goodbye_with_a_broken_heart

You told me
"If I was single I would go back out with you. I would like you a lot more than I do. I still like you and every time i see you all you do is run through my mind"
I knew that was a lie...right from the first word..
Your single now..
And so am I..
Guess who I'm not gonna go out with..
You.
I always have to explain I miss you and..
You don't think that's bad...
Well let me explain that
I'm not happy,
I fake every smile I have put on sence I lost you,
I never laugh,
All I do is think about you,
I cry myself to sleep,
And..
I just can't live without you..
 

+& you finally broke me...

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Attention witty girls;
NOVEMBER 22nd;
everybody should right witty♥
on their right hand.
then, in school, we could meet some wittiers!(:
I strongly think we should do this,
so click the heart to get the word out;
copy it and make a quote of your own.
*NOT MY IDEA JUST THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD ONE*
thank you witty girls, maybe some of us will be meeting soon<3

I love you
But our love is slowly fading away

So, I went to our friends house. You came. Every laugh, fake. Every smile, fake. I broke down. I cried. You pulled me aside and talked to me. You didn't want to see me sad. Your the reason I'm sad.
You said "You can't be sad, I'm here."
I said "Your the reason." 
You asked "I'm the reason your sad ?"
I said "Yes"
You asked "What did I do."
 I thought, everything.
I said "I miss you.." 
Your response "I'm right here"
I said "That's not the point"
You asked "What is the point"
And I cried, cried right there.
We kissed..
After you asked "Are you okay now?"

I thought no, no I'm not okay. I'm worse. I tried to get over you... I have to start all over.
You can't kiss me to make me better I'm broken..Just like any part of your body being broken..
You can't kiss me better...a kiss makes it worse...I have so many chances to walk away and when I tried I failed.. Now I need to start all over again..I miss you...and the point..
I miss us, I miss what we were...I miss the heart break every week that was fixed with us again..I miss everything...I miss you and everything about you..and I know that if you ever asked for me back I would be stupid and say yes...say yes to the next heartbreak and I'll be prepared..but it will hurt like a bullet to my heart...the pain wont stop and thats when I'll walk away..from everything and never come back...



*lazy on colors* vent sorry...

Last night
 He told me never to talk to him again..
So I tell him that I hope he knows
That all he's doing
Is hurting me
more then he ever did
He asked why
and I said
"I miss you..I'm not over you, and I still like you..alot"
"I left our table because I miss you too much"
He didnt say anything..

Today
He texted me telling me that 
I needed to go to his house
And it was important
So, I went
I had the worst butterflies in my stoumache ever
and
All he said was he was sorry for what he said..
He said he didnt know
what was going through
his head last night
I forgave him and everythings okay..

Except he makes it so hard for me
To get over him..
He helps me up to push me down again
Everytime
I should know by now it should be over
But when its me..
I trust to easily because
I want to feel loved and cared about
I want to feel wanted by someone..
He tells me he likes me
Is he lieing?
Who knows...
I miss what we were
We will never go back..
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Sorry venting *make it pretty*

I'm putting walls up today..
Not to keep people out..
But to see who cares enough to break them down
And love  me for who I am..
Not for something I'm not
Because I am who I am
Because I don't change for people
So the walls I'm putting up walls..
Break them down if you please..
But only if your gonna love me..

Not pretty..bye<3

You said you loved me...

where did the love go ?

You broke me...

where are the pieces ?

You want me back...

I don't think so..
 

~goodbye_with_a_broken_heart