iloveyou731

Status: I just don't think I can do this any more. I know I'm not capable enough and I'm so sorry.
Joined: November 19, 2011
Last Seen: 8 years
user id: 240217
Location: Ireland
Gender: F

Lydia Farrell

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I would be Lydia asdfghjkl no sh*t. Im a teenager, and i live on the laptop..at least im not out doing drugs and getting pregnant, no because im a good child..lol

(+) Nutella, family, friends, chocolate fudge cake, pasta, My horses, bacon, Youtube, Tumblr, Witty, people that are nice, Him.. i also really like chicken.

(-) No Nutella left, Fake bitches, Guys that have bipolar attitudes, Girls that think they can walk all over you because they're pretty.


 
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Quotes by iloveyou731





Only 15
It's amazing how you know what love feels like,
how you can only imagine yourself with that one person, how you've felt so many different types of pain that it's just a numbness now, how you've fallen out with more friends that mean the world to you than you can count, how you can develop a friendship with someone you've never even met, how you can be so attached to someone to the extent that  you feel you can't breathe without their presence, how you feel so ugly and that you'll never be good enough, how you can sit there and feel so worthless about yourself almost knowing that you'll never make something of yourself, how you know what it feels like to lose someone that meant more to you than your own existance, how your parents will never notice all of this happening to you, and you're only 15.




Only 15
It's amazing how you know what love feels like,
how you can only imagine yourself with that one person, how you've felt so many different types of pain that it's just a numbness now, how you've fallen out with more friends that mean the world to you than you can count, how you can develop a friendship with someone you've never even met, how you can be so attached to someone to the extent that  you feel you can't breathe without their presence, how you feel so ugly and that you'll never be good enough, how you can sit there and feel so worthless about yourself almost knowing that you'll never make something of yourself, how you know what it feels like to lose someone that meant more to you than your own existance, how your parents will never notice all of this happening to you, and you're only 15.


It's all more serious now.
 
                                               This is basically our last conversation.

Him: Lydia why won't you kiss me?
Me: I dont know.
Him: There must be a reason!
Me: i dont want things to get weird between us.
Him: I promise it won't.
Me: I just can't.
Him: I don't understand.
~
Him: why did you not just take that lift?
Me: I dont know, i should have though.
Him: Then i wouldn't have been able to ask you to kiss me.
Me: what?
Him: i asked you to kiss me.
Me: i know.
Him: And you said no..




I dont know what im doing ugh








































































































read it if you wanna


















if you dont..idgaf 







bye

 

"I'm serious this time."
You really don't understand the effect you have on me.

If there is one thing I hate 

it's when I'm 
Feeling lonely and i look to you, 
But you just stare and look away like it's nothing.
 





where does it say in the Bible
that Adam and Eve were white?



My whole life
 
                                               ive thought that life itself was going to be a breeze, i thought that i would be finished school in a flash, i thought that everything would be so easy, i thought id have boyfriends, and then get married and live happily ever after, like in all the fairy tales.

But then reality set in, I just about  made it through primary school, then came high school, on my first year i managed to find at least 3 good friends, i thought it was easy, second year dragged through after that, then third and fourth year, it felt like forever, now im sitting here in my fith year of high school, with hardly anyone to even think of classing as a friend, never mind a 'best' friend

"we will be friends forever!" BULLSH*T.

they'll stab you in the back and they'll use you, they'll talk about you and treat you like a piece of sh*t.

you know? i always thought that id do something with myself, but guess what, i give up. i dont want to be anything, as much as id love to save millions, i just want to travel i want to leave here, i want to find someone and i want to run away with them. i just want all of this to stop, i want everyone to stop going on and on and on about how important school is, i know its the most important thing ever...but i just want it all to go away.

"with an attitude like that your not going to go far in life"

i dont want to get qualifications, i dont want to be stuck in a dead end job, where im depressed out of my mind 24/7 .. i want to be happy, with or without money, this whole f*cking quote makes no sense and i dont care, f*cking yolo i hate school and every single worthless person in it. i wont know any of them in 10 years i wont even remember their names. so why am i getting so caught up with all of this? why does every little detail of life p*ss me off all the time? why cant i just be left alone, why cant everything just be free? why do i need a job? why do i need to be successful, its not like anyone actually cares. im stupid and that will never change.







































































































read it if you wanna


















if you dont..idgaf 







bye

 



So my first kiss?
                                               Not what i expected, didnt feel a thing, dont feel different like i thought i would, actually i kind of regret the whole thing, mind you i was kinda forced -_-



I don't hate people,
                                               I just really f*cking hate you.