I was sitting in the doctor’s office. I
was scared out of my mind. My knees were shaking like crazy. Then
they called my name. “Jessie. The doctor will see you
now.” Why did this happen to me? Why was a 16 year old girl
who was the most popular girl in school getting an
ultrasound?
I walked into the examination room. A woman walked in and said,
“Hi Jessie. I am Doctor Hutton.” I don’t say
anything at first, but then I burst out in tears. I said
“What will happen to me? What will my parents say?”
“Jessie, calm down. Everything will be fine. First
let’s get your ultrasound done then you can ask me any
questions you want.” I remember clearly how warm and kind
her voice was. She was so comforting.
Then we started the ultrasound. I saw its little body. I heard
its little heartbeat. “Did you know that their heart starts
to beat when they are about 20 days old?” said Doctor
Hutton. I just sat there in amazement. Then the ultrasound was
finished. She said, “Your baby is healthy and I think you
are going to be a wonderful mom!” Then I said,
“That’s the problem. I am thinking about getting an
abortion. I don’t want anyone to know that I got pregnant
when I was 16. It will ruin my life.” Then I started
crying. Doctor Hutton said to me in the most comforting way that
she could, “What about an abortion?” I stared at her
and thought about it. “I don’t know. Will it hurt the
baby?” “They don’t feel a thing!” she
said. She sounded so convincing. So I agreed.
After I visited with Doctor Hutton, I kept debating with myself
whether or not I should go through with the abortion. Then one
night, one week before my scheduled abortion, I fell asleep right
as I hit the pillow. I distinctly remember having this completely
real and clear dream. I saw a little boy. He was coming down from
the clouds. I heard his voice but he didn’t speak. He said,
“Jessie, this is the generation of death. Do you realize
that if you go through with the abortion, you will take away a
life that God had created in his own likeness and image? Why are
you taking away someone’s life? It isn’t their fault.
The baby inside you can already feel and hear your voice. Your
child already loves you and is ready for you to love them back.
Don’t go through with this Jessie. God gave you this little
gift. Embrace it. Love life, don’t destroy it.” Then
I woke up.
That dream made me think long and hard about what I should do.
Should I tell my parents? Should I get the abortion? There were
so many unanswered questions about the abortion though. What
would happen to my baby? Will I regret it? What life am I taking
away? I got so upset about it I just decided that I would go and
get the scheduled abortion.
As I got out of my car in the clinic parking lot, I saw a young
girl about my age running out of the building sobbing. Her car
was right next to mine. She was getting into her car and then she
stopped herself. She walked toward me and asked, “Why are
you going into that clinic?” still sobbing. I said,
“I am… getting an abortion.” She said,
“I just got one twenty minutes ago. I made the wrong
decision. They say it’s too late. It’s not. They took
a part of me. They took my baby. They lie to you. They tell you
that you can’t go back when the procedure didn’t
start yet. Why did I just do this?” She started to cry and
I did too. We stood there for probably fifteen minutes just
crying. I felt so bad for her. I am so lucky that she came and
warned me. After we stopped crying, she got in her car and drove
away. I stood there for a minute, took a deep breath and got back
in my car.
When I got home, I told my parents what I went through. I told
them absolutely everything, from Doctor Hutton, to my dream, to
the girl at the clinic. They understood.
Hi my
name is Jessie I am 21 years old. 5 years after my wonderful son
was born. After you heard my story, you can now understand what
mothers go through when they are concidering an abortion. I
know I might sound crazy, but i truly think that the little boy
in my dream was my son. He is a true gift from God. If you
are concidering an abortion, think of it this way. you are
basiccally killing a life that God intended to live.
Save a life <3