gwenythadele

Status: I really need to clean my room.
Joined: January 30, 2011
Last Seen: 7 years
user id: 150192
Gender: F
Hey, the name's Gwen!
And no, I'm not a super fan of Adele, Adele is my middle name. Always has been.

I'm 14 & a sophomore in high school... that's right. So I'm younger than most of my friends.
I'd like to say it makes me more mature, but it really doesn't.
I tend to speak my mind & say things I don't mean. I'm a bitch but I'm easily broken, even if I don't show it.
But even though I can be a bitch, I'm really loyal. Rarely do I tell secrets, and by rarely, I mean rarely.
I'm always available to listen, but if you're going to share something with me, be prepared for the truth.
That's what makes me so bitchy; I'm not afraid to make people face reality, even if it hurts.

But of course in this day & age, everyone's vulnerable, and they don't want to face the truth.
So my outspokenness & abrubtness gives me a bad rep.
I wish it wasn't that way, but there's nothing I can do to change the way I'm viewed.
Because of that, I have few friends.
Well, I have a lot, let's be honest, but no true friends. Nobody to be there me when I'm at my lowest.
But that's okay. I've realized I'd rather have few friends than a lot.
If you have too many close friends, some may get mad if you don't give them enough attention.
They might start drama, and then where does that leave you?

I play soccer & swim competitively, both for my high school.
I'm not the best at each, but it doesn't matter who's better than who, it matters who's having more fun.

Like pretty much everyone else, music gets me through the day.
I don't really have a particular favorite song, or artist, or even a favorite genre.
I like whatevers good, but I often tend to fall back on "emo music". Not screamo music though, that sucks.
The lyrics always have a meaning behind them, they're not songs about some girls boobs, like most hits on Billboard.
Plus nobody listens to them, so concerts rarely sell out & it feels good to know my music is unique.


Ten Things You Should Know About Me (in no particular order)
1. I hate when people call me pretty. I'm really not, until I put my makeup on.
2. I have 2 cats, which my dad is convinced are gay.
3. My favorite feature is my eyes.
4. I can't stand when people pretend to be something they're not. Where does that get you?
5. I can never focus on anything, which is why my grades tend to slip, even though I'm actually pretty smart.
6. Despite how much I hate myself, I've never succumbed to self-harming. I just don't understand how a person could do that to themselves. It doesn't help the pain go away, it just leaves a scar to remind you of whatever it was over and over again. Plus, I would hate to have to explain to my kid what the "marks on mommy's arms" are.
7. I have an extremely high metabolism. I eat the worst food for my health, but I don't gain any weight. There's a downside to that though, because high cholesterol runs in my family, which is why I'd like to change my eating habits. But if I eat healthier, I'll lose more weight, and you can already see my ribs. I hate it.
8. I fall way too hard for guys, and tend to be pretty clingy.
9. I'm cracking my knuckles nonstop. It's annoying.
10. I'm Canadian, British, Welsh, Dutch, & Irish. but I live in America.



I'd say leave a comment, but don't.
I probably won't respond for another month or so, because I rarely come on here.
(that's also why I'm making a limited effort to make my profile appealing)
Instead DM me on twitter (@gwenythadele) or send me a message on tumblr (keepmovingf-o-r-w-a-r-d).
That way you're guaranteed a response.

Quotes by gwenythadele



Today, I met this guy who has done so much to prevent bullying amongst teens. He's always there for pretty much anyone, he's created a Facebook group for people to post their stories, and he's even written a book. The reason he tries to help out with everyone is because he too, has had problems with bullying in his past. Today, when I talked to him, it was only for a few minutes, and I didn't even mention the bullying, but you could literally see the hurt in his eyes.
That's what killed me the most; the fact that despite all that he's done for the teens in our community, he's just as vulnerable as everyone else.


 


Old friend:  What happened to you?
Me: I stopped caring, that's what.

 
 

 

 


I think it's funny how there was that one week where Steve made it so you couldn't put a format on your quote, but now practically nobody uses one anymore...

 

 

 



We all have been degraded, we all will be                                         
                  The Greatest

 



I JUST WANNA RUN
hide   it   away,                             
run before they're finding me out.
   


 



If someone or something is affecting your life negatively,
               LET  IT  GO.



Trust me, it feels pretty d-mn good.

 



Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
 THEY FILL YOU WITH
FEAR
The trouble it might drag you down
 If   you   get   lost,   you can always be found.


 

No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice.

Me: *breathes*
Mom: EXCUSE ME?
Me: What?

Mom: I don't like your additude.
Me: But I--
Mom: Don't you dare talk back to me young lady.
Me: Okay.
Mom: One more word out of you and I'm grounding you for a month.
Me:
Mom:
Me:
Mom:
Me:
Mom:
Me: *blinks*
Mom: That's it. Give me your phone.




She screamed at her reflection, threw her brush at the mirror. Put a cigarette to her mouth to see if she could see things any clearer. Pulling out her own hair she remembered the tablets in the draw. The doctor told her one a day, she couldn't take it anymore. She's a ghost now, just a ghost.