I'm Hattie, fifteen. <3 I’ve had many experiences in my life that I’m not too proud of. I've made mistakes. I've let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve. But I've learned from my bad choices even though there are some things I can never get back & people who will never be sorry. I've decided its time to live my life in the moment and not care what other people have to say about me. I'm finally done with all the drama and shit that I've taken over the years. I don't regret anything I've done in my life because at one point thats exactly what I wanted, and everything I've done in my past has gotten me where I am today. I wouldn't trade that for anything. I have a few good friends that mean the world to me, and I wouldn't trade them for anything. Sure, I'm not exactly where I want to be in my life, but for now I'm okay with that. I'm also never okay, but I've learned to live with that, so I guess you could say that I'm okay with not being okay. I know that I have an amazing life and I'm so lucky to have what I have, and I'm really happy about that. But its not always about what you have, sometimes its about how you feel. I'd rather be poor and living on the streets and happy. Then have millions of dollars and be unhappy. I have trust issues, I hate being skinny, I'm no where near perfect, I have my moments, sometimes even days, & thats all there really is about me.
I'm
tired of everyone yelling at me.
I want
someone
to actually ask me what's
wrong,
as if they really cared.
People are always asking me what I
want
and I'll always just want to
yell,
"To be happy."
I'm
feeling empty.
Incomplete.
Worthless.
I'm lacking
motivation,
but all I want
is to be successful.
Sometimes I become too
overwhelmed with my life,
I just want everything to pause
for a moment.
Everything is
just not the way
I want it to
be.
I want to escape.
Run away.
To be somewhere without
feeling like
a piece of me is missing.
Go ahead, text him
first,
he might be checking his phone, waiting for
you.
Stare into the eyes of the
person you like
and memorize the color.
turn on your ipod and run as far as you can.
Say hi to a stranger,
you never know what
they’ll become to you.
Have a mental health day
– you know you need
it.
Don’t go on facebook for
a day
and see what you can
accomplish.
Give money to a
charity,
your good karma will come around
eventually.
Sneak out, you might get
caught,
but it’ll be 100% worth
it.
Tell that one person that you
like them,
what’s the worst that can
happen?
he doesn’t like you
back?
Then he doesn’t deserve you anyways,
right?
Treat yourself to something
indulgent,
you deserve it.
Smile at a stranger,
it
could make their day.
Wink; it’s sexy and makes
you feel confident,
after all, you are pretty hot
;).
Go for somebody who is totally
wrong for you,
they may not be totally wrong after
all.
Stand up for yourself, because
if you don’t,
who will?
Moral of the story;
it’s
2011,
start living your dream life that you’ve always
wanted,
after all..
You only live
once.