You know whats the worst type of crying? When you can hardly breathe and you just close your eyes and hold to something as tight as you can. When you wanna scream that your not okay, even though your pretending you are. When a million different things rush through your head all at once. When all the hateful, insistent, horrible memories come flooding into your mind again and you just cry again afraid it will happen like that later in your life. The worst type is the type I'm doing right now.