foreverdoesntlast

I saw something that reminded me of you today, I broke down,
I guess I've faked a smile so well
I even fooled myself for a while..<\3

you make me sick to my stomach.

i got played so bad..
i gave my all to this guy. literally my all.
i gave him my virginity, after talking for a month.
i was so in love with him it was unbelieveable.
i hung out with him so much, my best friend replaced me.
ALL FOR "HIM".
now hes gone & i have no one..

THINGS  LONGER  THAN  KIMS  MARRIAGE
MY DICKK.

 but i guess forever doesnt last..
chapter 6.
 
Well its ten o’clock, on the first day of my summer vacation, with nothing to do.
What is on at ten on Thursdays?
I turn on my tv to MTV to see if Jersey Shore was on, but this weird dance show was on. But I heard Nicki Minaj’s song ‘Check it out,’ and say these kids dancing. Damn, they’re cute. The ICONic boyz, what a cute name.
FROM ENGLISHTOWN, NEW JERSEY??!?!?!?!!??!?!?!!?
My jaw must have hit the floor.
What if one’s my neighbor? What if one lives across the street? How old are they? All these questions popped in my head.
After the Nicki Minaj episode, I ended up watching the whole ABDC season.
Then, I fell asleep thinking about the ICONic boyz.

short chapter, sorry /: more to come!
 

 but i guess forever doesnt last..
chapter 5.
 
My mom looked at me and said, “Well what are you waiting for, go look at your new house!” quoting Extreme-Makeover Home Edition.
I laughed, and then gave her the you’re not cool look.
“Just go pick out your room!” She yelled at me.
“Alright, calm yourself.” I replied back to her. It sounded bitchy, but whatever.
I walked up the grand staircase and looked at each of the 3 bedrooms. They were all twice the size as mine back in Texas. & they all had their own bathrooms. But only one had a balcony, and I picked that one. The room was pretty cool because the house next to us had a balcony too, that practically connected to ours. My new room was painted tan and already had a king-sized bed in it. Oh& a flat screen.
“Mom! I picked out my room!” I yelled down to her.
“Is it the one with the balcony?” She yelled back.
“You know me too well mother.” I replied, laughing.
“Like your new bed?” She asked.
Eeeeeeep! This is my bed! “Yeah! And the tv?”
“Yours too!”  my mom said, cheerfully.
Yes! I love it here already.
After I unpacked what I did pack. I decided to call Trey.
*Rinng, rinnng, rinnnnnnng*
Trey: Uh, Hello?
Me: Hey Trey.
Trey: How was your flight?
Me: Good! But I have bad news.
Trey: What is it?!?!
Me: I’m staying longer than I planned.
Trey: How long?
Me: Uh, forever. I have to move here; in New Jersey. Englishtown.
Trey: No Tay, but I love you.
Me: I love you too, but it wasn’t my decision.
I was getting teary eyed, but then i heard someone in the background of the phone call “Trey baby, who’s that?”
Then Trey was like “Uh, I gotta go Tay. Bye."
 
What the hell just happened?

 but i guess forever doesnt last..
Chapter 4.
 
“But Mom! I only packed enough for a week!” I said, still standing there on the sideway, looking at our house.
“Don’t worry sweetie, we’ll go back and get the rest of your stuff!” She said, unlocking our new house, “Come on in, T. The house doesn’t bite.”
As I walked in my new house, all I could think about is Trey. I felt like crying. I have to leave my first love & boyfriend of 3 months, because who knows why! Because my mom’s a psycho. Yeah, that’s it.
“Mom, why are we; wh-wh-why did we h-have to move?” I managed to say, without crying.
“Well hun, come sit.” She said, as she patted the seat next to her.
“Yeah?” I said as I sat down, confused.
“Your father, who left when you were 2 weeks old, came to the house the other day. Well, actually it was a few months ago. He demanded to see you, but i could tell just by his breath, that he was drunk. What if you answered the door? What if he took you away from me? I couldn’t just let that happen.” My mom told me, straight up.
Jesus, this is the first time I’ve ever heard my mom even speak of my father.
“Oh, I love you mom. Thanks.” I said, hugging her.
I felt a tear roll down my cheek.
This is definitely going to take some getting used to...
 

 but i guess forever doesnt last..
Chapter 3.
 
“Now boarding, flight from Dallas, TX to New Jersey.” I heard a flight attendant say in a dull voice.
“Come on, Honey! That’s us!” My mom yelled, looking at me.
Oh, so that’s where we’re going.
As we sat in our seats on the plane, I started looking out the window. I love looking at the sky.
Then, I must have fallen asleep, because I was awoken by my mom telling me we were here.
I slept through the landing, hmmph. I’m a heavy sleeper.
“Welcome to New Jersey!” I saw a sign say, as we got off the plane.
One thing I hate about flying places, waiting for your luggage, whadda pain.
Finally! After what seemed like ages, we got our luggage.
Then after, we walked outside, and climbed into a cab. They drove us to a town called, “Englishtown.” Catchy name.
The cab pulled up to a nice, descent sized house, and the cab driver said, “We’re here, that’ll be $42.50.”
My mom handed him 2 twenties and a five, telling him to keep the change.
Then, we got out of the cab, and got our bags out of the trunk.
My mom started walking toward the house.
“Uhm, mom, whose house is this?” I asked, very confused.
“OURS! Welcome home!” My mom screamed, as I stood on the sidewalk, in shock.