hayXitsXyourXlove

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hi everyone my name is caitlin! im 16 from jersey, i blow out the candles on december 6th.
i'm a HUGE fan of one direction, ed sheeran, chris brown, and taylor swift's old stuff! but i usually listen to anything, those are just my favesss(:
some of my favorite things includeeeee;
-pilates
-eating
-sleeping
-dreaming
-talking
-making people smile
-giving compliments
-laughing
-baking
i absolutely adore making new friends and honestly, i could use some...so PEOPLE, PLEASE. TALK TO ME.
i'm a good-hearted person and very understanding, so if any of you readers out there ever have any problems, don't hesitate. i'm ALWAYS here.
even if we've never talked and you happened to stumble upon here, don't hesitate.

please feel free to comment, fav, or talk to me! xo

Quotes by hayXitsXyourXlove

Whenever you get done crying after a long period of time,
do you ever just feel...tired?

Not just exhausted because of crying.
Tired of everyone.  And everything.
It's like you're just tired of thinking, breathing, living.
But it's not so severe that you actually want to die,
but that you just want a break from thinking.
That over-thinking, the little voice inside your head with all the negative.
You're just tired of trying to change your thought process,
and you just want to sit wherever you are and not get up.
Not make a single movement, because even that is too much.
But the main thing is, you don't even know what's wrong.
And you can't even figure it out.

Does anyone else feel that way sometimes?
Well girls, I'm half way there.

Even though no one is going to read this, I'm just too proud of myself to hold in all of my emotions.  I can't contain myself anymore!
I started working out in the summer.  Running everyday for at least 10 minutes, walking home from work, eating better, lifting 3 pound weights, doing sit-ups, etc.
I had seen results. My thighs looked slimmer, some of my stomach fat had gone away, and my shoulders looked more defined.
But, I still wasn't quite happy with myself.
So I started exercising alot more (2-2 1/2 hours a day) and constantly counting calories (not going over 1300 a day)
I felt, well still do, feel great.  I was walking around more confidently and happier.

When I went to the doctor in the first week of January, (for my basic check-up), I found that I lost 10 pounds since the summer.
10. Pounds.
I went from weighing 135 to 125, I was proud of myself, but I wanted to see how far I could go.
So since then, I've worked even harder.
More cardio.
More lifting.
More pilates/yoga.
More eating clean.
More of doing the right thing to staying healthy.
I feel great and I'm not at my goal yet.

Where I'm at now (I DO NOT DO ALL OF THIS IN ONE DAY):
-Running 50 minutes
-Biking 20 minutes
-2 hours of pilates (including lifting 5 lbs handweights, but many reps&sets)
-stretching 15 minutes (this is everyday)


My goals?

-To weigh between 110-120
-Have a flat stomach, thinner thighs, and toned arms by the summer
-Be able to do 100 squats in a row
-Have more will-power against bad foods (i cave every once in a while)
-Be happier.



sorry for the rant, i was just so happy and i need to get it all out lol.

I've honestly never felt so broken.
So today in class...

This kid on the wrestling team was talking about how much he hated another school because they beat us.
My teacher just happened to be listening in and this is how it went...

Kid:  I swear Marlboro wears CROCS.  I would have beat their f@!cking a$$es up.

Teacher:  John, my son wears crocs...

Class:  Awk.........







 I'm about to lose my mind.
You've been gone for so long.
I'm running out of time.
I need a doctor, call me a doctor.
I need a doctor, to bring me back to life.





 

 
f o r m a t   j i m m y 3 6 5  | 

 

So it's my birthday...

My crush acted like he totally forgot about it all day,
He literally acted like it was any other normal day.
I was so upset that when the final bell of the day rang I sprinted to my locker and just wanted to cry.
BUT,
when I opened my locker i found a plate of nicely decorated brownies,
the most prettiest purple flowers (which, btw, purple is my favorite color),
and a card saying:
"Happy birthday Caitlin!  I love you(:     Love, Greg"
surrounded by a huge heart.

I still cannot stop smiling.


all mine.
So I today at school i was having a really bad day.
When I finally came home i immediately went to my kitchen, grabbed a few pretzels&sat down next to my 11-year-old brother.
He looked at me and said "Caitlin, did you thinner? Not that you were fat before but your legs and arms look alot skinnier and you can really see your curves now."

my day=made.i have the best little brother anyone could ever ask for(:
If I were a Disney Princess, I'd be Pocahontas
Cinderella:
[ ] One of your parents is dead
[] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[] You love to dress up
[x] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
[] Your mom is really strict
[] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
[x] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes
[x] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before
[] You have blonde hair
TOTAL:4


Belle:
[x] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[] You’ve been lost in the forest
[] You love to read
[x] You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird
[] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need
[x] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty (girls)
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out
TOTAL: 7

Jasmine:
[ ] Your dad is very rich/important
[] You are very clever
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[x] You don’t have a lot of friends
[x] You’re independent
[ ] You are wealthy
[]Your parents try to control your life
TOTAL:6

Ariel
[x] Your parents expect a lot from you
[x] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you
[x]You’re a bit of a trouble maker
[ ] You’re the youngest in your family or in the last 2
[ ] You have a lot of sisters (3 or more)
[] You collect something
[x]You have/had long, hair
[x] You have/had a pet fish
[x] You’re extremely curious
[] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible
TOTAL:6


Snow White:
[x} You know that you’re beautiful
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[x] You’ve almost been killed
[] You have at least seven good friends
[] You’ve had food poisoning
[x] You have/had short hair
[x] You get along with almost everyone
[x] All of your friends are different
[x] You love to have a good time
[x] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in
TOTAL: 7


Mulan:
[x] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[x] People wish you could be a bit more girly
[x]You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[x] You’ve had a physical fight with someone
[x] You have/had considered running away from home
[] Your parents try to plan your life out
[x] a lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[x] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them
TOTAL: 8


Aurora
[ ] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[x] You almost died at a very young age
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful
[x ]You have a decent singing voice
[x] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[x] You spend most of your time outside [try to]
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very romantic
[x ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL: 7


Pocahontas
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[x] You are more spiritual than religious
[x] You’ve been in an interracial relationship
[x] One of your family members is dead (mum, dad, sister, brother, grandma, grandpa)
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[] Someone you know has been in war
[x]You love nature
[x] You have/had black hair
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[x] You’re very adventurous
TOTAL: 9

Repost as "If I were a princess I'd be .." (full in blank with one you have highest total in)



*me singing in the car with my brother sitting next to me*

My brother: have you ever considered trying out for American Idol or XFACTOR?
Me: no..maybe i shou-
My brother: oh no its not like im saying you're good or giving you a compliment but just to get you out of the house and off of the internet or whatever you do in your room all day.

see what i have to deal with? thanks pat...



mine.


Lately I've found myself thinking,
Been dreaminn' about you alot...

nmf.