horsebackrider67

When you meet a guy on vacation and get close to him.
and then you remember he has a girlfriend and you aren't about a homewrecker. 
:(

No has to read this....I just needed to vent. 
My whole life I couldnt wait until college. But now that im a senior, i dont want highschool to end. These past years have been the best years of my life. My brother is leaving in August to college and its just so surreal. My childhood is ending, once my brother, my best friend leaves nothing will ever be the same. I have one more year with my friends before we all go off to college and go our own seperate ways. College is supposed to be the best years of your life, but sometimes i think id rather stay in highschol. College means growing up and finally taking life seriously. Ive always been one to joke around and laugh about everything in life. But the fact that I have to leave in a year makes me wanna cry. I dont want to leave the people Ive grown up, made memories with, and learned with. I dont want to leave them and go to college. I know Ill make more friends, but im worried they wont fill that gap i will have when i leave my childhood friends behind. This next year will go by so fast and Im going to try to cherish each and every moment. I cant imagine leaving highschool. Some people have a tough time there, some people dont. But my highschool experience has been great. I learned so many things, met so many people. I may have loved highschool but my freshman and half of sophomore year were tough. I was friends with the wrong group of people and it made my life a living hell. I cried...a lot.. but im a better person because of the tough time i went through. I realized that i need to be my own person and worry about myself and the people who are important to me. I realized that i needed new friends, and once i made them, my life turned around. I have the best friends ever and I dont know what i would do without them. Nicole,Erio,Hope,Molly,gel,Shivani, and Joey are the greatest group of friends a girl could ever ask for and when i leave for college i dont know what I am going to do without them. I know there will be summers and breaks but nothing will ever be the same. I guess i just wish for highschool to be endless. I want to be a kid forever. I dont think im ready to grow up. Everyone says that by the end of senior year you are ready ot leave, but i dont think i will be. I dont think ill be ready to leave ever. I love my family and friends wayyyyy to much to leave them, and dont even get me started about leaving my dog. Boomer, my yellow lab, is my other half. Ive raised him since he was 8 weeks. I cry when we have to leave for vacation. I cant imagine leaving him for months at a time. Im going to miss so much when I leave, and i dont know i just dont want to. Ugh okay i feel better now that i got all that off my chest.

For you I'd break these walls
I'd choose to fall
I'm going to cross that line for you