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Quotes by hiimawkward247

Every thing I wish I would have reflected back on before getting married and you should look at before you take a relationship further. 

1. How does he treat you on your birthday and other holidays?
2. How does he act with you in public?
3. How does he act with you in front of his friends?
5. How is the communication between you two?
6. If they still have pictures of their ex anywhere is it for the memory or is it because they miss them?
7. What do you do for them?
8. What do they do for you?
9. How do they treat you when you're sick?
10. How do they act when you're sad?
11. Do you feel they respect you and your wishes?
12. Do you respect them and their wishes?
13. Are you changing anything about yourself to be the right one for this person?
14. How many times have they made you feel like trash?
15. Why are you with this person?

Because if I did reflect on all of these things, I would not be 21 years old hating myself and my life. 

I gave you the world only for you to give me a sign that said tresspassers will be shot.

Last year we were engaged and he spent my birthday with his friends. 
This year we're married and he spent it sleeping and didn't do anything. When he woke up it took hime about 4 hours to even say Happy Birthday.

Last year we were engaged and I spent his birthday decorating his desk at work, decorating his room, surprising him with gifts and a movie night date. 
This year we're married and I spent it decorating our room, surprising him with gifts, a picnic, playing with puppies, going to the museum like he's always wanted and dinner at his favorite resturaunt. 

I'm just done trying. And the funny thing is, I wasn't going to do any of that but for some reason I did. It's because I actually love him. I wish he actually loved me. 
When did I become a mistake?
For once in my life I just want to be okay
Shout out to my meds for making me sleep al the time so I don't have to feel the pain.
I don't know how to move on from here, from this. 

But maybe that's the point. Maybe I'm not supposed to move on.
How is it that you never noticed that you were slowly killing me?
What I really want to know is did you even love me at all? Or are you just waiting until she becomes available and wants you back for you to dump me and move on?
What I wouldn't give to be able to capture your eyes and hold your heart like she does.