givingyoumyheart

have you ever just thought about how different your life would be if you hadn't done one simple thing?

Imagine if you never sent that message. Or never made that call. Or never walked away from something? Or never gave that one person a chance who changed your views on things. What if you never made that small little decision. Would you be where you are today? Would you be the same person? ¸,¤°´'`°•.¸¸.•°´'`°¤,¸.

You want the truth?
Well, here it is. Eventually, you forget it all.
First, you forget everything you learned – the dates of wars and Pythagorean theorem. You especially forget everything you didn’t really learn, but just memorized the night before. You forget the names of all but one or two of your favorite teachers; and eventually you forget those, too. You forget your junior year class schedule and where you used to sit, and your best friend’s home phone number and the lyrics to that song you must have played a million times. And eventually, but slowly, you forget your humiliations – even the ones that seemed indelible just fade away. You forget who was cool and who was not, who was pretty, smart, athletic, and not. Who went to a good college, who threw the best parties, who had the most friends – you forget all of them. Even the ones you said you loved, and the ones you actually did. They’re the last to go. And once you’ve forgotten enough, you love someone else.

not mine.

Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you. After that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong.

-not mine/tumblr

When I cut the world gets better and the world seems better but then it's not and I need to do it again

not telling me something because you don't wanna make me mad is probably the best way to make me mad.

We may not talk anymore, 
I may not text or call you anymore like I used too. I may not write on your Facebook or say something to you when I see you, but that doesn't mean I stopped caring about you. I still do, it's just that distancing myself from you is the only way for me to move on and be happy. if I get out of the habit of looking you up on Facebook or scrolling through my phone, wondering whether or not I should text you, maybe eventually I can get over you and everything I feel for you. 

 

Before you walk into my life,

you need to know something about me. You need to know, that I'm a very insecure person, I have very low self esteem, I'm not perfect. I am everything but perfect. I find it hard to trust people now. I've made mistakes in the past, and I've learned to live with them. I've learned to accept people for who they really are, it's not hard. Sometimes, I can't be bothered. Sometimes, I don't even want to be alive, but, the thing is, I have a million reasons to be alive and I just haven't found them yet. I miss the people that I shouldn't even think about anymore. I've likedliked, I've loved, I've been hurt. I have hurt people. I'm not perfect, but hey, this is me. And before you walk into my life, you need to know these things. Because, if you walk into my life, you can't walk out of my life when things are getting hard,

just like all the other people did.

Squidward: Patrick why is your suitcase full of rocks?
Patrick: I don't tell you how to live your life!

Timon: run pumba it's a lion!
pumba: it's only a little lion!

- the lion king c: