth. It was all such a blur to me. I can’t
remember what drove me to do it, but I did and that’s what
matters. What matters is that I lied to someone I said I loved. I
lied to someone who probably changed my life forever. I lied to
someone I said I would be honest with. How does someone even find
the nerve to that? I don’t understand what made me do it.
I’ve NEVER been that kind of person before. Before me and
you met, I’d never lied like that. Yes, we all tell the
little white lied like, “my mom said no” but normal
people don’t tell the lies I told. I accept the fact that
it’s not something to skip over. I told my mom everything.
I told her how I had lied and how I was stupid. She told me I
didn’t have to tell her what I lied about because honestly
she didn’t want to know. She told me she wasn’t proud
of me for what I did by any means, but she told me it happened
for a reason. She told me I made a mistake and that it’s ok
to make mistakes but it’s not okay to make that same
mistake again. She said I have to learn from it. She also told me
I can’t let this hold me back. She told me that I had to
move on with my life, that people had done much worse. I
didn’t listen until now. I haven’t made that same
mistake again. I’m honest with the people I come in contact
with. I think the hardest part is being honest with myself. The
hardest part was telling myself the truth. IT was extremely hard
to sit here and say I lied to you and everyone else that I lied
to. Basically I’m going to tell you what it comes down to.
I’ve gone months thinking about this and debating and
I’ve finally come to the conclusion I need to come to. I
need to resolve this with myself to move on and get better
again. I need to ask for you to listen, and to ask for your
forgiveness. It would help to have your forgiveness but I doubt
that I’m going to get that so all I’m going to ask
for is for you to listen and to try to understand that I’m
done throwing a pity party for myself. To tell you I’m
content with who I am. I’m ok with the healthy me. But
I’m not content that we cant be civilized with each other.
I’m not okay with the fact this is so unsettled with us. I
don’t care if we ever get a friendship again, or a
relationship. I don’t care if we have some huge break
through. I just need to know we can act like humans. I need to
know you would choose to act like I don’t exist to you. I
need to know that you listened to everything I said here. Oh, and
I’ll tell you one more thing. The reason why I say I hate
you, and that its all your fault and that im so angry at you is
because its twenty times easier than saying I miss you and that a
part of you will always hang with me. So this is it Marcus. I
surrender. You were right and I was very much so wrong. I’m
sorry for my actions, my thoughts, my lies, my words that hurt. I
will not make the same mistake again. I’m done fighting
this battle. I lied to a serious degree. And you caught me.
-Jessica.
-My apology to the love of my life, the man that I've had an
ongoing battle with inside and out for 8 months with. The
man I miss and need forgiveness from. Opinions are welcome.
I really hope is sincere. Because it came from the bottom of my
heart.