hollywood11

Status: You can buy the world with one penny, you just have to know how to spend it
Joined: June 26, 2011
Last Seen: 1 year
Birthday: December 23
user id: 187712
Gender: F
Name: Holly

Senior year here I come!

After summer of course...

I honestly can't wait to be able to keep going.

See where life takes me.

I'm ready

I think...

<3 Forever

~Holly~

Quotes by hollywood11

Random Update
In case you all needed one...?


Well okay, where to start.
It's about 11:26 in the evening, and I am just simply not tired. Not at all.
What do I want to do with my life? Write. I am just in one of those moods where I want to share what I am thinking in a pointless, essay.
I just want to tell people what is going on, without them actually reading it.
READ IF YOU DARE!
So basically, I am a senior in highschool now. Yes guys, junior year is tough but it is absolutely possible.
I survived!
Now that brings more responsibilities:
I have to learn to drive.
I have to get a job.
I have to pay for things.
I have to think about college.
I have to grow up.
I don't want to grow up.
What do I want to do with my life you may ask...
Well that's a very good question, and I wish I could answer that.
I have no plan.
I have no idea.
I don't know what I want.
I just do not know.
Help.
I will come back to this topic in a bit.
The next thing I want to mention is Riley.
He is my boyfriend for almost ten months now
(It will be official on Saturday)
And I just feel more and more pressure.
It was really fun at first, just hanging out
doing as we wished
and now there's just stuff to worry about.
Balancing time;
We want to be together, like hanging out with eachother, but there are things that need to be done.
I just find myself stressing, and worrying for approval.
I have a family.
I have friends.
I have to spend time with them.
I just saw my friends last weekend?
Why do I have to wait three months before you find it acceptable to see them again?
I sleep at my house everyday.
How does coming back at 10, and going to bed at 10:30 count as spending time with them?
I have to see them. I have to be with them.
I'm sorry my mom thinks that's what needs to happen and so do I.
I really do like Riley; I love him.
He is the greatest thing that has happened to me.
He takes such good care of me, and he loves me, and his family loves me too.
 I just feel the pressures of a relationship.
I'm going to have to talk about college and schooling at some point.
He never went to college.
He graduated and got right into the construction field.
He doesn't understand.
I have to find what is best for me...
maybe it will be the best for us, but probably not.
He and I have different thoughts on what the future will be like.
He wants it to be for us.
I have to find my path,
my place in the world.
I have to be happy with myself, before I can be happy with someone else
You know?
I can be very stubborn.
I stick to my beliefs.
It may seem otherwise, but trust me I will hit you with the truth when the time is right.
If I don't want to do something
there is one thing that happens:
I don't do it.
Easy as that.
I am not entirely sure where this little passage of mine is going, but you don't have to read it.
I just want to write.
That's all.
Just write.
I'm not sleepy or anything.
I just want to write.
About life,
about things,
about things that I just don't know.
I just want to figure things out on my own and with my mom.
I have to do it before I can sit down with Riley and talk to him about where the future will take us.
Do I want to be with him in the future?
Hell Yes!
I just have to do what is right for me first.
Is that wrong...?
Of course I want the best for the both of us,
of course I want both of us to be happy
together.
I just want it to be right.
I don't want to be full of complaints, and I don't want to be a bother.
All I want to do is freeze time, figure everything out, and then live my life on that path.
with the plan that I came up with.
And STICK WITH IT.
No changes.
No different arrangements.
That's it.
A life plan.
I want to know where I'm going,
how I'm getting there,
and who will be there with me.
How is everything going to play out?
I hate the world of the unknown.
Why can't I know?
Why is it a big secret?
WHY?
I just want to know.
I'm done.
You didn't have to read this.
But I thank you if you did!
Comment me, I'm willing to talk.
I want to know your thoughts too, now that you know mine!
<3 Forever,


~Holly~
 
Random Update
In case you all needed one...?


Well okay, where to start.
It's about 11:26 in the evening, and I am just simply not tired. Not at all.
What do I want to do with my life? Write. I am just in one of those moods where I want to share what I am thinking in a pointless, essay.
I just want to tell people what is going on, without them actually reading it.
READ IF YOU DARE!
So basically, I am a senior in highschool now. Yes guys, junior year is tough but it is absolutely possible.
I survived!
Now that brings more responsibilities:
I have to learn to drive.
I have to get a job.
I have to pay for things.
I have to think about college.
I have to grow up.
I don't want to grow up.
What do I want to do with my life you may ask...
Well that's a very good question, and I wish I could answer that.
I have no plan.
I have no idea.
I don't know what I want.
I just do not know.
Help.
I will come back to this topic in a bit.
The next thing I want to mention is Riley.
He is my boyfriend for almost ten months now
(It will be official on Saturday)
And I just feel more and more pressure.
It was really fun at first, just hanging out
doing as we wished
and now there's just stuff to worry about.
Balancing time;
We want to be together, like hanging out with eachother, but there are things that need to be done.
I just find myself stressing, and worrying for approval.
I have a family.
I have friends.
I have to spend time with them.
I just saw my friends last weekend?
Why do I have to wait three months before you find it acceptable to see them again?
I sleep at my house everyday.
How does coming back at 10, and going to bed at 10:30 count as spending time with them?
I have to see them. I have to be with them.
I'm sorry my mom thinks that's what needs to happen and so do I.
I really do like Riley; I love him.
He is the greatest thing that has happened to me.
He takes such good care of me, and he loves me, and his family loves me too.
 I just feel the pressures of a relationship.
I'm going to have to talk about college and schooling at some point.
He never went to college.
He graduated and got right into the construction field.
He doesn't understand.
I have to find what is best for me...
maybe it will be the best for us, but probably not.
He and I have different thoughts on what the future will be like.
He wants it to be for us.
I have to find my path,
my place in the world.
I have to be happy with myself, before I can be happy with someone else
You know?
I can be very stubborn.
I stick to my beliefs.
It may seem otherwise, but trust me I will hit you with the truth when the time is right.
If I don't want to do something
there is one thing that happens:
I don't do it.
Easy as that.
I am not entirely sure where this little passage of mine is going, but you don't have to read it.
I just want to write.
That's all.
Just write.
I'm not sleepy or anything.
I just want to write.
About life,
about things,
about things that I just don't know.
I just want to figure things out on my own and with my mom.
I have to do it before I can sit down with Riley and talk to him about where the future will take us.
Do I want to be with him in the future?
Hell Yes!
I just have to do what is right for me first.
Is that wrong...?
Of course I want the best for the both of us,
of course I want both of us to be happy
together.
I just want it to be right.
I don't want to be full of complaints, and I don't want to be a bother.
All I want to do is freeze time, figure everything out, and then live my life on that path.
with the plan that I came up with.
And STICK WITH IT.
No changes.
No different arrangements.
That's it.
A life plan.
I want to know where I'm going,
how I'm getting there,
and who will be there with me.
How is everything going to play out?
I hate the world of the unknown.
Why can't I know?
Why is it a big secret?
WHY?
I just want to know.
I'm done.
You didn't have to read this.
But I thank you if you did!
Comment me, I'm willing to talk.
I want to know your thoughts too, now that you know mine!
<3 Forever,


~Holly~
 






LADIES, I PROMISE YOU
There is someone out there for everyone

You Can't Go out
and look...



HE WILL FIND YOU

Mine Found Me...♥



 



I Am So Excited To Say...
I Think It's My Turn To Be Happy

 
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If I could have one wish, it would be to know what you're thinking. I want to know how you feel. If I knew there was something, I know I could be more confident. And if I knew there was nothing, I would be free to move on and not be disappointed all the time. I should have learned by now the same thing happens each time...but you've really outdone yourself. You made it really convincing this time around.



Sil ly G irl Y ou Should Know
It happens every time...
( ( when will you finally learn? ) )

Your tired voice on the phone is
the most amazing thing I have ever heard.

 
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Bored so..
10 favorites

• Favorite Color: Grey
• Favorite Food: Mashed Potatoes
• Favorite Singer: Justin Timberlake <3
• Favorite Show: So You Think You Can Dance
• Favorite Sport: Football/ Lacrosse
• Favorite Season: Summer
• Favorite Day Of the Week: Saturday
• Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Vanilla
• Favorite Time of Day:
Nightime

9 currents
• Current Mood: Bored
• Current Taste: Frozen Razzberry Lemonade
• Current Clothes: Superman cut off and running shorts
• Current Computer: My mama's Gateway laptop
• Current Finger/Toenail Color: Finger: None at the moment Toes: Navy Blue
• Current Time: 3:22am.
• Current Surroundings: My bedroom.
• Current Annoyance(s): My house is so quite and there is nothing to do
• Current Thought: I wish he would text me....

8 Firsts
• First Best Friend: Liz
• First crush this school year: Well....uhm....Tony....Still crushing....I can't help it!
• First Screen Name: Dancechick11 (Don't Judge me)
• First Pet: My Puppy!
• First Piercing: Ears
• First Thing You Did Today: Well, I had to wake up right?
• First Thing You Ate Today: Strawberries
• First School:
Preschool

7 Lasts
• Last Food Consumption: M&M's
• Last Car Ride: Got home from the movies (Dispicable Me 2)
• Last Text Message: Josh~ "Haha ok thanks Holly catch ya round"
• Last Movie Seen: Dispicable Me 2
• Last Item Bought: Neon Orange Running Shorts
• Last CD Played: P!nk In my mama's car
• Last Website You Were On: Witty and Facebook

6 Have You Evers
• Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: Yepp
• Have You Ever Broken the Law: Nope
• Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope
• Have You Ever Been on TV: No...
•Have Ever Walked Into A Sliding Glass Door: Yeahhhhh
• Have You Ever Sat On The Roof: Of Course!

5 Places You've Been To
• 1. Ohio
• 2. New York (I live here)
• 3. Chataqua Lake
• 4. Rochester
• 5. Indianna

4 Things
• You're Wearing: Superman Shirt, Shorts, Sports bra
• You Did Last Night: Went to dinner and went shopping
• What Can You Hear Right Now: Bruno Mars's sexy voice
• You Can't Live Without: Music, Food, Dance,

3 People You Can Tell Anything To
• 1.Gabby
• 2 Ryan
• 3 Zabrina

2 Choices
• 1. black or white: Black
• 2.
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi

1 Love
• Him
 
 
 




Format by Breeze
The happiness of your life
depends on the quality of your thoughts.
I tell myself every year that maybe it will be different...
I say "This is going to be MY YEAR"
It's going to be awesome...




I haven't had "My Year" yet...