Candace Rae; October 12th; 16.
everyone has a story so don't judge.
If you wanna know here it goes gonna tell you this,
The part of me that'll show if you're close,
Gonna let you see everything, but remember that you asked for it.
I'll try to do my best to impress,
But it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest.
But you wanna hear what lives in my brain,
my heart, will you ask for it, for your persuing,
At times confusing, slightly amusing, Introducing Me<3
It's called
love;)119
Junior
Year
Sarah: NATTTTTTTTTT JAYYYYYYY
WAKE UP!!!!! ITS THE FIRST
DAY OF SCHOOOL! WAKE UP WAKEUP WAKE UPPPPPP!!!!!!!
Me: I'm up Sarahh!
Justin: k Sarebear.
In our house,
Justin's room is at the end of the hall. Walking out of
Justin's room, first door on the left is my room and then
down the hall across the catwalk at the top of our stairs and on
the right is Sarah's room. So yeah our house is quite big,
but sometime's my Mom and Jeff are asking for me and Justin
to hook up! Like really they leave us home alone whenever they
want us too! They let us leave when we want to, after all we have
our own cars but we basically share one we are always
together!
I walk into Justin's
room and sit on the edge of his bed..
Me:
Good Morning..
Justin *smiling*: good morning!
Me: you going to get up and get ready?
Justin: not until you give me a good morning
kiss!
Me: Is that all you want? okayy!
Justin: like we have time to do more!
Me: we always do, I told you when I'm
ready I'm sorry, just a little longer baby.
Justin: no pressure, I can wait
forever..
Me: we really need to talk about what
we're
going to do though..
Justin: about?
Me: If we're going to stay together after
graduation,
how do we tell my mom and Jeff?
Justin*kissing my head*: don't worry, we
have plenty of
time to talk about it, I promise.
Me: alright, get up! You have to look good today
it's
picture day! Take a shower and I'll make you breakfast.
Justin: Let's go somewhere special this
weekend, just
you and me..
Me: like they'll allow us..
Justin: Already did, were good.
Me: where will we be going?
Justin: you'll see, now get in the
kitchen!(;
Me: keep it up like that and you'll be going
alone
this weekend!
Justin: or will I? just kidding alright one
kiss
and I'm in the shower!
I kissed him, a nice, slow, pleasurable kiss. And then he was up,
naked, then gone..
It's called
love;)118
Junior
Year
Sophomore year went by slow at
first and slowly got faster. The longer I went without Sam, the
easier it got. Justin worked really hard and got his grades up.
Everyone stopped questioning our mental stability. To the school
if Jay and I were not related we would be the perfect
"It" couple, but we are "related" and so we
are just the cute 'siblings/ best friends' our school had
seen. To our parents they had the perfect children who got
along and were the best of friends. Everyone was jealous. We
OWNED the school. Head cheerleader, related to the head
football/basketball/baseball star. Once Sam's death faded,
everyone wanted to be like us. They were all jealous of how
fabulous everything was turning out for us... But to me? Things
were about to change. With a lot of lovers, comes a few to many
haters. Remember Jessica? She got super jealous of how popular I
became said "I never gave her the attention she needs as a
best friend" She spread a ton of rumors telling people of
how fake I am and for awhile everyone believed her and no one
would talk to me. But Justin saved me. He backed me up and
everyone believed him over Jessica. I keep trying to get her back
but it's no use, our friendship what was even left of it is
gone. I'm waiting for the day she'll start talking about
Justin and I's past relationship that she knew about.. I have
a feeling that day will be coming soon. But as for now? Justin
and I are still in love, yeah I know it's only been two years
since Sam's death and if Sam were here I would be running
straight for his arms, but Justin's all I have. The only
person who stood by my side the whole time, the only one who gets
me and I don't know where I'd be without him. This is
where our story will continue, As we know of right now this is
the happiest we have ever been, yes mourning still we have lost a
great friend and romance, but it's time we move
on.
It's called
love;)117
Me:
Justin.. could you go downstairs?
Sorry I know that sounds mean..I just need
time to..think.
Justin: alright.. understandable..
He kissed my forehead, and
walked out the door, closing it behind him. I layed there for a
moment thinking. Then I got out some old letters from Sam..
Hi Babygirl,
Today you stopped by to see me, just to say hi! I love you.
You are so beautiful. You had no make up on, hair up in a
"bun," in sweats and a sweatshirt with paint all over
it, because you were painting your new room and didn't feel
like getting ready because you were tired. I love you. I
love the fact that you know you don't have to look sexy, to
be beautiful to me. most girls think that they have to get all
ready for their boyfriends, but you, you know that that's not
true and or right. You know you dont have to because if I
don't like you the way you are then I shouldn't like you
all hot and sexy. When you go back out there don't forget
this, please. Tonight we cuddled, and watched some fireworks on
youtube because we aren't sure I'm going to make it to
fourth of July... I will baby. I will. I love you so much.
If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you, its
yours. If it doesn't, it never was. I will be waiting for
you, just think of me up there with the big guy sharin' some
stories and laughin' and by the time you get up here our home
will be built. If you, which you will, move on and you already
have a new family, then by golly I will just hug you, and we will
have to catch up on coffee sometime.
I love you,
Sam
It's called
love;)117
Justin: Okay..
whatsup?
Me: I want to..
Justin: you want to what?
Me: Never mind.. you can go downstairs.
Justin: Please just finish your
sentence.
Me: No never mind it doesn't matter..
Justin: Nat..
Me: Justin, I want to kiss you..
Justin: That's it?
Me:yeah.. you're mad aren't you?
Justin: Nat, I want to kiss you too!
No, I want to more than kiss you.
Me:oh..
Justin: yeah, wow..
Me: Why don't you then?
Justin: I'm just as scared as you are!
Me: oh.. well you shouldn't be scared!
Justin: You shouldn't be scared either!
Me: I don't know if you change over
time..
Justin: Yeah..It gets bigger..But my
feelings
will never change Natalie.
Me: you are dirty!
Justin: shut up and kiss me already!
Me: I refuse to now.
Justin Leaned in and
kissed me so tenderly, so passionately, so gently, it was
incredible. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him
down. He was lying on top of me, and we just started making out.
Right now, with Justin, I feel unstoppable. I slowed down
the kisses so I could say something.
Me: Justin, Just-..tin.. I have a question.
He stopped kissing me, grabbed
my hand and rolled over to my side to face me. Randomly kissing
me here and there.
Justin: I love you..
Me: are you sure?
Justin: I've stayed here this long
haven't I?
Me: yeah..