Lost and Insecure
I continued to think about what my purpose in life was. I also
wondered where life would take me in the future, and who would come
with me. I wondered if I would spend the rest of my life with
Sebastian or someone else. I loved Sebastian now, but what if
something changed. I guess I would get over it, but I hate heart
break. Well I guess it’s just something everyone has to deal
with in life.
I rolled out of my bed as my alarm went off. I slipped on a cute
dress, as always, and then looked in the mirror. I then started to
do my makeup, followed by my hair. It’s the same thing every
day but it’s still fun to me. I grabbed my purse and then
walked downstairs. My mother had my breakfast ready on the counter
so I sat down and started to eat. “How’s
Sebastian?” she asked, trying to make conversation.
“He’s good” I answered.
“Is he really good, or are you just saying the first answer
that comes to your mind?”
“No, he’s really good mom.”
“Ok, and are you guys good?” she asked.
“Yes mom. We’re good.” I said as spencer walked
down the stairs.
“Ready?” she asked.
“Yes.” I answered and followed her out to her car.
“She asked me that kind of thing too, when Logan and I
started dating.” Spencer assured me.
“When did she stop?” I asked
“Yesterday,” she said jokingly, “don’t
worry about it. She just wants you to be safe.”
“Yeah I understand.”
“So how are you two, honestly?”
“We’re good. I’m just always worried that
something is gonna go wrong.”
“It probably will, but if you guys are meant to be together
everything will be fine in the end.”
We pulled into the school parking lot and Logan was waiting for
spencer were he usually did. I walked in with them till I got to my
locker. Where Sebastian was standing there waiting for me. I walked
up to him and gave him a kiss. After I put the books I didn’t
need in my locker Sebastian took the books I was still holding in
one hand and held my hand with the other. I loved the way he did
things without me asking him to; that showed me that I was always
on his mind. As we walked to my classroom we talked about pointless
things and I enjoyed that. I liked talking to him about things that
we wouldn’t remember in ten minutes. After first period I
decided to walk to Sebastian’s locker. As I was walking there
I passed by Jason’s locker and he was standing there putting
books into it. I turned and looked the other way, hoping he
wouldn’t notice me. I started to walk faster, just in case,
and then I reached Sebastian’s locker. I reached up on my
tippy toes and put my hands in from of his eyes. He turned around
and kissed me, just like they did in the movies.
“So what would you do if that was someone else?” I
asked with a smile on my face.
“I’d tell them that they didn’t kiss as good as
my girlfriend.” He said, and I just had to kiss him for that.
When I pulled away I saw people staring and I got started to feel
weird. I grabbed Sebastian’s hand and started walking down
the hall. When we reached my classroom he turned to me and kissed
me. When he pulled away he asked “Come home with me? We have
to talk.” My heart instantly dropped. I hoped it
wouldn’t be anything bad, but I couldn’t stop thinking
“Yeah sure.” I answered, trying to act like I
wasn’t panicking inside.
“Ok. See you later.” He said and kissed me again.
All day I kept wondering what he wanted to talk about but when the
moment finally came, I didn’t want to find out. He walked me
up to his room and I sat down on his bed. My heart was beating and
my hands started to get sweaty. He really needed to tell me before
I exploded. Sebastian sat down next to me and grabbed my hand, and
he was shaking too. “Bailey, I’m going to Disney land
with my family and my parents said I could invite you.”