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My name is Hannah.
I made my witty account when I was tweleve years old. 
I am now seventeen.


I haven't visited this website in years. 


I created the account mainly just to vent about some stupid insane crush I had on a boy. 
I'm here to tell all of your girls;



All of these little problems we face everyday will not even effect us in a matter of weeks

Friendships end.
Relationships are forgotten. 
Old hobies are lost.  

But that's the beauty of life; We will not care.
we grow up
and forget about every problem. 


I'm not saying to ignore your problems.

Like I mentioned, I was only on here to vent about that little crush. 
In a way though, always thinking about him made it harder to forget about him. 

Really, I stopped using witty when him and I started dating. 
I didn't have anything I needed to rant about. 



So, here I am, five years later, still with him, and still happy. 



Sometimes it doesn't work out, and other times it does. 





What I am trying to say is keep your head up,
and a smile at the bullshit.



 
*Bruises and Black Eyes*
Chapter 18 

 
       I think the hardest part about talking about these past few years was actually hearing myself say everything. My 'public' boyfriend was a monster and didn't love me. He hated the fact I'm a virgin. He always was trying to sleep with me, and I would have to push him off of me every time. He yelled at me in public. Picked at every flaw I had. And then the black eye situation. I told officer Liz how much I couldn't stand him, yet I never ended thing. Instead, I would just not see him. Ignore him if I did. I guess I liked that I was treating him the way he treated me. I also told Liz about how much I love Tyler. How long he waited for me, how he is the only one that understands me. He knew I feared Logan, and even tried to fix that. I don't even know why I was with him for so long. 
      Liz told me Logan can never touch, or hurt me again. She promised Logan will switch school, and did other stuff, like community hours. I did not pay any attention; I didn't want to hear his name ever again. She then said Tyler should have a court date, but only has to show up. She said nothing will probably happen to him. As for me, she wanted me to see a therapist to help me cope with everything. So did I. 
      When the police let me out of the small room, it felt like stepping out of my body. Like I was given a whole new me. I could no longer be sad. And I loved it. I even smiled. But my smile grew bigger when I saw Tyler right across from me. He was sitting in a black chair, foot tapping the ground. His hands were clenching the arms of the chair, and his blue eyes were fixed on the ground. The flickered to me. His face moved up.
      He stood to his feet in less than a mila-second. Immedently, his hands were around my waist, embracing me. He squeezed me so tight I thought I was going to explode. I sqeezed him just as tight, and planned to never let go. I felt the salty warm tears floor my eyes. I've been crying a lot latley. But for the first time in a long time, they're happy tears.
    "Tyler, I'm so sorry for everything I have put you through. I'm sorry for always hurting you. Thank you for protecting me always. I promise I will always be here for you. I won't hurt you anymore." He sqeezed me even tighter. After a few minutes, he released his grip, and looked me in the eyes.
    "Mel, I love you. You are the one that got hurt out of all of this, not me. I promise you, you will never have to go through any of that ever again." I felt his warm lips press against mine. In that moment everything was perfect. But it was interrupted by a police man clearing his throat. We both turned around. "Uh, both of your parents are downstairs. We have already told them anything. They are all coming up now."
  This should be intresting. And awkward. 

 
*Bruises and Black Eyes*
Chapter 17 

 
       I remember the police putting Tyler and Logan one seperate cars. Cops surrounded me, asking if I was okay. My black eye must have left a lot of unsolved questions. Maybe the wouldn't have had to take me to the police station if I actually answered them. But I couldn't. I was sobbing too hard. 
       The chair they had me sitting in was cold, metal. There was a fold out tabel in the middle of the room. A young women sitting across from it. She had a warm cup of coffee in her hand. She smiled. "Melany, right?" I didn't answer; I watched an ant march across the floor instead. "Melany, my name is officer Costo. But you can call me Liz." She was trying to be nice, and get me to talk. They need to know why the girl with the black eye was crying. I really don't feel like talking about it, but I don't think that's a good acuse.
      "We talked to a few kids you go to school with. They all said you're dating that boy, Logan. You two have been together for awhile." I stay silent. "Some people also said Tyler and Logan use to be best friends. But latley they haven't been too close." I blink at the floor. The ant disappreared under the table.  
     "Melany," Liz leaned in closer to me. "Was Tyler the one that gave you the black eye?" Now she has my attention. "He was extremly violent when we showed up." She continued. I didn't want to hear anymore."
      "I have never seen Tyler was angry. He is the most peacful man I know. Logan was my boyfriend, and the one that gave me this black eye. I've been with him since freshmen year. He drinks, and smokes, and sleeps with other girls. I know everything he does behind my back. Tyler and Logan use to be friends, until Logan started partying too much. Tyler and I have been secretly dating and I love him. I'm so inlove with him. But sneaking around makes me feel just as horrible as Logan is. Yet it makes me feel better because I'm doing what he deserves." The tears were rushing down my face as the sobs started again. I burried my face in my hands. 
      "He controls my life. He makes me feel like I am worth nothing! and maybe I'm not. I haven't decided yet. But Tyler makes everything better. They were fighting because Tyler found out Logan hit me. And now he's here, and probably hates me."
     "He doesn't hate you."  Liz said. I forgot I was talking to her. "He's talking to other officers right now, and from what I've heard, he's nervous you hate him. In fact, he's dying to see you." The tears were still streaming down my face, but a smile managed to find it's way to my face. "If you can tell me everything, from the start, you can walk out of here with Tyler." She really knows how to make someone talk.
     "I moved here for freshmen here," And I told her everything. From my first day of school, to the day in the coffee shop with Logan. The day of April's party, to the last night. It felt good to talk. 
 

 

 
*Bruises and Black Eyes*
Chapter 14 

 
       I could almost feel the words slip from my lips as the lingered in the cold air. From the corner of my eyes I watched Logan. He was starring at the wall. I hung my head back and let it rest on the couch. My eye was still throbbing. Logan stood up and I flinched. I was now terrified but I tried not to show it. Logan kneeled at the edge of the couch and took my hands. He barried his still face in my hands.
       "We've both messed up, haven't we?" he says. I stay silent.
       "Tomorrow morning, you're going to wake up and get ready to go to the beach one more time. You'll call Tyler, tell him it's not working. And that's it. Then we have a fresh start, Mel. A new chapter. I swear, I'll be the man I use to be. I promise." Then he kissed my hand. 'It's a shame Logan is terrible at keeping promises.' I thought to myself.
        "I'll pick you up at around 12. Just do what I say. That way no one will get hurt." And then, I swear, he looked right at my swollen eye. He was threating me. I was not going to call his bluff. I nodded. He kissed my forehead gently, stood up, and walked out the door. I breathed.
        After an hour of pressing ice to my eye, I crawled up to my bed. I slowly put on sweatpants, and curled up under my sheets. I few minutes later, I heard my parents arrive. They were walking around, whispering and chatting. I heard my door open, and I pretended to be asleep. I heard the door shut, and my father's voice tell my mother I was safe, and asleep. 'Do they always check on me?' I thought to myself. Weird. 
        My mind started to wonder what I would miss most about Tyler. Maybe it was the way he said 'I love you'. How he smiled, every single time he said it. Maybe it was the way he held me; tight and protecting. Maybe I would miss his sweet scent.
        I tried not to cry. The tears stung my bad eye. I needed to calm myself down. But the only way I knew he to calm down was the think of Tyler. I closed my eyes.
       I imagined the summer. The beach. Warm, golden sand. Laying on a beach towel. I could almost hear the ocean waves. I saw Tyler next to me. Just smilling, looking at me. That's when I knew what I would miss most; those eyes. So perfect and blue. Watching and protecting me. Keeping me close. Tyler is one of the sweetest people I've ever met. Caring, loving, and protective. He is my favorite person in my life. 
        My eyes fluttered when I heard my alarm clock go off. It's morning. 



Readers-
I am so incredibly sorry this is so late. I promise, I will try to be faster with these chapters.
 Writing this one almost got me emotional, I don't know about you. 
Love you guys so freaking much 
--Hannah 
*Bruises and Black Eyes*
Chapter 13 

 
       There's a picture of my mother and father I found when I was little. It's them, holding hands in a green park. Smiling. My mother showing her pearly white teeth, beautiful eyes on the camera. My father, big and strong, had his eyes on her. The way he looked is undescribable. I always wanted someone to look at me like that. 
       My world turned black. My right eye was swollen; probably turn black by the morning. I stumbled my way to the couch. I just buried my face in my hands. I felt Logan sit next to me. We didn't speak for awhile. The sky turned dark eventually. 'What am I going to do with myself?' I thought. The sky turned balck. 
       I didn't have any ideas running through my head; my mind was blank. I just needed someone to comfort me. 'What should I say now?' I guess I should start honestly. 
       "I've been cheating on you with Tyler for the past two years." The room stayed silent. 
*Bruises and Black Eyes*
Chapter 11 

 
       Lets fast forward two years; junior year. Two years of a well known, sad relationship. A boyfriend who told people he was only with me because I made him 'look good.' A boyfriend who picked what I ate, wore, and even picked my friends. Two years of him trying to get into my pants, and failing. Two years of listening to the rumors of him with other girls. Part of me did hate him. And the other wasn't ready to let go of my first love. Logan knew that, and wasn't afraid to use it against me. 
     The only reason I survived those two years was because of my secret relationship with Tyler, Logan's sort of ex best friend. Ty is the complete opposite of Logan; One of the reasons I love him so much. 
     Logan never found out about Tyler and me during those years. We were sneaky. We would only hang out when we knew Tyler was busy; Usually getting wasted at some party. I never really had to lie to him, because he never asked about me, like where I was while he hes drinking. I guess he didn't really care. 
       My relationship with Tyler was oddly simple. We didn't fight like how Logan and I did. The one thing was did fight about was Logan. Tyler of course was extremly uncomfortable knowing I was still in a relationship. Tyler would never fully understand how I felt. I was head over heels inlove with both of them. Even if Logan is different from when we first met. But it was clear who was better for me. Who treated me right, really cared about me, and truly inlove with me. Yet some times I looked at Logan, he would smile at me.
      He'd put his arm around my waist firmly, and kiss my cheeck, even whisper in my ear "I love you." It's at those moments, do I feel good. Like I'm back to freshman year, being saved by him. It wasn't until the summer going into senior year, did I catch myself slowly losing hope. I was thinking of Tyler more than him. It's like I would slowly let go, he would kiss me, and I be right where I started. 
       It was Tyler's idea for me to hangout with him and Logan at the same time. Ty was desperate for me to lose Logan. So he thought if I was with both of them, I would see maybe which one was better for me. And that's where I am. Standing in my kitchen, with Logan on my lips, and Tyler's eyes awkwardly starring the ground, and making fists. 
        The whole day, I am to spend with both of them. I nice day at the beach. Its...different. 

Readers- SO SORRY THIS IS SO LATE! But I promise I will really start working on the next chapter. Lot of plans for this next one ;)
With love, 
Hannah 




Money doesn'buy happiness.
but it does buy food, which is a lot better.