if you really knew me..
you would know that my parents fight
alot & i always get pulled into the middle of the fights, and
my
dad yells at me for EVERYTHING i do. he makes me feel like im not
good enough & it hurts to know that what ever i do im going
to get introuble. he always starts fights with my mom so they
fight EVERY NIGHT & i hear yelling & i hate
it.
if you really knew me..
you would know that i hate
being home. i would rather be anywhere but
here. you would
know that i hate my dad. & that me & my brother try
not to be home to see my dad or hear our parents
fight.
if you really knew me..
you would know that i cant really
trust anyone anymore. & im afraid to trust people. you would
know that i forgive people to easily & i really
shouldnt give people as many second chances
like i do. you
would know that i sometimes i let people walk over me cause i
dont want them getting mad at me.
if you really knew me..
you would know that i cut myself
once because i had so much pressure on me & my mind was going
crazy & i had no idea what to do or how to let my anger
out.
if you really knew me..
you would know
that i feel like im loosing my best
friend to our new friend & i really dont want to lose
her because she is my best friend & i can tell her
stuff i cant tell my other friends.
&
if you really knew me..
you would know
that i just want everything to be normal
again & i just want to stop crying myself to sleep all the
time.