holymoly

Status: is pizza a carb
Joined: April 17, 2016
Last Seen: 4 years
user id: 396103
Location: rhode island







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Quotes by holymoly

Someone broke your heart and you decided to hide it. For months on end you didn't let a single person near you. You became cold, a hollow human. You let men touch your body but definitely not your heart or mind. The idea of being unloveable became so familiar to you and the idea of another person wanting to call you theirs became foreign to you. Validiation is what you longed for but confidence is what you needed. Their words aren't your value. If they think you're cute or skinny it means nothing. Self worth will get you through.Believe in yourself and your capabilities to love and be loved. Be the sunshine that's needed on a snowy day. Melt the snow and people will flock to you.


 

The first time you told me you loved me you were inbetween my thighs. You swore to me afterwards that you really did mean it. But, it didn't feel right. Did you love me, or did you love how I could make you feel?


 
The first time I told you I loved you I was drunk, slumped over in the bathroom. I swore to you afterwards that I really did mean it. But it didn't feel right. Did I love you, or did I love what you could do for me?

 
See, us humans are as selfish as they come. We carry the weight of our love at the expense of others. We aren't nice for the sake of kindness. We are nice because we believe it will get us rewarded some way or another. 



 

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH THE BAD THINGS. THERE IS PAIN IN THE SILENCE. THERE IS PAIN IN THE IGNORED CALLS AND TEXT MESSAGES. AM I THAT BAD? THE STILLNESS GIVES ME A HEADACHE. 


 

I WANT TO WATCH THE RAIN WITH YOU. THE WEATHER WILL BE A CONTRADICTION TO MY MOOD, BECAUSE WITH YOU ALL I WANT TO DO IS SMILE AND LAUGH.





 

AND THE RAIN CLOUDS WILL MEAN NOTHING BECAUSE YOU'RE MY SUN. BEING ABLE TO TOUCH THE LIGHT IS BEAUTIFUL AND STARING INTO THE SUN NO LONGER HURTS.



 

IT'S NOT MY FAULT IF YOU CARE ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE MORE. JUST LIKE IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. AND JUST LIKE IT IS NO ONE'S FAULT THAT THE SKY FADES TO BLACK.



 

I REMEMBER CRYING IN MY BEDROOM WHEN I WAS YOUNG. I WOULD SAY I WANT TO GO HOME. I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT IT MEANT THEN, BUT NOW I DO.



 

YOU'RE THE
ONLY LIGHT
I'VE EVER
KNOWN.



 

AND YOU SHOULDN'T LIKE THINGS BECAUSE PEOPLE TELL YOU YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO. 

I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE THE ONE TO CARE MORE, BUT IT WAS YOU. AND YOU CARED SO MUCH. I ALWAYS WONDERED WHY MY PLANTS DIED AND IT WAS BECAUSE THERE WAS NO SUNLIGHT. YOUR PLANTS DIED






 











BECAUSE YOU OVER-WATERED THEM. ARE SITUATIONS WERE SO DIFFERENT, YET THEY RESULTED IN THE SAME DEMISE. GIVE ME SOME OF YOUR LIGHT, I DON'T WANNA FEEL EMPTY. AND I'LL HOLD YOUR WATERING CAN.

 

I CRIED OVER A BOY ONCE. IT MADE ME FEEL STUPID, AND I'M NOT STUPID. I'M A SMART GIRL. I WON'T CRY OVER BOYS ANYMORE. HE DIDN'T DESERVE ANY OF MY EMOTIONS, NOT TEARS, AND ESPECIALLY NOT SMILES.