herecomesthesunshine

Status: It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.
Joined: May 22, 2010
Last Seen: 9 years
Birthday: November 16
user id: 109677
Location: Vancouver, WA
Gender: F

 


 
 
STATUS: "I don't know any perfect people, only really really flawed people who are still worth loving." -John Green
Hey there, I'm Shelby. I used to be on here a lot, and now I'm not really. My life has changed so much since I created this account, and honestly I'm not even the same person. But, maybe this year i'll try to come on more... Maybe I'll start writing again. Who knows. Maybe i'll just disappear again altogether. I'm getting my together, I'm a senior, and i'm also taking college classes this year. I'm recently single, after being off the market for almost a year, and I'm still learning to cope with it. If you have any other questions, well, sucks for you. jk, just leave me a comment.
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Must Get Out
Chapters 1-3

 

 

*before I begin, yes I know, this is repost of my story, I feel like I lost all my readers with the lapse in chapters.So i'm reposting the story because I really like where it's going, I hope you guys will too. :)
Chapter 1:"I'm sorry I haven't been texting you back, I just, have been taking some time to be alone... And i'm thinking that I want to stay that way." After ignoring me for more than two weeks I really expected more from him... He was my Jacob... how could he do this to me?
"So, basically what you're saying here is that you're breaking up with me, after almost 3 years? Over a text?" If he wasn't going to have the balls to say it right out, I was.
"Well, If you want to put it harshly, then yes." He was always good at making me feel stupid...
"How could I not take it harshly?" But while I was texting him this I was literally, physically and mentally breaking down... I knew it was over before he said it was over.
"I just want to be alone, I need to be alone. It's nothing you did Aubrey, it's just... the way I prefer to be." Fine... be alone and leave me here to pick up the pieces of yet another broken heart. I really thought he was different... But I guess I was wrong.
Chapter 2:

It was the beginning of July and I was as happy as ever, until Jacob shattered my heart. So cliché, I know… But from there my summer was just one long never-ending pain fest. I tried to listen to all my friends who said that I could do better. But honestly all I wanted to do was go back and have it all be just a terrible nightmare and he would have a really good reason for not texting or calling me for two weeks… But every afternoon when I would finally drag myself out of bed, I was reminded of the painfully obvious truth, I was single. My room was covered in things he had given me, I couldn’t take looking at them anymore… I could have easily driven them over to his house. But no, I couldn’t bear to look at him again… I packed up everything, the presents, our cd’s and pictures… and put them in a box, and mailed them to him. Now there were less things hanging around to cause me pain… Regardless, I was sinking into a deeper and deeper depression, just like I promised myself I wouldn’t ever do again…
Chapter 3:

On one particularly gloomy “summer” morning in Oregon, my parents called me into the living room to talk to me about something. They sat me down and looked me straight in the face and said that my mom had been offered a promotion. I was exstatic that my mom had finally gotten what she’d worked so hard for! She hated her job, she felt she wasn’t living up to her potential, and I guess her boss finally saw that too. But they took in a big breath and let out a big sigh, and laid it on me. We were moving. Before the end of the summer. To Phoenix, Arizona. I was strangely happy, I’d always had a love for perpetual sunshine. I was literally running away from my problems, in the most literal sense. And in a strange way, I was up for it. Excited even, to leave the pain behind. Instinctively I texted Jacob (along with my best friends Rose and Amber) to tell them about the move, and regretted sending it to Jacob as soon as it said sent…

“I’m moving to Phoenix before the end of the summer!”

Rose: “WTF D’: whyyyy, nooo! Take me with you hunny!”

Amber: “You can’t leave! Nothing will ever be the same without you…”

Jacob: “Can you meet me at our coffee shop in ten? I wanna see you.”Chapter 4:

 

“I’m moving to Phoenix before the end of the summerRose: “WTF D’: whyyyy, nooo! Take me with you hunny!”

 

Amber: “You can’t leave! Nothing will ever be the same without you…”

Jacob: “Can you meet me at our coffee shop in ten? I wanna see you.” 

 

 

"This city's made us crazy and we must get out."


so if you're awesome;
you should go check out my friend Roman! (RomanBlock) he's really super nice,
and he's my freshman buddy. and he's new. :)





Don't know if I could ever be
without you 'cause boy
you c-o-m-p-l-e-t-e me.
And in time I know that we'll both see,
that we're all we need.


                                                                   

despite appearances;
i'm really not okay. I'm just waiting for someone to notice...or care.

Must Get Out
Chapter 17

 

 

~Jacob~

 

            Here it was, Friday night. How was I spending it? Alone in my condo with the knowledge that Aubrey was on a date with him tonight. Facebook sucks. It’s like, no, I don’t want to know that the love of my life was going on a date with a guy who probably plays every girl who gives him a chance. That guy has been nothing but a slimy snail since the moment I met him. I would do anything to have her back, every little piece of her. The fact that she acts like everything’s okay- but I knew when she said “I’m fine.” That she was either 1) Lying. Or 2) Didn’t want to talk about it. I love the way she’d fight exhaustion just to hear my voice. Or the way she baked when something was really wrong. But I knew I loved her when we were 13. It was our first sleepover, and she had just showered and taken off all her make-up. It was an indescribable feeling. I knew in a split second that the 13 year old girl in Spongebob pajamas would someday be the woman I married, had children with, and died loving. I was so deep in thought I hadn’t realized that tears were openly flowing down my face and soaking my A Day to Remember shirt I got with her at Warped Tour when we were 14. Everything I did reminded me of her, of times when I couldn’t imagine life without her, because living life without her, wasn’t really living at all.

*author's note: I'd really appreciate some feedback at this point, i'm terribly sorry about the long lapse in chapters. If you did take the time to read this, thank you. :) I apologize for not keeping up on my chapters. But there are more coming. Promise. 

 

"This city's made us crazy and we must get out."

Must Get Out
Chapter 16

 

 

~Isaac~

         The look on her face, hell, the gleam in her eyes hade all the hours of preparation for our date worth it. Every single second of it. It felt like an eternity waiting for her to answer.

 

            “Yes! Of course!” I jumped up off my knee and pulled her into a bear hug. For a split second I looked at my watch and it was already 8!

 

            “We gotta go! Our movie starts at 8:15.” I had pulled some strings at the local movie theater, and they were playing the Notebook just for us, because it’s her favorite movie. I was willing to anything to see her smile. When we pulled up to the theater I think she realized I hadn’t told her what movie we were seeing.

 

            “What movie are we seeing?” She looked at me with her almost childlike eyes, and I almost turned into jello right then and there.

 

            “That’s another surprise, sorry.” My face hurt from smiling so much, I hoped she’d like this surprise too. Once we were in the otherwise empty theater, and the movie began- she realized movie it was. She turned, looked right at me, and spoke,

 

            “Do you have like the best memory ever, or you’re just creepy. Which is it?” She smiled with one eyebrow raised.

            “Well I’ve been told I have a creep-good memory.” This girl made me almost not able to form a coherent sentence, let alone a coherent conversation! We sat through the rest of the movie in a silence that was comfortable, except for her whispering every word along with Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams. It was as if she were meant to be cast in the Notebook instead of Rachel McAdams. When she started to cry, she set her head on my shoulder. That moment couldn’t have been even more perfect if it was in my dreams.

"This city's made us crazy and we must get out."




Dear Future Boyfriend;
I know you're out there somewhere, maybe.
But you need to know that i'm ridiculously insecure, I don't like it. Try to change it? I want to believe i'm beautiful. So tell me i'm beautiful, but only if you mean it. I hate tense moments, so if you say something that I can take sexually when it's too intense of a conversation, I will say "that's what she said." Because I want to lighten the mood. I never want to see you cry, but if you need to cry, my arms will always be open for you. I want you to give me your jacket so you can take it home and have it smell like me. Don't try making out with me in front of my friends, because that's awkward. But if we're talking, and you want to randomly kiss me while i'm talking, that's the best kind of interuption. I'm very impatient, so if you don't text me back after 5 minutes I assume you hate me, or have been killed in a random bombing of the planet that left only me alive. Basically: I assume the worst. Don't be scared off by the fact that I have a 3.95 g.p.a. I can be stupid too, I'm not perfect, and just as long as you can accept that, I'll be yours forever. Maybe you can be mine forever too? 


I think you're cute, great, funny, and just all around amazing.

 

why is this guy not MY boyfriend?


most of the time;
i'm pretty calm. but when i'm hyper i'm like a rabid squirrel on speed.

i've gotten to the point
where I actually; like the way I look without makeup.
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