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28 day challenge
day 1- 15 facts about you
1) Im insecure
2) I cut myself once ..
3) me and my other half barley talk anymore
4) i like my ex. but he loves my best friend
5) sometimes I feel like I have no one but myself
6) i love singing - it gets me though everything
7) my mom and I never get along
8) I have hypoglycemia, scoliosis and high cholesterol
9) I honestly think Im fat
10) I adore my dog his name is Romey(:
11) I keep going back to this guy that always hurts me no matter what
12) The "popular" girls hate me and im afraid of them
13) im currently text 5 people .
14) i never think im good enough
15) i hate my life sometimes.

day 2- the initials of the person you loved for the longest.
EGA


day 3- your 3 closest friends
Heather, Alliiee nd Andrew

day 4- the thing you most fear
Death

day 5- the saddest moment in your life
R.I.P grandma 3.17.2001

day 6- favorite sport(s)
swimming nd traack

day 7- favorite song
Who Says - Selena Gomez

day 8- you deepest secret
I think i have depression ...

day 9- first impression on the guy you like now
hes friggen HOT - omg hes a football player too <3 - wait that means hes brain dead ... ): (hes actually in all honors xD)

day 10- last time you cried
my dog bit me .

day 11- thing closest to your heart
family

day 12- when you hear this song you cry
Never Grow Up

day 13- place wanna visit really badly
Tennessee

day 14- favorite book
Vampire Academy nd The Reckoning

day 15- favorite animal
polar bear

day 16- favorite show
Pretty Little Liars

day 17- last time someone hurt you
Ummm .. Almost everyday.

day 18- the story behind your life
Life Sucks then you Die

day 19- person who scares you the most everyday
its not a person - its rejection

day 20- last major injury
breakage of the ankle xD

day 21- favorite youtube video
Butterflies - Alana Lee

day 22- phone type
Rival

day 23- biggest confession
I love you _*♥

day 24- last break up
November 12th 2O11

day 25- last heart break
November 4th 2O11

day 26- the day you regret the most
Im not suree

day 27- first friend
Maile (:

day 28- favorite drink
Sprite ♥
 
True life (two) ( ......................rtfyrty..1
It was now December 5th 2010. I sat cross legged on my bed, my laptop in front of me, I hadn't cried all morning, although Skylar was standing by in case I decided to. My phone was on the room on the other side of the room because Nathan kept trying to talk to me, but I didn't have to turn it off because Skylar had fun yelling at him. There was a slight vibration before Skylar threw it at me. It was Jamie and Maggie. "Addison, I have to tell you something that I think you should know" Maggie said. "Yeah?" Trying to sound as normal as humanly possible. "Nathan broke up with you because, because he kissed Kaylee." I sat there shaking. I felt tears forming in my eyes. Skylar looked back a me. She ran to my side. "Thanks Maggie." I said, my voice shaking. I hung up. "He-he ch-cheated on me." I stuttered through the sentence that made me curl up into a ball and cry. I couldn't believe it. I honesty couldn't. Kaylee was my best friend since Kindergarten. She couldn't have done it.  I thought. But then I realized all that time at the library they spent together when I left. They were always texting, always talking. I wondered how I could be so stupid. I got into a fight that night. Both of them, now my enemy. I had never been friends with Nathan. We met the 10th of November, and then the next day he asked me out. I never thought we would break up. Not that soon.
True life. (one) ......................rtfyrty..1
Lets start on December 4th 2010. The day my life began to shatter before me. This day wasn't too important to me. Until now. It was however important to my other half, Skylar. I was her and her boyfriend, William's one month. I never liked William, he made fun of everyone and always thought he was the best thing to ever walk to Earth. But she liked him, and I was always grateful for that, he made her happier then anyone else, besides Dominic but that's a different story. They couldn't spend their one month together because her parents took her to New York, and he was locked in his room playing Black Opps with his phone off. But for me the day was even worse then that. I was going out with Nathan, it would be one month in one week, I was so excited. I honestly thought I loved him. He would kiss me all the time, he was actually my first kiss, yes 14 years old and just a few weeks ago having my first kiss, go ahead make fun of me. But I've had other boyfriends, I just never felt as comfortable with them as I did with Nathan. We hung out almost every day and when I couldn't go out he would come to my house and stay with me there. Everything seemed perfect but then his friend Julie called me, and she said "Addy, I'm sorry but Nathan only wants to be friends." I said okay, changed my Facebook status to single, and started crying. I'm probably the most emotionally stable person in the world, but for the first time in a year I started balling my eyes out, and I couldn't stop. He dumped me. It all seemed so perfect, of course we had a little fight but nothing major and when I said I was sorry and was being stupid he said "Its fine babe, I would have acted the same way if someone was flirting with you." and so that was over. All I needed was Skylar, so as soon as she got home from New York she was at my house with her cloths, a bucket of ice cream, and Raise Your Voice, my favorite movie. She never saw me so upset.ss 
I m t r y i n g t o b e t h e g o o d f r i e n d
im trying to pretend like i haven't broke. im trying to be....
happy for my best friend and my ex. im trying to move on
im trying not to let tears stain my face. im trying not to....
think of him. im trying to stay sane. im trying to stay away
from their relationship. im trying to laugh it off. im trying to
stay beautiful. im trying not to let the makeup run. im trying
to make them all think im over you when im really not.

j u s t l e t m e f o r g e t t h e m e m o r i e s



venting.
Heather I still love yhu; kay?

 My best friends told my boyfriend
"You break her heart, I break your face"
He dumped me on Saturday,
Monday morning he was being pinned against the wall
and she almost punched him across the face.
If I didn't get her off then
his face would be broken
She doesn't lie.

truee storyy(:
I love my bestfrein
 
Make A Wish!
By, CRHodges - Chapter seven
Deticated to Katie becasue I'm the worst friend to ever walk to earth
BTW: I'm sorrry this took soooooo long. 
 
 
"Can I come over?" I could breath again.
"Why? Eurnie 'nd Burt aren't home?" Eunise and Roberta
"Nope, only me, Bella and the nanny"
"Then yeah, Jade is making me a chocolate shake as we speak. I'll have her make you one." 
"That would be perfect. We should watch a movie."
"What else would we do, its FRIDAY!"He chucked then knocked on my door about 10 minutes later. We laid on my bed looking through some old photo albums of us when we we're little kids. I saw the first picture ever of us. I was about a month old and I was being help by Eli. He was one. He was smiling because he thought I was a doll. I thought back to when I was six. I would wake up in the middle of the night crying hysterically. He'd know because he would be able to hear my cries and random screeches throughout the night. We had a bridge connecting or windows back then, but after we both went threw puberty and realized that I could get pregnant they took it down. He would climb the bridge to my room and then wake me up. He comforted me, protected me and held my hand when I was scared, he was fearless. Except of spiders, NO ONE likes them. He was my bestfriend, I knew it back then that I loved him. But now its stronger then ever. "Maddie, do you ever think of what it would be like if we went out?"
I gigled, "Nahhhhhh" I acually think about it consantly.
"Never? You sure?" He sounded like he needed information. Like he felt the same way as me. But that honestly isn't possible. I mean, he really has never shown any interset in me. He's had plenty of girlfriends, and almost everyone likes him, even Caramel, though she would never admit to it. But Eli has a past. That I'm a part of of course, but there was this girl. He was 13 and he did some stuff, I think her name was Allison. But they did some stuff and he got sick, really sick. The girl wasn't clean, like it wasn't a permenent thing but it made him really sick. 
"Well. No. I lie. Eli, I think of it all the time. I just never want to tell you that." He didn't answer. It was like her was waitign for the punch line, or the "just playin'" but I wasnt. "Why? Do you?"
"Maddie, we have been friends bacially our whole lives. I mean, if been with you through everything, and you've been "
 
 
I asked him why he liked me and it was taking him 20 minutes to answer so I thought he didn't want to talk to me all of a sudden my phone went off he said:
"Your the best girlfriend I've ever had, your smart, cute, funny,
I love the way you procrastinate and your laugh,
and I love how you hug and kiss me,
the list could go on forever, your just amazing"
 
true story<3
SPD + CRH
11.11.1O<3

 

 

 

 
 So he walked me home...
 No one was home so we sat on the front steps talking for a while, it started getting dark, my mom would be home soon. So we stood there hugging for about five minutes, not saying a word. I said “I should be getting inside.” He said “yeah, I should be getting home.” We said bye and I ran inside. He called me twenty minutes later and said...
"I really wanted to kiss you."


 
True Story<3
SPD + CRH♥
November 11th 2O1O
<33333

 


 

Today, me and three of my friends were at the field
all of a sudden a truck yelled to us
"RED ROBIN!"
and without realizing it we yelled
"YUM!"
 

welcome to my life.
I don't know what I want to be. Or where I want to go. But all I know is that I'm not being stuck here. This state is nearly microscopic. I can't stand the thought of leave my friends and family and people yell at me every day but thats aright. You learn to live. I don't know when to shut my mouth and I can't tell you the last time I was sincerely happy with how I look without having to cover myself up with heavy clothing or pounds of make-up & straightener. I write about people who have these glamorous lives filled with parties and tons of money and being so popular, and I've realized that I'm barley even sounding like myself now. I have no idea who I actually am. Most people figure it out in middle school, but I still don't no. It seems as if I'm a pleaser. I please everyone but myself. I do good in school because my mom would disown me if I didn't. I tutor because the church wants me to. I go to church and CCD because my parents want me to get married in a catholic church. I think the only thing I really do for myself is sing and write. I would be doing track this winter but my parents make me so busy that I don't have time for practices or anything else. I feel trapped at school. I don't say a word unless spoken to. I don't move unless asked. I'm always feeling judged. I always feel too fat and not good enough. I like a guy that is so hot he could get anyone. And I like my ex. I haven't been able to get over him and I'm not sure if hes still friends with me for me or because he feels bad for me.
story of my life.
ihold onto the memories, because people change.
i wish i knew how to move on.
so, what's your story?