guzgirl1996

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Hey! I'm Madi, 16, short, bookworm, mid western, struggling, writing, living, breathing, just getting through one day at a time


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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I've been like this for a year and half and I'm spiraling down, but I know I have a ways to go. I understand you are scared to get help but you should. You deserve a better life
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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i deserve to go to Hell.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I wish you wouldn't. But I also know that this isn't something you just choose to start or stop. Please seek help before you spiral down. It's a scary, lonely way to live that I don't wish for anyone
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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oh, darling. i've been like for for almost a year. i'm still spiraling down but i started the journey downwards a long time ago.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I've been like this for a year and half and I'm spiraling down, but I know I have a ways to go. I understand you are scared to get help but you should. You deserve a better life
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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i deserve to go to Hell.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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No it's not! And believe me, throwing up doesn't aid in weight loss like you'd think. I used to throw up 2-5 times a day and I stayed at the same weight but looked fatter due to bloating, felt sick all the time, smelt nasty, and it really screws your metabolism, trust me
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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okay then. i guess starting monday i'll have only breakfast and dinner. or only dinner. must be skinny.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I wish you wouldn't. But I also know that this isn't something you just choose to start or stop. Please seek help before you spiral down. It's a scary, lonely way to live that I don't wish for anyone
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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oh, darling. i've been like for for almost a year. i'm still spiraling down but i started the journey downwards a long time ago.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I've been like this for a year and half and I'm spiraling down, but I know I have a ways to go. I understand you are scared to get help but you should. You deserve a better life
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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i deserve to go to Hell.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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Coming from someone that used to do it a lot, and still does sometimes. It's not a hole you want to dig yourself into. It's messy and ugly and it just brings more pain and guilt. It's hard now to ward off the thoughts and desires to do it, but it's even harder to rid them once you've started. It leads to you doing things you are even more ashamed of and scare you.
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I want to be skinny and everyone makes me eat so it's my only choice.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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No it's not! And believe me, throwing up doesn't aid in weight loss like you'd think. I used to throw up 2-5 times a day and I stayed at the same weight but looked fatter due to bloating, felt sick all the time, smelt nasty, and it really screws your metabolism, trust me
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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okay then. i guess starting monday i'll have only breakfast and dinner. or only dinner. must be skinny.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I wish you wouldn't. But I also know that this isn't something you just choose to start or stop. Please seek help before you spiral down. It's a scary, lonely way to live that I don't wish for anyone
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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oh, darling. i've been like for for almost a year. i'm still spiraling down but i started the journey downwards a long time ago.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I've been like this for a year and half and I'm spiraling down, but I know I have a ways to go. I understand you are scared to get help but you should. You deserve a better life
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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i deserve to go to Hell.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I'm not going to tell you that dear. I don't want to help anyone do anything that causes themselves harm, and throwing up does just that. But I am here to talk to you if you'd like
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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._. i'll just google it then. and yeah.. i feel like i need to talk. i can't and won't tell anyone that i see regularly. i don't trust people off the internet O_o that;s like totally backwards of what i've been taught.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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Coming from someone that used to do it a lot, and still does sometimes. It's not a hole you want to dig yourself into. It's messy and ugly and it just brings more pain and guilt. It's hard now to ward off the thoughts and desires to do it, but it's even harder to rid them once you've started. It leads to you doing things you are even more ashamed of and scare you.
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I want to be skinny and everyone makes me eat so it's my only choice.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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No it's not! And believe me, throwing up doesn't aid in weight loss like you'd think. I used to throw up 2-5 times a day and I stayed at the same weight but looked fatter due to bloating, felt sick all the time, smelt nasty, and it really screws your metabolism, trust me
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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okay then. i guess starting monday i'll have only breakfast and dinner. or only dinner. must be skinny.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I wish you wouldn't. But I also know that this isn't something you just choose to start or stop. Please seek help before you spiral down. It's a scary, lonely way to live that I don't wish for anyone
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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oh, darling. i've been like for for almost a year. i'm still spiraling down but i started the journey downwards a long time ago.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I've been like this for a year and half and I'm spiraling down, but I know I have a ways to go. I understand you are scared to get help but you should. You deserve a better life
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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i deserve to go to Hell.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I did that yesterday :/ Please, don't do it sweetie. It's not worth it. If you haven't before, don't start
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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how did you do it..
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I'm not going to tell you that dear. I don't want to help anyone do anything that causes themselves harm, and throwing up does just that. But I am here to talk to you if you'd like
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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._. i'll just google it then. and yeah.. i feel like i need to talk. i can't and won't tell anyone that i see regularly. i don't trust people off the internet O_o that;s like totally backwards of what i've been taught.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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Coming from someone that used to do it a lot, and still does sometimes. It's not a hole you want to dig yourself into. It's messy and ugly and it just brings more pain and guilt. It's hard now to ward off the thoughts and desires to do it, but it's even harder to rid them once you've started. It leads to you doing things you are even more ashamed of and scare you.
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I want to be skinny and everyone makes me eat so it's my only choice.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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No it's not! And believe me, throwing up doesn't aid in weight loss like you'd think. I used to throw up 2-5 times a day and I stayed at the same weight but looked fatter due to bloating, felt sick all the time, smelt nasty, and it really screws your metabolism, trust me
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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okay then. i guess starting monday i'll have only breakfast and dinner. or only dinner. must be skinny.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I wish you wouldn't. But I also know that this isn't something you just choose to start or stop. Please seek help before you spiral down. It's a scary, lonely way to live that I don't wish for anyone
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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oh, darling. i've been like for for almost a year. i'm still spiraling down but i started the journey downwards a long time ago.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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I've been like this for a year and half and I'm spiraling down, but I know I have a ways to go. I understand you are scared to get help but you should. You deserve a better life
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of_mice_and_lucifer* 1 decade ago on quote #6686974
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i deserve to go to Hell.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6481079
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Did you write this? It's wonderful
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6481109
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I had a similar thing the other day. But I pictured myself hiding in a bathroom, purging a ton, and passing out, just not waking up
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Baileylovespie 1 decade ago on quote #6481109
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stay strong<3
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6380179
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???
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6356708
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Yes... I do. I see it every morning and I stare at it's hideousness several times a day.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6347490
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I think I'm gonna be a greek goddess :)
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6340702
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Oh my god. I don't think you understand my recent obsession with this song
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6331629
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You're not. And I would love to be your friend :)
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6328254
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Always
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6308274
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Pleaseeee don't. You're loved and needed
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6248643
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Too bad I'm ugly, emotionally unstable, and so far having the worst academic year yet.
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6249699
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Can you make things? Bracelets, paintings, clothes... etc. Sell them at a good price. Advertise for them on facebook, twitter, your school, or whatever. On facebook and stuff too say that you're looking for babysitting, cleaning, whatever jobs you'd be looking to do. If it's for a good cause make sure you say what it is
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6244774
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I'm so sorry dear. I'm here if you want to talk
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6235657
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I can't even imagine. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I'm always here for you dear :)
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guzgirl1996 1 decade ago on quote #6221986
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I know I'm like the last person to be able to tell you to eat healthy but I will. It's hypocritical I know... But just some ideas that might help. You could try eating healthier when you're hungry, and maybe having a set amount you let yourself eat that day, say 3 meals and snack, healthy food is better. And just leave it at that instead of eating a ton and maybe you'll eat less but eat every day.
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