fulloflies

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Joined: June 17, 2011
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Hello, my name is Alex, and I'm seventeen. I like to sing, act, dance, and draw. I like Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, and Justin Bieber. I'm single like a pringle right now ;] I like to photograph. I have brown hair, brown eyes, yes, that's me in my photo, I'm the one with the camera. I went to a JB concert on 12|23|10 and I met him then, as well :D I live in Atlanta. Comment, and talk to me ;]
Bye, luvies.
-Alex
R.I.P. Jacob 6|17|10

 

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I haven't cut since that day.
Call me weird, but I have my reason. After my best friend died, & my suicide attempt, I needed something to help me escape. I started cutting, stupid, right? My parents had purchased me Justin Bieber tickets since he had a concert in Atlanta, and the sound check meet and greet thing. I went with my friend Tess, and we had car trouble so we got there (The meet and greet thing) a little late. The sound check was fun, he was silly, and sweet. Then came the meet & greet, me and Tess ended up in the back, sadly, and had to wait, and very long time. When we finally reached the table, Tess took her picture, and got an autograph, then she headed to the bathroom. I shook Justin's hand and told him what an inspiration he was to me, when he suddenly looked shocked. I was about to freak out, did I do something wrong? He leaned behind him & said something to a tall man next to him, before attacking me with a hug, and whispering. "Don't ever do that again, please, you're beautiful." He pulled back, gave me an autograph and a picture. "Promise?" He asked. I still didn't know what he was talking about. He noticed my confusion, and grabbed my arm, and rolled up my jacket sleeve, revealing my cuts. "Promise you'll stop, for me?" he asked. "Promise." I hugged him, and met Tess outside. I haven't cut since.
That day made me realize, that my life is worth living, & I'm here for a reason.


The week after my best friend died.

I wanted to be with him. So, I attempted suicide. I got already, i was planning on hanging myself. I all I needed and I headed to the back yard, where we had a tree tall enough. No one was home, so I thought this was the perfect time. Even though I felt like something was telling me to 'Stop, Alex, don't do it, it's not worth it.' I was still planning on doing it. I was setting it all up, when my nine year old sister(she's ten now), Marie, walked into the back yard from a sleepover at her friend' Emily's. She was shocked as to what I was doing, and Marie understood very well what it was. She new I was about to kill myself, so suddenly, she burst into tears, and ran to me screaming: "Don't do it, please, Alex, it's not worth it! I love you!" I dropped the rope, and hugged her. If my sister hadn't walked in that day,
I wouldn't be here today.

If you love someone, tell them.

Why? Because there's car crashes, cancer, bombs, wars, suicide, murder, drowning, kidnapping, hanging, AIDS, STDs, and so much more.
Life is short, tell them while you  have the chance.
I should know, I missed my chance.

E x a c t l y  o n e  y e a r  a g o  ...
I lost my best friend. I remember the day so clear. I was watching my younger sister, Marie(She was nine at the time), and Jacob, my best friend, and crush at the time texts me. "Hey Alex wanna come over? Watch a movie?" he asked. I was furious with my mom, because she was making me watch my sister. "Sorry, I can't, I'm watching Marie :/" I replied. Before he replied, I realized something was wrong, I couldn't find Marie. I checked her room, and there she was cuddled up on her bed, eyes wide open. It was only seven  at night. "Marie? Are you okay?" I asked. She shook her head. She told me that something was wrong, but when I asked her what, she couldn't explain it. Just then, Jacob texted back. "Don't worry about it, I'll drive over there, and we'll all watch movies." At the time, I just thought Marie wasn't feeling well, little did I know it was so much more. That night, while Jacob was driving to my house, a drunk driver hit him, his car flipped over five times, and then stopped in the wrong lane, where he was hit by a delivery truck. Jacob was immediately sent to the hospital, with little chance of surviving. When I heard what happened, the next day, I drove to the hospital quickly, and found Jacob's room. Jacob was already dead the time I got there, his mom and step-dad were sobbing next to me. She was holding a note, that the police found in his jacket pocket, it was tattered, but I could still just barley make out the words.
"I love you, Alex, always have, always will. Love, Jacob."