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chapter fifteen
The teacher didn’t really mind because we were only like 20 seconds late. We sat down and the

lesson started. I was told last week that we had a test so I studied and I was ready. “Sarah you

haven’t been here are you sure you’re ready?” said the teacher. “Yeah I studied.” I said. It was easy.

He passed out the tests. I looked at the first question but I couldn’t seem to get any of the answers

because I couldn’t get two things off my mind. Sean and Tyler. By the time the period had ended I

had written down random answers and the teacher collected everyone’s tests. The day surprisingly

went by quickly. Brielle ran up to me. “Hey I didn’t get to talk to you in class but you’re here!” she

hugged me. “I missed you!” she said. “I missed you too! Sleep over Friday ohmygod I have so much

to tell you it’s ridiculous.” I said. Our friends Kenzie, Erica, and Amy came up to us. “Hey guys! I

missed you Sarah!” They all hugged me at the same time. “Guys so Brielle’s sleeping over Friday

do you guys want to come?” I asked. “Yeah sure we’ll be there!” they left. “Uhm I gotta go I’ll call you

later.” She laughed and walked away. I suddenly realized why she did that. All of a sudden I felt two

arms grab my waist from behind. “Hey beautiful.” I heard a voice say. “Sean?” I asked. “Guess

again.” The voice said. “Tyler.” I said. I turned around and he kissed me. At first I was into it but then I

pulled away. “Tyler stop what if Sean sees us?” I said looking around. “Seriously that’s all you care

about?” he asked. I suddenly knew what he wanted, because I wanted to do the same thing. “Come

with me.” I said. I took him to my car and we drove to my house. “Okay, we have 2 hours before my

aunt and my brother get home.” I said. We walked up to my room.


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chapter fourteen
*One month later*
It’s been a month since my parents died. I guess I was over it. Although I would never really be over

it I was done feeling bad for myself and I was sick of everyone feeling sorry for me. I hadn’t seen

Sean or Tyler since the day I broke up with Sean and kissed Tyler. I’m pretty sure they have been

avoiding me actually. I got to school and Sean walked by me as usual. “Sean please talk to me.” He

walked right by.  Five minutes later Tyler walked by. “Tyler—“ I started to say. “What Sarah.” He said.

“I’m sorry.” I said. “What are you sorry for Sarah? Do you even know?” he demanded. “Uhh” I started

to think. “I’ll tell you. You played me and my brother you tried to put us against each other Sarah

that’s not right. I understand what you went through, well what you’re going through and I’m sorry but

what you did was wrong.” He said. “What? Tyler I swear that was not my intention and I’m sorry that

you guys thought that for so long but I’m serious I didn’t mean for things to be like this I hate you

guys hating me.” I said. “Sarah we don’t hate you that’s our problem.” He said. “what do you mean?”

I asked. “I-we love you.” He said. I was not expecting that. “I love you too.” I said. I loved him. I loved

them both. I turned around and saw that Sean was right behind me. “Sean.” I said. “Whatever Sarah

I’m over it.” he said. “Sean come on don’t be like that.” I said following him. He walked faster and I

couldn’t keep up. “Sean please, wait, I love you” I said. “You just told Tyler you loved him. You know

we both love you, I clearly know you love him. I’m not so sure you love me. If you really did you

wouldn’t have ever fallen for Tyler.” He said. “Sean, are you kidding? I cannot help who I fall in love

with. You know what else I can’t help?” I asked. “What is it Sarah?” he asked me sarcastically. “I

can’t help it if I never fell out of love with you. So please just stop doing this to me.” I said. “Doing

what?” he asked. “Acting like you don’t care about me.” I said. The bell rang and we were late for first

period.

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chapter thirteen
That was sweet. But I had to say it. “Sean, I don’t know if I can do this.” I said. “Do what, what are you

talking about?” He asked me. “I don’t know if I can be in a relationship I`m really sorry I`m just

freaking out right now and I don’t want to drag you into my mess. It`s just not fair to you and Tyler.” I

blurted out. Oh no why did I have to add Tyler. “Tyler? What does he have to do with any of this?” he

asked. “Oh uhm, nothing.” I said. I couldn’t tell Sean how I attracted to Tyler I was. “Alright whatever, I

think you should go home.” He said. “You`re kidding right? My parents just got murdered and you’re

mad at me because I broke up with you? Alright whatever I’ll go home. See you later.” I ran out of the

house slamming the door. I heard someone coming after me. “Sarah, come back!” I turned around,

it was Tyler. At least someone cared. “What?” I asked. “Sean just told me what happened. Why`d you

do it?” he asked. “My parents are dead.” I said. “No, I mean really why`d you do it?” he asked. He

knew, he knew I had feelings for him. “Um, it’s complicated.” I said. “I think I’d get it.” he said. I

kissed him. I don’t know why I did it but it felt so right even though it was so wrong. I didn’t want to

pull away but then my Aunt pulled up. “Sh*t I have to go, im sorry.” I wrote down my number and gave

it to him. I got in the car. “So, who’s that?” My aunt Stephanie said. “Tyler.” I said. “Oh I see. So how

have you been holding up kiddo?” she asked. “Eh, well you know, the same as you.” I said. “Yeah, I

know, it sucks.” She said. I skipped school the rest of the week. Friday Brielle came over. “Hey are

you okay?” she asked. “No I am not okay. My parents are dead.” I said. “I know I’m sorry.” She

hugged me and I started crying. Bri ended up spending the night and I just told her about my parents

the whole night.




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chapter twelve
“You`re next.” That was the text I got when I looked at my phone. I started crying again. “Hey, you

okay?” Tyler asked. “No I`m not okay. I don’t know what`s going on right now. My parents were

murdered and I`m next.” I said. “Wait, what?” he asked. “It turns out there was no car accident, my

parents were murdered and I just got a text saying that I`m next. They`re going to kill me Tyler.” I

said. “Sarah, I won`t let anyone kill you.” He said. “I need to find out who this is.” I said. “Hey, my

dad’s a cop, I bet he can figure out who`s phone the text came from.” He said. “Really, Can we go

now?” I asked. “Yeah sure.” He said. “I`m going to do some errands!” I yelled to my aunt and left the

house. We walked to his house and his dad was home. We told him everything and he took my

phone and came back an hour later. He wrote down the number the text came from. I looked at it.

“No, that`s impossible.” I said. “Why?” Tyler asked. “That`s my mother`s number.” I said. “That

means someone must have her phone.” Said Mark, Tyler and Sean`s dad. Why me? Why does

everything bad happen to me? I burst into tears. I couldn’t talk I was crying way too hard. Mark had to

go back to work so he left me and Tyler alone. I couldn’t even walk I was in shock. Tyler carried me

up to his bedroom and I fell asleep on his bed. I woke up to yelling. “Guys, stop, please.” I asked.

“Hey, Sarah, how are you doing?” Sean asked. “Why were you guys yelling?” I asked. “It`s nothing.”

He said. Tyler went downstairs. “Uhm, Sean, I don’t know if Tyler told you, but my parents were

murdered.”  I told him. “Yeah he told me everything Sarah I`m so sorry I should have stayed with you

today.” He said.



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chapter eleven
The next morning he woke me up. “Come on it`s time for school.” Sean said. “No. I`m not going.” I

said. “Alright, well I`ll come over after school.” He said. He went out the window. I fell back asleep

and an hour later my aunt came upstairs. “Sarah, it turns out your parents were not in a car accident.

They were murdered.” She said. “Are you serious?” I said in shock. “Unfortunately.” She answered.

She left the room and went downstairs. Someone knocked at my window. I expected it to be Sean. It

wasn`t “Tyler?” I asked. “Yeah, let me in.” he said. I opened the window, still crying and let him in.

“What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be at school?” I said. “Yeah you`re right, I probably should.

But I`m not.” He said. “Where`s Sean?” he asked. “School, and I think he has work after school.” I

said. “Oh, well are you okay?” he asked. “No, I`m not okay.” I said. I could tell he didn’t know what to

say. “But don’t worry about it.” I said. “Of course I`m worrying about it, I mean, come on, do you really

think that low of me?” he asked sounding hurt. “No of course I don’t, but you don’t really seem like

the type to…I don’t know, never mind.” I said. “To what Sarah, to feel? Yeah, I get that a lot.” He said.

“No, Tyler, that isn’t what I was going to say.” I lied. It was true. Tyler`s not really the type to care

about anyone but himself. His phone rang. “Oh sh*t.” he said. “Hello?” “Oh yeah, uhm sorry my

phone broke I just got a new one.” “Friday? Uhm I think I have work sorry.” “Alright, bye.” He hung up.

“you don’t have work Friday, do you?” I asked. “Nope.” He said. “Why`d you lie to her?” I asked.

“She`s too clingy.” He admitted. Woah, what an a**hole. I suddenly just realized how attracted to

Tyler I was.



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chapter ten
By the end of the day everyone had heard. Everyone was coming up to me and saying the same

thing. “Hey I`m so sorry, are you okay?” they all asked. My answer was always the same, “Yeah, I`ll

be fine. Thanks.” I probably said that about 72 times but I never meant it once. People didn’t really

care, they were just being nice, and after a month or so everyone will forget about my parent`s death

and move on to the next interesting thing. That’s how everyone is, no one actually cares about

anyone, everyone`s just nosy. I guess I couldn’t blame them. I mean, it`s not like anyone would ever

understand. I went to my locker, got my stuff and went home without talking to anyone. I was sick of

hearing the same questions over and over again from people I barely know. I mean, I barely know

Sean. Sean called me. “hello?” I answered. “Hey where`d you go after school?” he asked. “Home.” I

said. “Oh, true, hey I`m really sorry you know I`ll always be here for you, right?” he asked. “Yeah I

know.” I said. “Can you come over?” I asked. “Of course.” He said. Five minutes later he was at my

window. I opened the window and let him in. I tried to wipe away my tears before he saw them but

he saw. “Sarah, I am so sorry.” He held me. I started crying again. “Sarah, it`s gonna be okay, I

promise you, you`ll see them soon enough.” He picked me up and carried me to my bed, we laid

down and cuddled. “Sarah, I promise you, you don’t have to go through this alone. I will always be

here for you to talk to.” He said. “Thank you, it means a lot.” I said. I fell asleep and so did he.



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chapter nine
They`re dead, my parents are dead. No I don’t believe it. I picked up the phone and called them,

again and again until I fell asleep crying. I woke up the next morning hoping that what I found out

yesterday was just a bad dream, and I would wake up and carry on with my regular life. My parents

weren’t having a funeral or a wake because they didn’t have many friends since we were always

moving. So I had to go to school. I ate breakfast and my aunt drove me to school, we were both

crying. I sat in the car when I got there drying my tears but it didn’t help because anyone would be

able to tell that I had been crying. I finally worked up the courage and got out of the car. Everyone

asked me why I had been crying but I didn’t answer anyone I just walked right to my locker. I saw

Tyler, he came towards me. “Hey Sarah, what’s wrong?” I didn’t say anything I just stood there. Sean

walked towards us. “What happened? Tyler what the f*ck did you do?!” Sean said. “They`re dead.” I

said. “What?” they both asked. “They`re dead.” I repeated. “Who`s dead?” Tyler asked. “My parents,

they`re dead.” I said. “Sarah I`m so sorry, I don’t know what to say, if there`s anything you need I`m

here.” Tyler said. Sean said nothing he just held me in his arms. I started crying again. I got my stuff

and went to class. I had no classes with Tyler. I sat down in my seat next to Brielle. “Sarah, what`s

wrong?” she asked. “My parents died in a car accident.” I said. “Oh my god Sarah I am so sorry.” She

said hugging me. “Can we save this for later?” the teacher said. “Well excuse me if my parent`s

death is an inconvenience for you.” I yelled and ran out of class. I went into the bathroom. I sat there

and cried until the bell rang. I picked up my stuff and went to my next class. The day dragged on

slowly and I could never finish any of my classes that day.










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chapter eight
When we got to the beach we found a spot and sat down. We were at the beach until about 3 then

we walked back to Sean’s house. We walked in and Tyler was sitting there with some girl. “Hey

guys” he said. Sean and I sat down on the other couch and started watching TV. The entire time

Tyler was making out with that girl. Every time I looked I was more and more attracted to Tyler.

Sean’s so sweet, and hot, but Tyler’s sexy. This can`t be happening. I have feelings for both of them.

This is not going to turn out well, these kinds of things never do. The girl Tyler was making out with

finally left. “Hey I`ll be right back I gotta go pick something up from the store, stay here okay?” Sean

said. “Yeah sure.” I said. Sean left. “And then there were two..” Tyler said. “Yeah, wait, was that your

girlfriend?” I asked. “No.” he answered. “What was she then, a bootycall or something?” I joked.

“Yup something like that.” He said. “You`re disgusting.” I threw a pillow at him. “Eh it’s okay I’ve been

called worse.” He replied. “Yeah I bet.” I said. Sean came back 5 minutes later with something

behind his back. “For you.” He said taking flowers out from behind his back. “Aw thank you, that`s so

sweet!” I said. Tyler rolled his eyes and went upstairs. I kissed Sean. I looked at the clock at it was 7.

“Hey I gotta go but thank you so much!” I said. “You`re welcome” he said kissing me. I walked home.

When I got home my aunt, Stephanie, and Aaron were sitting on the couch. Both were crying. “Uh,

what happened?” I asked. “Your parents were in a car crash.” Stephanie said. “What?!” I yelled. I

burst into tears. This can’t be happening. Today was perfect now it was ruined. “Are they okay?” I

asked. “Sarah, they died.” Aaron said. 


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