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Lake waves
Chapter 33 (The Final Chapter)
January 7th 2014
"Do you take Nicole to be your lawfull wedded wife?" 
"I do." Michael says squezzing my hand a little tighter. 
"And do you take Michael to be your lafully wedded husband?" 
"I do." i say with a smile from ear to ear. 
"You may kiss the bride" 
Michael pulled me closer with one hand on my neck and one on my waist...And right there my heart stopped. I closed my eyes and left our lips meet. 
And from there our forever started.

-4 years later-
"Mike help me with this box!" I yell from the bedroom. "Shhh, its okay.." i whisper into Michaels ear.
"Haha so you think you can have Michael on your hip and put this box away?" he says grabbing the box out of my arm. I smile, looking into baby Michaels eyes. They were the deep blue that his father suported, i kissed the top of his head and sat on the rocking chair next to the crib. 
"Can you believe it?" "I know." i say as i look up into Mikes eyes. "We did it." kiss both Michael and I on our head. He took Michael and laied him in his arms. 
I sat there watching him, he held our son in his arms.. I couldnt even beileve it at age 24 i sat there and watching my husband hold our first child. I had waited for this for 10 years.. my life really start with the love of my life.. i married my highschool sweet-heart. 
Things were perfect, Michael had loving parents and grandparents, i married the love of my life, i furfilled my dream of becoming an art teacher, and what was better than having my husband teach in the same school as me as an English teacher. Life couldnt have been better. 


I grew old with Michael. We watched our 3 kids, Michael Robert the second, go off into college before we knew it Savannah was in her senior year. And Brennan our youngest was in his freshamn year of high school. Before we knew it, our kids were married and had familes of their own... 
I fell even more in love with Michael, not knowning it was even possible. I spent every waking minute with him. 
It was crazy to think i met my soul mate in 8th grade..
Now this story doesnt have a happily ever after cause love isnt ever ending. We spent our last brethes together. 
We were burried in the cementary next to the lake house...and the sounds of the lake waves carried us off. 

The End
xoxo

Lake waves
Chapter 32
I couldnt believe what had just happend...one moment he had me beliving that he was dead, and now, im engaged to the guy! I was happy to see he was okay, well from the looks of it he did. "I got us a hotel room for the night." he whispered in my ear. After everyone left we took my car to a local Hilton. We finally were in our room around 1am... Michael went to sit down and i noticed something different about him.. "Michael, youre okay, right?" "Nicole, remember when you told me no matter what? Forever?:" "Yeah, ofcorse!" He lifted up his right pant leg to reveal a prosthetic leg from the knee down. My mouth dropped open. "Oh my gosh." i stand there in complete shock. "Baby, im still the same person-" I interrupt him by kissing him. "It doesnt change anything" I smile as i pull away. A huge smile filled his face. I missed that smile more than anything. And to hear his voice again was so amazing. "You promise you dont care?" he asks holding my hand. "Michael i could care less. Your amazing to me, with or withouth the prosthetic leg. It doesnt change a thing. Michael i love you for you are..and it shows just how brave my marine is" i say smiling. "My god did i miss you." he says looking straight into my eyes. "God did i miss thoes eyes." I say under my breath. I couldnt even begen to think what i would have done without him, if i really did lose him. 
"Can you believe it?" he asks laying back. "Believe what?" "Nicole its happening, what we've wanted to do since freshman year. Im marrying you." I smile at him. I couldnt wait to actually start a life with him. It was what i had been dreaming of forever it seemed like. "Babe, this really is the start to our forever." i say grabbing his hand and turning to face him. "I cant wait..." he says smiling. "Well we dont have to much longer." 
After we talked for a while we kissed a few long awaited kisses..it was a perfect night, i had been waiting to be with him which felt like a lifetime. 
I woke up around noon. I shifted in his big arms to kiss his cheeck. His eyes opened just a little, and then he grinned. "Goodmorning beautiful" he said rolling on top of me and kissing me. "Haha, good morning big guy" i say giggling. "Im crushing you, arent i?" "Not really.." i say behind a little lie smiling. "Babe your like 100 pounds, im twice your weight." 
We got ready and spent the whole day with eachother. 
Just how the rest of our days would be spent; together. 
Our forever really did start. 

Lake waves
Chapter 31
I held the dog tags in my hand so tight...too tight. I didnt even believe it...he was gone. I didnt want to go on without him. I just wished i could have herd his voice one last time..I missed the way his scruff rubbed up against my cheeck when he held me in his arms. I missed the way my head laied on his chest, and i could count his heart beats when i hugged him. I missed the way a kiss felt. I missed the way id run up and just jump on him. There would be none of that anymore, nothing. 
My heart was broken. Our promises; broken. I wouldnt walk down the isle to his hands to recvice his last name. I would never have a happy family with him... I wanted to know if he was in pain the entire month he as missing. He was sopsed to be back Next July. But he wasnt coming back, ever. I couldnt even breathe. I was screaming on the inside. 
Heven gained another angel...my angel. Michael was my gaurdian angel now... i knew that he'd watch over me..i wish i could just hear him say he loved me one more time. There was another knock at my dorm. I knew Tyler had must just found out... i finally got up...i walked to the door.
"Hi" 
My heart stopped i ran into the arms that i missed being around me for the past year, and i kissed the lips i had longing for. "Oh my god!!" I say with my legs wrapped around his waist and my hands on his neck. I looked around the corner to see his family and mine, and Alex. "I've missed you so much. I love you, im not leaving again. Promise." "Please dont." i say kissing him again. Next thing i knew, he took my hand and bent to one knee. 
"Nicole, will you marry me?" he pulls out a ring. 
"Yes!" he puts in the ring onto my left ring finger. 
He kept his promise. And i got my baby back, finally. 

last chapter will probably be out tonight or tomorrow. 






Resin paradise Maddie
 
This song was made for a good friend of mine who took her life last month on October 28th. We all miss you. Heven gained another angel that night.
I miss you.
please no rude comments.check out the beautiful song written and proformed by Candace Sosa 

http://www.candacesosamusic.com/fr_home.cfm
(the songs called Madelyn)
rest.in.paradise.beautiful.


 

 

Lake waves
Chapter 30
Tyler left around 9. I walked to my closent and pulled a pink box down from the top shelf. I open the lock on the box. I hadnt opened the box since my senior year. I first pulled out a orange envalope. I found some of my favorite pictures of michael and i. The frist 4 were our homecomings through out all of high school. But the one that really made me shed a tear was a picture he must of added to my box. It was a picture of the first day up at the lake house. We looked so happy, i turned the picture around, "I love you baby, forever and always. 8.10.12" my eyes began to water. I pulled out all of the notes he had ever given me. I counted 12. Michael wasnt much of a note kind of guy, but when he gave them to me i knew they were spechial. I read one at least 9 times each. I came across a box of all the tickets to the dances and events we had been to. 16 dance tickets. 6 concert tickets. 3 plane tickets; Miami, Phoenix Arizona, and New York. I put the box back up on my shelf. But when i went to put it back there was something taped to the bottom of it. It was USB drive.. i took it off and plugged it into my laptop. It was the most beautfiul thing i had ever seen. "Hi baby, i know i couldnt be there with you for our five years..and im so sorry. Im probably missing you right now. So heres a little something i put together for you. I love you babe." He had put together a bunch of pictures and videos of us..it was the best gift i had ever gotten. 
After it was over i looked at my hand, the promise he had given me still there on my right hand. 
"I miss you, come home soon. Please be okay baby. I love you" i said looking at our prom picture. 
There was a knock on the door, i had no idea who could be here at 11 o'clock. I opened the door to a complete stanger...
"Uh, can i help you?" I ask a tall man with a buzzed head with a few scars on his face. He was a good looking guy, but i had never seen him a day in my life beofre. "Are you Nicole?" "Yea? Who are you?" "My name is Alex..Michael wanted me to give these to you..." He handed me two dog tags... "No..." i whisper under my breath. "Im so sorry..." "No...not...why?" "im so sorry, he really loved you miss." I closed the door and ran to my bed... i had never felt so much pain in my life. I had no idea this kind of pain exsisted... i couldnt feel my heart beat, and the tears seemed never ending.

Lake waves
Chapter 29
"Tyler...is it only you that came?" I ask pulling away from him. "Yeah, i just know that you're taking this just as hard as i am.. and i know you'd be here for me...and i want you to know that im here for you too." "Thank you." i say smiling up at him. I remeber when Tyler was shorter than me, and now when i look at him I see someone so much more mature then when i first them him. Tyler looked alot like Michael the only difference was the face was more sqaure than Mike's, and Tyler was atleast 7 inches shorter than Michael. Tyler was 5'9 Michael was 6'4. "Ty, do you think that he's still out there?" "Michaels a fighter, i know he'll do whatever he can to come back home." "I just hope hes okay..and if he does come home he comes home in one peice." I pull my desk chair out for Tyler to sit on, as i walk to my bed and sit. I look over at the picture on my nightstand. "Is that your senior Homecoming?" He asks. "Yeah, you and Anna are in it!" I say handing him the picture. "Oh gosh, i remeber this! That was such a great night! I cant wait to go this year" "Are you taking Anna?" "Yeah! I really like her...she means the world to me." "Good, im happy for you you too!" "Itll be a year next Thusday," he says handing me picture, "I cant belive its been that long." He says smiling. "It goes by fast...it'll be 5 years in 4 weeks." I say looking at my lock screen on my phone. I couldnt believe he'd been gone for almost a year already. And now the news of him missing, makes me question my future. There will be no perfect wedding that we had been planning since our freshamn year. Or the 3 beautiful children we'd always wanted. There would be nothing except the pain i'd have to live with until my last breath. "Nicole, i know he's thinking about you right now. You're his entire world. I remeber when he was in his sophmore year and he told Nic about how he couldnt even go a day without talking to you," he stopped and began to giggle, "she said that you two would be together until you die. And i know Michael wouldnt let anything sand in his way of getting back to his future wife." "Ty, i love you. Thank you" i say wipping a small tear from my cheeck. He came over and put his arm around me. "It'll be okay. He'll be home soon." 

I'll probably type another tonight
xxooxx 

Please Zez
1
So much blood, pain and tears. She just sat there...lifeless..hopeless... and unwanted. She watched the lights slowly begen to fade and the room around her become smaller and smalled by each inch. Her voice yelled as loud as it would let her. She felt so helpless watch the blood pour out of the slits that she thought would take away the pain. She thought of how badly she wished she hadnt done this to herself, she looked at the ribs sticking out of her motionless body.. How did i let it get this far? "Help," she cried. Her tears fell so fast down her cheecks. She wished she just had someone, anyone. "Please..I jus- Please" she felt her body become so weak. The sound of the door opening from downstairs, "Zez? Zez.." "Dan-Dani!" she tries to yell. "Babe.. where are you.?" "Please...Hel-Dani" she stutters trying to be as loud as she can. She looks down at the puddle of blood she lies in. All the pain filled blood, the worried filled blood, the regretful blood. She tries to hold on, but she cant much longer she knows that this is it. "Dani, pleas-" she crys. "Zez!" he said swinning open her bedroom door, "Dani, the bathro- im in the-" she tries to speak. He opens the bathroom door, startteled from the sence. There lied the love of his life in a pool of dark red pain, with nothing on but shorts and a sports bra, looking at the gashes slashed into her stomach. Her hair crusted with the blood flooding out of her head, she body lays there motionless, you would never know she was alive except for the untimely breathing. "No Zez." he runs to her side and slams his knees into her blood. "Dani, 911" He dials the number, he wasnt sure the 15 minutes would be long enough for Zez to hold on any longer. "Im sorry, please hold on Zez, please. Baby i love you, just stay here, please...try." "D-Dani..Im sa-sorry" she tries to pull her hand off of her stomach, he picks it up and holds it... Zez closed her eyes... Dani thought itd be the last time he'd ever see her blue eyes ever again. 

Dani staied with her from the moment they put her on the gerni to the moment she opened her eyes again...41 days after.
"Tell me she'll be okay." Dani said to the doctor as he walked over to him in the waiting room. He sat across from Dani and just looked at him. "Whitnee is in a coma" he broke the news to him "Her name is Zez," "Dani i dont think you understand the state shes in right now...Shes been slowly killing herself for probably about the past 5 months... shes underweight, Whitnee is soposed to be atleast 150 pounds shes  83 pounds Dani." "No, No! Your not going to take my Zez away from me! No!" he screams. "Would you like to see her?" "No... its just gunna hurt," "Dani, it'll be okay." he turns around to find Ryan his bestfriend. "Ryan...?" "She'll be okay bud. Lets go see her. Im here." The doctor led them into what seemed like a never ending white walled maze. They walked into a room to see Zez so helpless. 
please Zez.


nmf
 

Michael
For You
Some poeple find there soul mate when their 5,10,16,30,or like me..14. People may think im absolutly crazy when i tell them that im in love. But when im with you...i dont care what people think about me or about us. Because im so in love with you....loving you isnt easy. No one ever said it would be but...its all worth it. The way you hold my waist while you kiss me and the way you make me smile..or how about the way you hold my hand..I feel like nothing or no one can bother me while im with you. Youve given me 1,000 reasons to wake up and be happy every morning, youve showed me the great side of love, youve given me hope...and youve mad me a better person. Michael your are the single best thing in my life right now. When i look at us, i see two teens who are absolutly crazy about each other..two people who really care about each other. Michael the times with you have really been the best in my life. You give me everything i could ever ask for. You give me a shoulder to lean on, a heart to make me whole, youve showed me to love myself and to be confident. Youve given me some amazing times, and some great memories..but most imporantly youve given me a best-friend. Youve showed me how lucky i am to have a soul mate, a boyfriend, and a best-friend..like you. Some people are so lucky to be able to marry those kind of people. And i couldnt tell you how lucky id be if i got to do the same. Ive learned to do more than to just trust someone, ive learned to love someone. I dont think i could possibly think of anyone id want to spend the rest of my life with but you.
Michael youve showed me the most beautiful things in love, and youve also showed me what its like to hurt from it too..but youve taught me what comes from the hurt and thats becoming stronger. All i know is that i love you and i want to spend the rest of my life with you. Its so hard to look so far ahead but i know if you love me as much as you say you do, then anyhting we want to happen is possible.
My dream is to just end up happy with you.
"Thats when our forever will start"
Forever and always Michael.
Thats a promise.
I love you.
1/7/12 


nmf
 

Lake waves
Chapter 28
"Are you sure you dont want me to stay?" Troy asked looking at me worried. "Yes, im just..Troy im scared." i said walking over to my bed, and sitting down on the big comfy matress. "Nic, he's tough. Hes gunna come back to you! I know Michael too well, he wont just give up, espchially when hes got something to come home to...and that something is you." "Troy i wont be able to..fu-function" i stutter. "He is my everything, he is the reason i am here...i want him to be proud of me for being strong and going through with my dream..he promised." i say holding out my right hand to reveal the promse he placed on my finger...the ring. "Oh Nicole," he said lifting me up and pulling me into his arms. "He'll keep that promise. What did he promise you when you two were 14...?" "He promised forever," "Forever isnt over yet." he wiped a tear strolling down my face. "I just want him. Now, and for the rest of my life." I rested my head on his chest the way i used to, to Michael. I missed the way my head was right at his heart, i missed the way i would lay on him at night and just talk for hours and hours. I missed his kisses, and his hugs, and our movie nights. But most of all..i missed..him.
When Troy left i locked the door and walked to my laptop. I opened my favorite playlist i made on my iTunes account. From there i went to Word, and just sat there and stared at the blank whiteness..for hours..and hours. 
2 A.M. rolled around, i couldnt cry any longer, i picked up my phone and dialed a number i had been dialing for a long long time..."Hi, this is Michael, im sorry i couldnt answer your call. Leave a message." At the sound of the voice the tears were back.. "Hi baby...i knew you caouldnt of answered.. i think im going crazy..because i dont know if your okay, or where your at.. or if you still breathing... I miss you. Please....pl-" the phone call ended. I grabbed my coat and wondered outside to take a walk. i waked to the campus park, i sat on the nearest bench.. I called my mom. 
"Hi honey! Oh Nic i mis-" "Mom...hes gone" "What do you mean," "Missing." from there i cried for two hours on the phone with my mom, she told me about how she had wedding plans for us, it was going to my birthday surprise from her and Michael.. he planned to get married at the place i said i wanted to when i was just 16.. I finally made my way back to my dorm and tried to sleep. 

I woke up at 1 the next day... i missed my classes, 4 of them. i didnt make it to the rest of them all day. I watched tv for a while not even bothing to check my phone... I left it where it was all day. I found myself eating Michaels favorite foods, which was pretty much everything in the house at the time...next thing i herd was the sound of someone knocking at my door. I walked over and opened it with no hesitation. "Nicole," I hadnt herd a voice like this in a while. I moved in for a hug, a long awaited one..."Tyler.." Michaels brother held me in his arms and just cried. 

new chapter soon.