hello_universe

It sucks when:
Your home feels like a place you just stay at.
You don't feel welcomed anywhere
You feel like you're such a bother to everyone else
You feel like you have nothing going for you

I don’t know whats been wrong with me.
I’ve been moody and tired a lot lately.
And just annoyed with everything.

If we get into an argument, don't try talking to me 5 min later acting like everything's okay.
Chances are I'm still mad and don't want nothing to do with you

And you wonder why i never tell you what's wrong with me.
All you do is judge and say it's all in my head.
Thanks...

I went to a wedding yesterday and it made me realize one thing. When and if i ever get married, my dad’s not going to be there. He’s not going to be there to walk me down the aisle. He’s not going to be there for me to dance with. And realizing this, makes me not want to get married. How can i share that special day if i won’t have my father there..

Witty Survey:

Cross Off the Things You Have Done

Graduated high school
Kissed someone
Smoked a ciggarete
Got so drunk you passed out
Rode in a police car for something you didn't do
Rode every ride at an amusement parkt 
Collected something really stupid
Gone to a rock concert
Help someone
Gone fishing
Watched 4 movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time without sleep
Lied to someone
Snorted cocaine
Dealt drugs
Been in a car accident
Been in a Tornado
Done hard drugs
Watched someone die
Been at a funeral
Burned yourself
Ran a marathon
Cried yourself to sleep
Spent over $200 in one day
Flown on a plane
Sat first class (1st seat ) on a plane
Cheated on someone
Been cheated on
Written a 10 page letter
Gone skiing
Been Sailing
Cut yourself
Had a best friend
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something
Been to jail
Dangerously close to being in jail
Skipped School
Skipped a class
Had Detention
Got in trouble for something you didn't do
Stolen books from a library
Gone to a different country
Dropped out of school
Been in a mental hospital
Been treated in a mental hospital
Have watched all the Harry potter movies
Had an online Diary
Fired a gun
Had a yard sale
Had a lemonade stand
Actually made money off of the lemonade stand
Been in a school play
Been fired from a job
Taken a lie detector test
Swam with dolphins
Gone to seaworld.
Gone to seaworld and seen Shamo
Got absaloutly socked by Shamo.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show
Written poetry
Read more than 20 books a year
Written over a 30 page essay
Gone to Europe
Loved someone you shouldn't have
Befriended someone you shouldn't have
Used a colouring book over the age of 12.
Had surgery
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument
Had more than 5 im's/chats online going all at once.
Overdosed
Had a drug or alcohol problem
Relative to someone with a serious alcohol/drug problem
Been in a fist fight
Gone surfing in California
Had or have a pet hamster
Pet a wild animal
Used a credit card
Did "spirit day" at your school
Dyed your hair
Got a tattoo
Had something pierced
Known someone with HIV or AIDS
Fell in love/ had or have a crush on your bestfriend.

Yesterday was the best day ever! My boyfriend took me to the Paramore and Fall Out Boy concert yesterday (: It was amazing, i loved it!
I have to say i have a pretty great boyfriend ♥(:

I know i need to get my medication. I know it’s important to be taking them. I’m not stupid. But what you fail to realize is that i don’t have the effing money! Wouldn’t you think if i had the money i would have had everything by now and be feeling a whole lot better.

Why does medication have to be SOO expensive?! -_-

I understand i have to get a job. I know that.
But it's kind of hard when i have no time what so ever.
All i do is babysit.
And they get mad when i can't babysit for like one day.
So what's going to happen when i actually do get a job
and no one can watch the kids?