I think I know why I'm so scared.. crushing on someone is easy and fun. you don't have to worry about anything awkward and it gives you something to wish for every night. Once you think that person finds out that you like them, your afraid of if they like you back, will they still talk to you, or what you might say when you see them. Thats why you push away and make every excuse to not hang out alone becuase you dont want to seem dumb or boring or weird or rejected. but besides all that YOU WISH THAT EVERYTHING WOULD JUST BE OUT IN THE OPEN so you can finally just have fun :)