I will not be making a wish
tonight.
Why? Because I gave up on wishing for things. Luck is about as real as the easter bunny. If fate doesnt have it in store for you its not going to happen no matter how many times you cross your fingers or wait for a shooting star...and frankly, I'm tired of getting my hopes up for the slim possiblity that it might work out the way I wished. Because, lets be honest, it never turns that way, not even in the slightest.
To everyone that
doesn't understand eating
disorders:
This isnt a choice, by any
means. I would do anything to not be the way i am. This isnt
my fault, your fault, my familys fault, or anyone elses
fault; I cant help the way my mind works. No I cant just
"get over it" or just "suck it up and eat a
sandwich." No this is not for attention. No I dont want
you to tell me Im beautiful or pretty or skinny because
honestly it doesnt matter. Dont comment on my body at all. I
dont care if its a compliment its not going to help. Dont
make jokes about it they arent funny theyre cruel. No this
isnt a fashion statement or a diet. No i wont just magically
stop being anorexic when i get to a certain weight. Just
because you see me eating doesnt mean im cured odds are
afterwards im either hating myself, exercising obsessively,
or bent over the toliet. But youll never see that. Just
because someone is thin doesnt automatically mean they have
an eating disorder thats stupid to assume. And you dont have
to be ridculously skinny to have one either. No i dont hate
obese people at all, I just hate myself. Im not trying to
hurt you or anyone else this isnt my choice and i dont want
to hurt anyone but myself. Dont try to force me to eat youre
only going to make things worse. Eating disorders arent
funny, trival, or stupid. Think before you speak. Educate
yourself before you accidentally make someones life worse
than it already is.
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Why would you think
it's okay to completely break me?
What makes everything you say and do
effect me?
Why can't I help falling in love with you?
Why can't show you feel an once of what I feel?
What makes you have this power over me?
Why can't you just see that you're everything to
me?
What makes it so hard for you to admit you love me?
Why can't you see that maybe possibly we are meant to
be?
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It's the boy you
never told
"I like
you." It's the one you let get away. It's the
one you saw that day on the train but you freaked out and
walked away. It's all the money that you're
saving.. While the good life passes by. It's all the
dreams that never came true cause your too damn scared to
fly.
♥