have you ever been in love?
horrible isn't it? it
makes you so vulnerable. it
opens your
chest and it opens up your heart and
it means that someone
can get inside you and mess you up.
you build up all these
defenses, you build up a
whole suit of armor, suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no
different from any other stupid
person, wanders into your
stupid life...you give them a piece of
you. they didn't ask
for
it. they did something dumb one day,
like smile at you,
and then your life isn't your own
anymore. love takes hostages.
it gets inside you. it eats you out and leaves you crying in the
darkness, so simple a phrase like
'maybe we should be just
friends'
turns into a glass splinter working its way into
your heart. it hurts.
not just in the imagination. not just
in the mind. It's a
soul-hurt,
a real g e t s - i n s i d e - y o u - a n d - r i p s - y o u - a p a r t pain