firsttostandfirsttofall

When you feel worthless.

When you want to slap someone.

but why

Fan fiction is what literature might look like if it were reinvented from scratch after a nuclear apocalypse by a band of brilliant pop-culture junkies trapped in a sealed bunker. They don't do it for money. That's not what it's about. The writers write it and put it up online just for the satisfaction. They're fans, but they're not silent, couch-bound consumers of media. The culture talks to them, and they talk back to the culture in its own language.

When you apologize to someone and they just say "I know."

Another boring sunday and there's nothing else to do
Another day of headaches as I listen to you.
You tell me I should feel bad but it's hard to give a damn
I wave you all away without a "raripappa"

DUmping all your problems on the people who don't care
Can't you see that we've all got some better things to do?
Looking for encouragement for all the wrong things?

Why are you still talking to me?

You're a "wanna die?"
How is this a new thing?
Only thing that shocks me is the people who can do it.

You're a "wanna die?"
Should've seen it coming.
Don't be such a poser and just do us all a favor.

You're telling everybody that they couldn't understand.
The only thing that I don't get is how you're so weak.
Telling all the world you're going for the suicide
It's more like you're taking everybody for a ride.

Wanna know the differences that set us far apart?
I learned to stop caring and it's really not hard.
Want a gun? A razor blade? The roof's not even locked.

Why not take the easy way out?

You're a "wanna die?"
What a disappointment.
I should have expected it from people just like you, though.

You're a "wanna die?"
Here's some medication.
I got over taking it about the time I grew up.

You're a "wanna die?"
Why are you still standing?
SHow me your conviction and just end it all right now.

You're a "wanna die?"
Why don't I believe you?
If you are so serious then why are we still talking?

Why are you so focused on me, wasting all my time?
Didn't we just talk about this, what, the other day?
Nothing that I tell you seems to help to change your mind.
Can't you see I've got my problems?

"Do it!"

"Take it!"

"Get it over with!"

You're a "wanna die?"
I already knew that.
Kind of hard to go a day without being reminded.

You're a "wanna die?"
Sign up for the emails.
It got so common that I started forming fanclubs.

You're a "wanna die?"
You and all the others.
Want a reason to keep living, how bout leaving me alone?

You don't wanna die?
Could have told you that one.
You're one in a million, the people who can say they're wrong.

Are you over it yet?

I don't wanna die.
You don't wanna die.
They all wanna die.
Hey, do you guys wanna die?

We're one in a million; the people who can face the world.

*Me getting ready for school in the morning*
Welp its time to turn off mom's cr@p she calls music to turn on my music she called cr@p.

"Why are you crying?"
I want to say "because of you" but you wouldn't listen.

"No mom, I don't want to be a jedi" said no one ever.

When you can't remember where you... wait what was I doing?