Status: the girl you used to know? she left just like you did
Joined: April 23, 2011
Last Seen: 7 years
user id: 168152
Location: Hollywood, California
Gender: F
Hi! My names Nicole!
I'm 14 years old!
I'm going into ninth grade, yay. 
I play Lacrosse and Cheerleading 
I'm a Mahomie the Mahomie
I'm madly in love with Austin Mahone.
If you don't know who that is, leave. Just, goodbye. Don't even bother following me.
Well I don't really have many friends cause i'm really annoying and hate people. 
I'd love it if someone would talk to me. 
Have a nice day!

Quotes by iluvyou143

Why don't we all just stop loving the person who doesn't love us back?
Why don't we all stop caring about people who don't car about us?
Why don't we all stop worrying about what other people think?
We spend our whole lives being upset about things we can never change.
If we stop caring, then maybe we'll stop being sad. 
you cannot tell a sad girl that they are pretty
unless you are prepared to hold them
as they sob hysterically at 3 am.
you are not allowed to tell sad girls they are perfect 
if you have never seen the wounds that litter their bodies
and represent each battle lost in a war with themselves
and I'm begging you, please do not tell sad girls
that you are in love with them
unless you truly and entirely are
So today was my first day of high school and I absolutely hated it. I came home and I cryed and I honestly don't want to go back tomorrow. 

So, who wants to be my texting buddy? Now that schools starting I just need someone to talk to. Girl or Guy I don't care. Any takers?

please touch this quote,
write how you truly feel.
I love Austin Mahone;*
From iluvyou143

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Lost and Insecure

Chapter 13
I didn’t know what to say. The only thing that felt right was that I would go; so I said it.
“Really?” Sebastian asked with the biggest smile on his face.
“Yes. But I have to ask my parents.” I answered.
“Already did. They said it was fine.” He answered.
“You know you’re perfect?”
“I’ve heard.” He pulled me at my waist and kissed me, but I couldn’t stop smiling. His little sister and brother ran in smiling and jumping around.
“Did she say yes? Did she say yes?” they both asked excitedly.
“Yes.” He said and they both started screaming and jumping around.
“I’m really happy you’re coming with us!” Isabella said while hugging me.
“I’m happy I am too.” I answered, hugging her back.
Sebastian drove me home and I ran upstairs and started to pack. I was so excited but very surprised that my parents said I could go. I was searching through my closet for cute dresses and then my mom walked in.
“You don’t have to just wear dresses if you don’t want to.” She said.
“Really? So I can wear whatever I want?”
“Yes. I want you to be comfortable.”
“Thank you, thank you, thank you!” I said giving her a big hug.
“Do you have anything other than dresses though?”
“Not really.”
“We can go shopping if you want.”
“You know you’re the best mom ever?”
“I’ve heard,” She giggled, “I’ll go get my stuff ready. We’ll leave in ten minutes.”
“Ok, thanks mom! I love you!” I yelled as she walked out of my room and down the hall to hers. I grabbed my wristlet and looked in the mirror one last time. I walked down stairs and Spencer and Logan were sitting on the couch. I tried to ignore them because I didn’t want them to ask where I was going because I knew my mom would tell them about Disney. I didn’t mind telling Spencer but I didn’t want Logan to know. I feel like if I told Logan he would tell Jason and that would just make everything worse. Luckily mom didn’t say anything and we got out of the house before they asked where we were going.
We got to the mall and my mom brought me to all the best stores. She bought me cute tank tops, shorts, bathing suits, and shoes. After I stepped back into reality I was really confused. It made no sense that she would let me go with Sebastian and even less sense that she would buy me all these clothes. She bought me clothes that she wouldn’t even let me look at last week.
“So why did you suddenly decide to become so cool?” I asked her.
“What do you mean?” She asked giggling.
“Last week you would not have let me go out of the state with my boyfriend and you definitely wouldn’t let me buy all these clothes.”
“Well I guess I should probably tell you now.” My mom said, sitting down on a chair in the dressing room.
“Oh god.”
“I said you could go with Sebastian because Spencer is going to Disney with Logan and his family so I figured she could keep an eye out for you.”
“So you don’t trust me to go on my own?”
“It’s not that I don’t trust you, I don’t trust other people.”
“Like his parents?”
“No his parents are good people.”
“So it’s him you don’t trust?”
“Bailey he is one of those super jocks. You never know.”
“I can’t believe you. If you really trusted me you would trust him because I trust him.”
“I’m sorry honey but I don’t really know him.”
“Whatever mom.” I said and walked out of the dressing room.

Lost and Insecure

Chapter 12
I continued to think about what my purpose in life was. I also wondered where life would take me in the future, and who would come with me. I wondered if I would spend the rest of my life with Sebastian or someone else. I loved Sebastian now, but what if something changed. I guess I would get over it, but I hate heart break. Well I guess it’s just something everyone has to deal with in life.
I rolled out of my bed as my alarm went off. I slipped on a cute dress, as always, and then looked in the mirror. I then started to do my makeup, followed by my hair. It’s the same thing every day but it’s still fun to me. I grabbed my purse and then walked downstairs. My mother had my breakfast ready on the counter so I sat down and started to eat. “How’s Sebastian?” she asked, trying to make conversation.
“He’s good” I answered.
“Is he really good, or are you just saying the first answer that comes to your mind?”
“No, he’s really good mom.”
“Ok, and are you guys good?” she asked.
“Yes mom. We’re good.” I said as spencer walked down the stairs.
“Ready?” she asked.
“Yes.” I answered and followed her out to her car.
“She asked me that kind of thing too, when Logan and I started dating.” Spencer assured me.
“When did she stop?” I asked
“Yesterday,” she said jokingly, “don’t worry about it. She just wants you to be safe.”
“Yeah I understand.”
“So how are you two, honestly?”
“We’re good. I’m just always worried that something is gonna go wrong.”
“It probably will, but if you guys are meant to be together everything will be fine in the end.”
“Thanks Spencer.”
We pulled into the school parking lot and Logan was waiting for spencer were he usually did. I walked in with them till I got to my locker. Where Sebastian was standing there waiting for me. I walked up to him and gave him a kiss. After I put the books I didn’t need in my locker Sebastian took the books I was still holding in one hand and held my hand with the other. I loved the way he did things without me asking him to; that showed me that I was always on his mind. As we walked to my classroom we talked about pointless things and I enjoyed that. I liked talking to him about things that we wouldn’t remember in ten minutes. After first period I decided to walk to Sebastian’s locker. As I was walking there I passed by Jason’s locker and he was standing there putting books into it. I turned and looked the other way, hoping he wouldn’t notice me. I started to walk faster, just in case, and then I reached Sebastian’s locker. I reached up on my tippy toes and put my hands in from of his eyes. He turned around and kissed me, just like they did in the movies.
“So what would you do if that was someone else?” I asked with a smile on my face.
“I’d tell them that they didn’t kiss as good as my girlfriend.” He said, and I just had to kiss him for that. When I pulled away I saw people staring and I got started to feel weird. I grabbed Sebastian’s hand and started walking down the hall. When we reached my classroom he turned to me and kissed me. When he pulled away he asked “Come home with me? We have to talk.” My heart instantly dropped. I hoped it wouldn’t be anything bad, but I couldn’t stop thinking it was.
“Yeah sure.” I answered, trying to act like I wasn’t panicking inside.
“Ok. See you later.” He said and kissed me again.
All day I kept wondering what he wanted to talk about but when the moment finally came, I didn’t want to find out. He walked me up to his room and I sat down on his bed. My heart was beating and my hands started to get sweaty. He really needed to tell me before I exploded. Sebastian sat down next to me and grabbed my hand, and he was shaking too. “Bailey, I’m going to Disney land with my family and my parents said I could invite you.”