holymoly

Status: is pizza a carb
Joined: April 17, 2016
Last Seen: 4 years
user id: 396103
Location: rhode island







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Quotes by holymoly

I WAS A FOOL TO BELIEVE IN WISHING WELLS AND 11:11. I WAS WASTING MY TIMES THROWING IN DIMES AND NICKLES AND PENNIES. I WAS WASTING MY TIME BELIEVING I COULD WISH AWAY ANGUISH AND ANXIETY. IT'S CRAZY TO THINK THAT SPARE CHANGE COULD GIVE ME PEACE OF MIND. OR THE TIME A CLOCK READ COULD ALTER MY UNHAPPINESS. LUCK IS NOT REAL, IT IS JUST A COINCIDENCE. FEAR IS NOT REAL IT IS YOUR MIND'S CHOICE. STOP TRICKING YOURSELF. YOU CANNOT WISH AWAY TREPIDATION, BUT YOU CAN LEARN TO MANIPULATE YOUR MIND.

I FEEL LIKE I'LL ALWAYS BE THAT PERSON THAT NO ONE TRULY CARES ABOUT. LIKE YEAH, THEY'LL SAY I'M FUNNY OR SMART OR SOME OTHER NICE WORDS THAT DON'T REALLY DIVE INTO THE COMPLEXITY OF ALL OF IT. BUT, IF I CALL AT MY BREAKING POINT, NO ONE WILL ANSWER. THEY WON'T CHECK ON ME. THEY WON'T WASTE THE TIME. I HAVE TO WONDER, IS IT MY FAULT NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME? OR IS IT MY AGE OLD BATTLE WITH UNRATIONAL THOUGHTS AND QUAKING FEAR THAT LED ME TO THIS CONCLUSION?
 

I HAVE A OVERWHELMING FEELING OR REGRET. IT'S DUE TO THE REALIZATION THAT THE PEOPLE I AM FRIENDS WITH LACK SUBSTANCE AND THAT THE WAY I HAVE TREATED PEOPLE WAS PAINFUL. AND I KNOW IT WAS ALL MY FAULT. I HAD A CHOICE. I CHOSE TO BE FRIENDS WITH THESE PEOPLE AND I CHOSE TO BE A THORN. WHY COULDN'T I BE A ROSE? I DON'T WANT TO BE VAIN. I DON'T WANT TO BE NARCISSISTIC. I DON'T WANT TO BE LETHARGIC. I WANT TO OOZE PASSION, WITH EYES AS BRIGHT AS THE SUN. I WANT TO BE A LEADER. I WANT TO PHILOSOPHIZE. I WANT TO GAIN. I WANT MY THOUGHTS TO REACH MOUNTAINS.



 

 


 




 

CAUSE THERE'S STILL TOO LONG TO THE WEEKEND, TOO LONG TILL I DROWN IN YOUR HANDS, TOO LONG








 
SINCE I'VE BEEN A FOOL. LEAVE THIS BLUE NEIGHBORHOOD. I NEVER KNEW LOVING COULD HURT THIS GOOD.



 

 


 




 

AND AT THE END OF THE DAY, WHEN ALL THAT'S LEFT OF ME IS MY BARE SOUL, I NEED TO BE OKAY WITH




 





MYSELF. YOU WILL NEVER AGAIN GET A SAY IN MY EMOTIONS. I FEEL WHAT I WANT AND I WILL BE WHO I WANT.



 

 


 




 

NOT EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE. IF YOU HAVEN'T FIGURED THE ENDING OUT,




 

YOU'RE JUST GONNA GET SCREWED OVER,  AGAIN. AND YOU'LL BE THE STUPID ONE, AGAIN.


 




 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WORST ATTACHMENT OR DETACHMENT. DO I WANT TO BE NEEDY AND BOTHERSOME


 





OR COLD AND RIGID? SHOULD I NOT GIVE A F/CK OR GIVE ALL OF MY F/CKS? IT'S ALWAYS ALL OR NOTHING.


 
 
 
 

TO ME, THE MOST UPSETTING THING IS WHEN A PERSON DOES NOT KNOW THEIR SELF-WORTH. WHEN I SEE THAT GIRL WHO'S MIND IS LIKE A DIAMOND WITH A BOY WHO'S MIND IS LIKE A PIECE OF COAL, AND HIS ONLY AMBITION IS TO TOUCH NOT HER MIND, IT IS THE MOST UPSETTING THING IN THE WORLD. DO NOT SETTLE, EVER. IF YOUR FRIENDS TELL YOU HE'S A PIECE OF SH/T, THEY'RE PROBABLY RIGHT.

 
 
 

CONTROL IS EVERYTHING. YOU DON'T WANT TO BE KNOWN AS THE GIRL AT THE PARTY WHO DOWNED MORE SHOTS THAN SHE COULD TAKE. YOU DON'T WANT TO BE KNOWN AS THE GIRL WITH THE CAR CRASH EYES AND SIREN MOUTH. YOU WANT TO BE STRONG, DISTANT, IN CONTROL AT ALL TIMES. BE IN THE DRIVER'S SEAT, NOT THE PASSENGER'S.


 
 
 

I'M SORRY I WAS NEVER TRANSPARENT. I'M SORRY THAT MY LAUGH WASN'T LIKE AN EARTHQUAKE BUT MY TEARS WERE LIKE


 
 
 
A TSUNAMI.BEING COMFORTABLE ABOUT
YOURSELF IS HARD. BUT I SEE THAT BEING WITH ME WAS EVEN HARDER.