Dear stranger,
Sadly it has came to the time where we no longer call each other
best friends. And although its been only four months, I feel like
my heart is slowly breaking at the days that remind me of you. When
I see the picture of you smiling, tears fill my eyes knowing that I
am not. Threre is only guilt of what I could and should of said.
All the long nights that us two would argue bring back awful
flashbacks I wish to not remember. I wish to only rememeber the
best things about you,like how you loved to read and drink hot
cocoa on the park bench. But after walking home from the park your
demons would come alive and slowly attack your mind. It was my job
to fight your demons, and sadly I failed. I was more of a therapist
rather than a friend, and when I could not help enough the guilt
had fled back into my mind. What if I lost him? What if he saw me
as I see myself? The time had came where you had seen me the way I
saw myself and I dreaded it. I still look back at the words I said
and wish I could only change them. I never wanted it to be like
this. I never stopped caring, nor ever will. I still wish that I
could wake to the days where I knew that you were right by my side.
Where I knew it was just you and I against the awful world. Sadly
it has came to the day where we pass by each other as strangers,
not a single smile on our faces. No wave hello, no how have you
been...just numb. To think that the person that I had whole
dedication to, a person I thought I could fix. With the pain in my
chest as I whimper in fear that someone else will now see me at my
worst. A worthless idiot with made up dreams about a person ever
possibly caring for them. Although we both had said some awful
things, I only wish to take them back, to take everything back.
Maybe if I had done something different. It would of never ended up
this way. I still love you dearly.
Yours truly,
just another stranger.