Do Not Read Me.
I would be a vent quote.
This is about someone's issues, and this writer has a few of
them, so I should warn you that reading this would be a waste of
time, so without further adeu it's time to begin.
There is a boy, and he has been a link to the chain of my life, I
was to believe that without him, my whole life would fall apart.
I couldn't stand not being with him. After a few falling
out's we finally started talking again. This story seems so
familiar because of how many times I have thought abou t it. We
were in advisement, and we were all sitting in a line like usual.
It wa sjust a regular day, except this time "Will you go out
with me" was written on the back of his homework. I was
flustered, I couldn't hurt my best friend by writing
"Yes" on that paper. My friend just told me the night
before how much he cared for me, he said everything he could to
try and win me over. . . it just didn't work, and I
couldn't stand to see him anymore broken. I wanted to
take it all back as soon as I realized what I had done.
Well by the end of the year, while I was still being miserable, I
found out that he wouldnbe getting homeschooled, and that I
wouldl not be seeing him for awhile. Summer was a rough time
because I just felt worse and worse about everything. School
finally came, and like I knew. . . He wasn't there. Although
he did visit twice, he is now moving to a whole nother state. I
definately will not be seeing him. I tried picturing myself
getting over him. I tried to see myself with another person. I
tried to see myself happy, even without seeing him. . . I just
couldn't do it.
After talking it out with a good friend of mine, I slowly
realized that If I thought about being happy, and I worked hard
to be happy. . . I could.
I thought about it, and I didn't think I could do it. I was
so upset at times, and I felt like I didn't have the
strength. I couldn't handle it. I started to notice another
guy a little more than usual. He is in a few of my classes, and
he is super funny. He is very down-to-earth too. We talk a
little bit, and I started to fall for him. . . I guess this is a
reality check on how stupid I am. I could never be good enough
for this guy. I'm super awkward, I'm completely
blonde (Personality and all), I'm not pretty, and I'm not
popular. It would never work. Becides there is only one person
who knows about the new crush, everyone else still thinks I'm
caught up on the first.
I'm Done. I Don't Know What I Am Supposed To Do. I Just
Want To Be Happy.
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