grlsmmy*

Status: I am always here if you need me c:
Joined: November 4, 2010
Last Seen: 4 years
user id: 132036
Location: up in the stars
Gender: F

Hey there, gorgeous! My name is Samantha. I'm 21. I am a 5 foot 3 red head. Music is my life. I'm obsessed with Ryan Upchurch, Kane Brown, & Luke Combs. I have depression, but still manage to make it through every single day with a smile. My friends are my everything. My favorite things to do are spend time with friends, go mudding & basically anything you'd consider "redneck".

If you ever need someone to talk to, you can always talk to me!

Never forget that you are beautiful and somebody out there loves you
you just have to find him or her c:

Quotes by grlsmmy*




When something bad happens
you have three choices.
You can either let it define you,
let it destroy you,
or you can let it strengthen you.
I am under so much stress to get everything done by this weekend. I have a
math test tomorrow that I need to study for. I believe that I have a physics test
tomorrow. I have a bunch of other homework that needs to be done. And on top of all
that, I have to clean my room top to bottom and throw away a bunch of old
clothes by this weekend. If I want to go out with my friends on Saturday
and Sunday then my room needs to be cleaned top to bottom.
It feels so good to have someone read what I have written and get such positive feedback. My mom, dad, and teacher all read a paper that I recently wrote and they were all blown away at how amazing it was written. It made me feel so accomplished and it made me feel like I had actually done something good.
Last night was the first time that I could hang out with my ex outside of school since we broke up and I can honestly say that I was actually happy. My friend was with us and he said that he could see it in my eyes, the sparkle was back and I was happy. I laughed and I smiled and I was truly happy. I didn't have any stress, I was completely relaxed. We sat on a hill and watched my hometown's football game. It was so amazing to be with him for 2 hours and just laugh and not be awkward.
Rant about my life
 
Tomorrow would have been two years with my ex.. we broke up 7 months ago yet it still hurts. I see him in the halls every day and he seems fine and happy, yet here I am still crying and hurting every single day. Sometimes I wish that I could just get over him and stop all this pain, but then I realize that he was the reason that I was happy for almost 2 years. He was the reason that I could get up in the morning and not feel worthless. He is still the reason that I get up every morning and go to school. I go to school to see his smile and hear his laugh. We are still friends, but it isn't quite the same. I don't know if it ever will be. I see him in the halls with his other friends and he seems so happy and then there is me. The one who walks down the halls with both headphones in, loud music playing, and a fake smile on my face when someone smiles at me. I don't know how to change that. People keep saying, "stop being depressed?" and "just let yourself be happy". Do you all think that I like being depressed?Do you think that I like faking a smile everyday? Well the answer is no. I hate it. If I could change it, then I can guarantee that I would have. If I could stop being depressed then I would have done that a long time ago. I try to "just let myself be happy" and it doesn't work. I don't know how to make it work. I don't know how to be truly happy anymore.
Everything will be okay in the end.
If it's not okay, then it's not the end. 
When you realize that you can't trust anyone. 
I thought that I could tell this kid everything, 
he was my best friend. And then all of the sudden 
he turned on me and he completely ditched 
me. And now he is a complete stranger.
One day we were best friends, the next day he 
became just another stranger.
Moving seriously sucks.
♥I think I am finally happy♥
♥I think I love her♥
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