All together I have engraved 5 words on my body. 2 of them were
peoples names, the 2 people that I've ever really, really
liked. It's so f*cking stupid. What is even wrong with me?
I'm not a people person. I'm shy and embarressing and
awkward and I spent the weekend thinking about someone that
I've never even met. I'm worthless and nothing good ever
stays with me. My cousins are gone, my family's gone, my
friends are gone. And it's all because I'm not good enough
for anyone. Now I just over think things 24 hours a day and I have
2 f*cking names on my body that I just stare at thinking what could
have happened if I had told them more, if I was beautiful, if I was
worth being with.